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Dear God, please
Hear me out, I know it s been a couple years
Since I ve reached
Out and said hello, I bet you re wondering
Why I keep
Obsessing on and stressing all the little things
When I should be
Living life and soaking up the memories

I know I ve been
Selfish, I have
No excuse to give you it s true
Hanging by a
Thread s how I live
I don t know why but
I feel more comfortable

Livin in my agony
Watching my self-esteem
Go up in flames acting
Like I don t
Care what anyone else thinks
When I know truthfully
That that s the furthest thing
From how I
Feel but I m too proud to open up and ask ya
To pick me up and pull me out this hole I m trapped in
The truth is, I need help, but I just can t imagine
Who I d be if I was happy

Yeah, been this way so long, it feels like something s off
When I m not depressed
I got some issues that I won t address
I got some baggage I ain t opened yet
I got some demons I should put to rest
I got some traumas that I can t forget
I got some phone calls I been avoidin
Some family members I don t really connect with
Some things I said I wish I would of not let slip
Some hurtful words that never should of left my lips
Some bridges burned, I m not ready to rebuild yet
Some insecurities I haven t dealt with, yes
I ll be the first to admit that I m a lonely soul
And the last to admit I need a hand to hold
Losing hope
Headed down a dangerous road
Strange, I know
But I feel most at home when I m

Livin in my agony
Watching my self-esteem
Go up in flames acting
Like I don t
Care what anyone else thinks
When I know truthfully
That that s the furthest thing
From how I
Feel but I m too proud to open up and ask ya
To pick me up and pull me out this hole I m trapped in
The truth is, I need help, but I just can t imagine
Who I d be if I was happy

Don t know what s around the bend
Don t know what my future is
But I can t keep on livin in

Livin in my agony
Watching my self-esteem
Go up in flames acting
Like I don t
Care what anyone else thinks
When I know truthfully
That that s the furthest thing
From how I
Feel but I m too proud to open up and ask ya
To pick me up and pull me out this hole I m trapped in
The truth is, I need help, but I just can t imagine
Who I d be if I was happy
If I was happy
If I was happy