five

Sleeping At Last

I want to watch the universe expand
I want to break it into pieces small enough
to understand, and put it all back together
again in the quiet of my private collection
It feels like an out-of-body experience?
but something gets lost from a safe distance
and now I can't put my mind to rest
and I can't help but second guess living behind
this one-way mirror
I'm hypnotized by this anomaly
Such strange uncharted territory?
a white flag waves in the dark between
my head and my heart. My armor falls apart
as if I could let myself be seen
even deeply known
Like I was already brave enough to let go
And now I want to generously lose this energy
that I've been hanging onto so desperately
I finally feel the universe expand?
it's hidden in heartbeats, exhales
and in the hope of open hands