i can t believe you re gone

Bleachers

Another year passes of hopes and derailments
Blood tests and Hi-Chews and loving the careless
Litigate the family, our father s condition
Better-man speeches
whilst caveman traditions

But inches of glory and the leaps of true faith
No, they don t come easy but they honor the way
That another day over, a moment or a year
Bring me right back to the start
with the same damn words I fear

So you retrace the steps
and you dust the path for prints
There s a wasteland in you
is there something you ve missed?
These grand self-obsessions
are a way of hitting snooze
The truth is too dark and there is too much to lose

But inches of glory and the leaps of true faith
No, they don t come easy but they honor the ways
That another day over a moment or a year
Bring me right back to the start
with the same damn words I feared
I can t believe you re gone

There s the car that we drove when you were still around
Some clothing and wallpaper, a Burger King crown
Sand bottles and essays outlive you, how wrong
This room is a nightmare, this room is my god

It s where I ll finish the wire
where my face hits the floor
Where I chose to leave, where the god met the whore
Some days, a giant, and others, a kid
And some days I m too scared to even fucking begin
?Cause I can t believe you re gone

Well, maybe we should
all move back in as a family
Torture each other during TV hours
Talk about money, our father s condition
And be real about that one true thing
we re all missing

And you know it s a leap, but sometimes you wanna say
That tonight s the night and we re gonna be okay
These hope-filled lies
these unearned traditions
If you repeat them enough
you can live with somebody who s missing