enough

Russ

Yeah

I wasn t right within, was lyin tryna find a slim openin
To cope with grim realities of hopelessness
The casualties of broken men, unhappily devoted when
They hit me, all the walls were tryna kiss me
they were closin in
I m soakin in a tub of how the fuck did this all happen?
Can I fasten my seatbelt
before the tree and me are wrapped in
A blanket I can t escape?
But the brakes that I have ain t brakin
And the weight that I feel is achin
they say we don t feel the same shit
The pain isn t real, I m famous, the cage
that I m in is dangerous
I m chained, the perception anxious
every day I m faced the anguish
Of fakin and savin faces, so drainin , I pray it changes
Self-hatred s an understatement for makin the bed I lay in
My faith and my patience shaken, I m cravin a new awakenin
I m chasin myself, I m wavin , complainin that I m evadin
Betrayin myself was strainin
and slayed by my past, I m racin
That ancient indoctrination, I m blazin whatever s failin
And scrapin up the remainin , be shapin my soul creatin
Embracin the new foundation, no swayin , no more decayin
The process of excavation, surveillin what needs replacin
This daily, can t get complacent, I m takin solo vacations
I need solitude, I think a bottle too, many problems due
To not wanting to upset my family, plus I got the news
That sadness ain t allowed
from the same crowd that turns around
And asks for sad songs, tell me how
cause as a man, you cannot frown
Don t make a sound, just a stand up proud
No one appreciatin us until we re dead and underground
It s no surprise that suicide is super high
it s not unusual
Cause men know
that they only get their flowers at their funeral
We re hardenin ourselves instead of gardennin ourselves
Suppressed emotions, we re alone
so now we re targetin ourselves
Don t wanna talk to out of pride, in fear of comin off weak
Some women lookin at you lesser
if there s tears on your cheek
But if there s tears tattooed, that same girl is a freak
So they attracted to the pain
unless they hear the pain speak
Society romanticizin silent sufferers, stoicism is sexy
Unless he can t show that
he fucks with her, if that s your girl, be done with her
Cause if you re numb to the pain
then you re numb to the pleasure
Whether it s sun or it s rain
to you it s all the same weather
These days I m better off retreated and reserved
On a resort, then re-emerge feelin recharged
and reassured that I m
Enough

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