who i was feat mgk

Nf

Ash and dust
Everything I care about enough
Burning up (yeah)
(Alright, turn my, uh, vocals up)
Nothing left of who I thought I was
(And then just let it run) I was

I m stuck in traffic, tryna find my way
to a home that I ve never known
On a GPS with no address
So I ll follow my heart, but my heart is scattered
Like my father s ashes in the back
of the rental after I dropped his urn
Probably a metaphor for everything I ve learned
Like how the only love I ll have is gonna crash and burn
Or how the poorest I ve felt was after the most I ve earned
The biggest lie told is that no one should be concerned
There s gotta be another highway that don t lead to Hell
A star to lead me through the darkest night
like Christian Bale
I hid from God for more than two decades of life
And when I came back to the light
He didn t ask me if I m Christian still
Just opened up His arms and embraced me like I m His Son
Erasin all the archetypes of what people like me become
Since I was young, my personality split
like serpent s tongue
But all the poison in my body still ain t make me numb
I lost a best friend and felt all that
Cryin on his open casket while I knelt on that
I had a best man picked out for my wedding
But instead of getting married
I carried guilt and left all that
A vagabond that broke a bond for Boca Raton
Who all along regretted he never kept all that
I left everything behind
but this engagement ring and a frozen heart
I m standin in the fire to melt all that, yeah

Ash and dust
Everything I care about enough
(Burn) burning up
Nothing left of who I thought I was
I was

I, I, I was
Yeah
(Burn)

Lash out
Need to take a breath and calm down
Try to regulate, don t know how
Wasn t taught that in my house
Kids of my own, I step back
Look at those smiles and feel sad
Hope they don t wind up like Dad
Stuck in this loop like I am
I ve
Called you, never heard back
After everything we ve been through, the good and the bad
You re bout to throw it all away and overreact
Because I overreacted, karma, I guess
My temper gets the best of me
A part of me that I wish I knew how to get rid of
It s the issue I have, my MO
Say I need you and I love you to death
Then turn around and go and treat you
like you nothin but trash
I know

I know I messed that part up, but

I know, I know, I know, I know, I know
Yeah, I know
Sometimes, I
Lash out
Need to take a breath and calm down
Try to regulate, don t know how
Wasn t taught that in my house
Kids of my own, I step back
Look at those smiles and feel sad
Hope they don t wind up like Dad
Stuck in this loop like I am
I