Playlist Tor Miller

tor miller - always

Maybe I hate being alone
And holding you through a cellphone
And running' hard from the miles
If I could break all the fast clocks
Would it make all the noise stop
Could we be still for a while

I'm probably gonna let you down

Lying awake in a fever
Call me a cold sweat believer
I will be loving you always, always, always
Heart beating louder than thunder
If you are ever to wonder
I will be loving you always, always, always

I'm looking for lights on the runway
Can you forget my mistakes
And wipe the blood from my hands
Take me from the city of angels
All the stars and the fables
Show me somewhere to land

I never wanna let you down

Lying awake in a fever
Call me a cold sweat believer
I will be loving you always, always, always
Heart beating louder than thunder
If you are ever to wonder
I will be loving you always, always, always

I don't want to ever lose you
I will love you always, always, always
I don't want to ever lose you
I will love you always, always, always

Lying awake in a fever
Call me a cold sweat believer
I will be loving you always, always, always
Heart beating louder than thunder
If you are ever to wonder
I will be loving you always, always, always

I don't want to ever lose you
I will love you always, always, always

Don't know how we got to this place
But I'll be loving you always
And I always will

tor miller - baby blue

I left home about a week ago
I never really had a brain of my own
Back then I had an ego
Thinking that the world was so damn small

And it's like the lawn is on fire
Like the fumes might get me high

And baby blue, what should I do?
Will I feel so lost without you?
And I'm deaf, dumb, blind and out of touch
Your eyes got so big
Who can I trust?
And I feel so far from your side
And when I look up I start to cry
You're a darker hue
My baby blue

And I've re-read the same page
Never comprehending what the words have to say
I'm always on the next stage
Living for a moment that never comes my way

And it's like my number is retired
Like we always knew our lines

And baby blue, what should I do?
Will I feel so lost without you?
And I'm deaf, dumb, blind and out of touch
Your eyes got so big
Who can I trust?
And I feel so far from your side
And when I look up I start to cry
You're a darker hue

Baby blue, what should I do?
Will I feel so lost without you?
I'm deaf, dumb, blind and out of touch
Your eyes got so big
Who can I trust?
And I feel so far from your side
And when I look up I start to cry
You're a darker hue
My baby blue

You're a darker hue
My baby blue

tor miller - carter amp cash

Oh, how I let you fall from under me
I walked away, never looking back
To chase, the remnants of a fleeting dream
That couldn't wait, just wouldn't wait for me
Chorus]
Heartbeat like it never could stop
Tell my vision and my mind we'd be giving you up this time, no
Running wild, trying to set myself free
Lost sight of what was standing right in front of me
This time

And all the while the world
It hit me with the speed of sound
And don't you worry girl
I'm always going to be around
And by the last, just like Carter and Cash

[Verse 2]
Now, I walked this line right next to you
With every step, the closer that we'll get
Caught, in a fever that's so pure and true
We'll paint the town, until it all burns down

[Chorus]
Heartbeat like it never could stop
Tell my vision and my mind we'd be giving you up this time, no
Running wild, trying to set myself free
Lost sight of what was standing right in front of me
This time

And all the while the world
It hit me with the speed of sound
And don't you worry girl
I'm always going to be around
And by the last, just like Carter and Cash

[Outro]
Heartbeat like it never could stop
Tell my vision and my mind we'd be giving you up this time, no I
Running wild, trying to set myself free
Lost sight of what was standing right in front of me
This time

And all the while the world
It hit me with the speed of sound
And don't you worry girl
I'm always going to be around
And by the last, just like Carter and Cash

Just like Carter and Cash
Just like Carter and Cash
Just like Carter and Cash

Just like Carter and Cash

tor miller - headlights

I feel like I'm standing on a mountain
Where everyone can see me
In the worst way
All these eyes on me expecting
But I can't find a thing to say

Headlights
Casting my shadow
On the clouds behind me
The dark in all that define me
In all that blinding confusion
How did I ever find you?

In a life of second guessing
I knew at first glance
I would let you in
In the emotion of the moment
I gave myself to chance
Thought of where we go
Not of where I've been

Headlights
I'm weak and I'm hollow
With the weight of my own head
To heavy on my bones
Headlights
I'm eager to follow
So many things unsaid
And so much still unknown
Headlights
Clearing the shadow
On the clouds behind me
I'm free for you to define me
Nothing else in my vision
How did I ever lose you?

I was living such a vacant life
And then I thought that I had it right this time
As fast as a fool can fall
I'm trapped back in these same four walls
I was living such a lonely life
And then I thought that it all come right this time
As fast as a fool can fall
Drive back in these same four walls

Headlights
Casting my shadow
On the clouds behind me
The dark in all that define me
In all that blind and confusion
How did I ever find you?
Headlights
Clearing the shadow
On the clouds behind me
I'm free for you to define me
Nothing else in my vision
How did I ever lose you?

I was living such a vacant life
And then I thought that I had it right this time
As fast as a fool can fall
Trapped back in these same four walls
I was living such a lonely life
Then I thought it all come right this time
As fast as a fool can fall
Drive back in these same four walls

tor miller - hold the phone

From the first kiss
I always thought we would be more than this
Some call it bliss
But there's something that we've always missed

If you love me now
Speak it true and let your words ring out
Here I stand
With open arms and my heart in hand

Hold the phone
I never you knew you felt so alone
Let it be known
I never wanted to let you go
I never wanted to let you go
I never wanted to let you go
I never wanted to let you go

For every show
The curtain called and the lights went low
Fast and slow
The wind who whips the life on the road

Hold the phone
I never knew you felt so alone
Let it be known
I never wanted to let you go
I never wanted to let you go
I never wanted to let you go
I never wanted to let you go

And I was only
Trying to make it
To start a better life
A house with the yard and kids
Maybe a wife
Thought I was doing right
By making my name in the spotlight
Other fortunes seemed
More than important than you and I
Our inconsequential lives
Sending its tower
Clocks the hour
So I'll try to come home tonight
And I was only
Trying to make it

tor miller - midnight

Jeff Buckley's Grace was playing loud as hell
In a back of an old dive bar
So I step outside and light a cigarette
Taking the fumes of the passing cars
Loud angry drunks and a few crest punks
Fill every crevasse of Saint Mark's
Some things have changed since back then
But the streets are still so hard

In the lonely hours of Midnight
When New York city's lying wide awake
Under the glow of street light
I feel the rumble of the concrete mix
On my head, lookout down
Ride through the Harlem to the interstate
And my soul reunite
In the lonely hours of Midnight

Two lovers falling in each other's arms
Stumbling now on the high line
Upon the bridge there's a broken heart
Screaming to his valentine
Two sunken eyes at the corner shop
Tryina get a lucky for a dime
The needle drops and the line it turns
And then it burns one right

In the lonely hours of Midnight
When New York city's lying wide awake
Under the glow of street light
I feel the rumble of the concrete mix
On my head, lookout down
Ride through the Harlem to the interstate
And my soul reunite
In the lonely hours of Midnight

Calling out for something
Calling out for something true

In the lonely hours of Midnight
When New York city's lying wide awake
Under the glow of street light
I feel the rumble of the concrete mix

In the lonely hours of Midnight
When New York city's lying wide awake
Under the glow of street light
I feel the rumble of the concrete mix
On my head, lookout down
Ride through the Harlem to the interstate
And my soul reunite
In the lonely hours of Midnight
In the lonely hours of Midnight
In the lonely hours of Midnight

tor miller - now and again

Now and again
I'll be thinkin about you
It will cross through my head
There's nothin' I can do
And I wonder if you're going out
or if you're staying home instead
Am I just being paranoid?
Or is it all in my head?

Now I'm tellin myself I should give it up
Get off before the end of line
Am I kidding myself I will live it up
If I could only get you out of my mind

I'd make the calls with it all if I really wanted you
And you'd throw your pride to the side
if that's what you gotta do
And we could have it all
if we really wanted to
if we really wanted to

Every day I'm livin' in this deja vu
Feels the pain
of punchin in and then punching through
I'm tired of this shit I gotta do
I'd rather stay home instead
Just the 9 to 5 to be with you
and I'd be sleepin in my bed

I'd make the calls with it all if I really wanted you
And you'd throw your pride to the side
if that's what you gotta do
And we could have it all
if we really wanted to
if we really wanted to

I can't stop
Get you outta of my head
and I am wishing there were times I would have said
that I think about you and I want you so bad
Oh I think about you
I can't stop
Get you outta of my head
and I am wishing there were times I would have said
that I think about you and I want you so bad
Oh I think about you

I'd make the calls with it all if I really wanted you
And you'd throw your pride to the side
if that's what you gotta do
And we could have it all
if we really wanted to
if we really wanted to

tor miller - surrender

[intro]
Baby I, baby I surrender
Baby I, baby I surrender
Baby I, baby I surrender
Baby I, baby I surrender

[verse 1]
Give my records back
But keep my sweater on
It's gonna be a cold december
Maybe we ran out of electricity
Maybe we're too young our hearts too tender
But the tail lights
Over the bridge are already fading

[chorus]
One less night with you
One less avenue
One less moment to remember
One more l-train stop
And one last look at you
And no more playing the pretender

Baby I surrender, uh
Baby baby I surrender, uh

[verse 2]
You call at 2 am but I won't pick up
Every sidewalk will be wider than an ocean
I'll delete your name, erase my history
It will feel just like a revolution, oh

[chorus]
One less night with you
One less avenue
One less moment to remember
One more l-train stop
And one last look at you
And no more playing the pretender

Baby I surrender, uh
Baby baby I surrender, uh

[bridge]
The tail lights over the bridge
Are already fading
Before my heart has one more reason
From breaking

[chorus]
One less night with you
One less avenue
One less moment to remember
One more l-train to stop
And one last look at you
And no more playing the pretender

Baby I surrender, uh
Baby baby I surrender, uh
Baby I surrender
Surrender
Surrender

tor miller - stampede

With your hair tied back and my t-shirt on
and we're bathed in red drownin' in the yarn
Well I know how the story goes, well I know

We got love to spill, we got blood to bleed
Never gave a fuck where our lives would lead
But I know, I'm gonna lose you in the stampede

Settle down in the thunder
Lay your soul in this bed
Gimme ghosts to remember, not to regret

With your hair tied back and my t-shirt on
And the universe rattlin' through your bones
Well I know how this story goes, well I know

In your sister's car when we stole the keys
To the reservoir at a break-neck speed
Well I know I'm gonna lose you in the stampede

Hummingbird in the jet stream
Paper boat in the sea
Stay, with me reckless
Baby stay with me

With your hair tied back and my t-shirt on
And you're painted red drownin' in the yarn
Well I know how this story goes, well I know

Wanna burst your heart, wanna watch you sleep
Nothing in this life is ever guaranteed
But I know I'm gonna lose you in the stampede

With your hair tied back and my t-shirt on
And the universe rattlin' through your bones
Well I know how this story goes, well I know

In a concrete rush with nowhere to breathe
And it feels like we lose another mouth to feed
I know I'm gonna lose you in the stampede

With your hair tied back and my t-shirt on
And we're bathed in red drownin' in the yarn
I know I'm gonna lose you in the stampede

tor miller - fade

He started selling drugs for the money
Putting some to the side
Getting all fucked up on your own supply
Riding with the same group of guys
We used to hide away from
And I was so caught up
Tryna make it instead
That I cut you off just to get ahead
Scared that you were dragging me
Deeper down into the mud

Woah oh!
What have we Become
Cause you and I both could have
Whatever we wanted
But we were two punk kids
Though the costs were always fronted
Our growth was only stunted
Knowing we would always be picked back up
And I watched you
As you turned your back to our class
Embarrassed by the money
That our folks had
Man, I was too
But I only tried to strengthen the sum

And I always sit
Where we used to rest
Smoke cigarettes
And watch the sun set
Over our town
And the plans that we laid
As we fade, as we fade

And I don't really know where we should start
We were so damn different and born to drift apart
Maybe all we had in common
Was a love for the drugs
But I can still feel you pushing
Pushing down on my chest
As I cross my arms
And force my last breath
We were always willing to risk the blackout
For a shot at the buzz

And I always sit
Where we used to rest
Smoke cigarettes
And watch the sun set
Slow to the ground
Casting our shade
As we fade
as we fade

You're probably drunk
At the local bar
On a Wednesday afternoon
With the same old faces
That never had the guts to move
And I live back in my parents' house
With no clue what to do
Maybe quit the dream
And pick back up the school

And I always sit
Where we used to rest
Smoke cigarettes
And watch the sun set
And I hit you up
To see how you've been
You say you've been better
But you want to hang again
Though we both know
That promises made
Only fade, only fade
Only fade

tor miller - friends with you

I've been stretching truth
And I've been living lies
I can tell you anything
but what's really on my mind
I think it's crazy how much I choose to hide
From someone who's known me best
for the longest time

I see you glisten
The shining in your eyes
Either from what's in your solo cup
or what I'm 'bout to bring to light
And the music was pulled out from the plug
I can feel the people looking over and surrounding us
Oh but it's too late, and oh it's just begun
It's time for you to know where I'm coming from

But I've, I've never had so much to lose
And the cost is something I'm not accustomed to
I know you're gonna see me different
And I hate to have to make you choose
But we can't pretend
We can't go back to how it was
before you knew
I can't be friends with you
I can't be friends with you

I see two outcomes to this scenario
Either it will ruin us or you can let it go
And that you've had enough
But come tomorrow
Tonight is all a blur
And nothing but a joke
And there's a third one
Which I hope is true
That somewhere deep inside
you can feel it too
Please don't freeze up
and reach out for your phone
But give me something real
to know I'm not alone
You can kiss me, decide to up and run
Or you can say you have no clue
where I was coming from

But I've, I've never had so much to lose
And the cost is something I'm not accustomed to
I know you're gonna see me different
And I hate to have to make you choose
But we can't pretend
We can't go back to how it was before you knew
I can't be friends with you

If I don't say it now
I'll watch you walking out
with someone that I could've been
And I'll always hate myself
And you may never tell
But it won't be the same again
And I wish it wasn't true
And I wish it wasn't true

But I've, I've never had so much to lose
And the cost is something
I'm not accustomed to
I know you're gonna see me different
And I hate to have to make you choose
But we can't pretend
We can't go back to how it was
before you knew
I can't be friends with you
I can't be friends with you

If I don't say it now
I'll watch you walking out
with someone that I could've been
And I'll always hate myself
And you may never tell
But it won't be the same again
And I wish it wasn't true
And I wish it wasn't true

tor miller - stop the world

We both had it coming, had the same beat
Her mountain of pressure, and a rising of heat
And for the slightest moment I felt complete
With the world
Your head was resting
in my trembling arms
And right then and there that nothing could harm
Me and my girl

But it all came crashing down
With a blood stain on your mothers couch
She's a good Christian woman
But got plenty of doubts about
You and me

And if that's my greatest fear
Stop the world, I'll jump off right here
They say it's worse with every year
Stop the world, I'll jump off right here

Well you and I both know to get a bit wild
Sometimes I yell at you
like you were a little child
I can feel you slipping from my hold
And the harder I grasp
the more you want to let go
I can't help myself, no

Cause it all came crashing down
When Sunday rolled around
Her feeling with no base
Had me screaming in your face
That she'd leave me for one of these clowns

And if that's my greatest fear
Stop the world, I'll jump off right here
They say it's worse with every year
Stop the world, I'll jump off right here

Don't want to knock down your doors
For a moment that does not exist, no more

That simpler time, that I hold so dear
Stop the world I'll jump off right here

Stop the world, I'll jump off right here
Stop the world, I'll jump off right here
Right here, right here
Stop the world, I'll jump off right here
Stop the world

tor miller - sunday scaries

Sunday scaries, always creeping
3am, I'm never sleeping
Drink too much, knees goddamn weak
And I know I'm wasting my time
I think I'm losing my mind
Oh I'll never drink again (Oh no)

Sunday scaries, on a hot streak
Spend my pay in less than one week
Lost my card and cut my left cheek
My sheets are drenched and they reek
My girlfriend don't want to speak
Oh I just won't drink again

I swear to god, I'll quit the whole thing
All of the drugs and all the stupid parties
Even the women, flush them out of every vein
Just get them out of my brain

Sunday scaries, got me thinking
All my dreams are slowing sinking
Chance to change just slowly shrinking
I'll always be a deadbeat
I'll have to live on the street
And I'll never sleep again

I swear to god, I'll quit the whole thing
All of the drugs and all the stupid parties
Even the women, flush them out of every vein
Just get them out of my brain

I'm ready to change, I'm ready to change
Pull yourself together, well it never lasts
Come tomorrow morning, well it's gonna pass

Oh I swear to god, I'll quit the whole thing
All of the drugs and all the stupid parties
Even the women, flush them out of every vein
Scare them out of my brain

Sunday scaries, always creeping
3am, I'm never sleeping

tor miller - surviving the suburbs

I've got a girlfriend, but it ain't much more than
Someone to hang out with from time to time
And we like to drive around 'cause it beats being at home
And find different ways into town
But there're only so many ways to go

And on my dashboard I crush an Adderall
We smoke a blunt outside the strip mall
And in the haze of a sleepless night
We drive and we drive and we drive

But we can't get out
We can't get out of here
We can't get out
We can't get out of here

And I've got a few friends, don't have much in common
And would still I still see them without the dimes?
Just trying to survive is harder than you know
I want to feel alive but it's hard
when time moves so slow

And on my dashboard I crush an Adderall
We smoke a blunt outside the strip mall
And in the haze of a sleepless night
We drive and we drive and we drive

But we can't get out
We can't get out of here
We can't get out
We can't get out of here

Cause I'm young, broke and stoned
I am bored and alone, scared of myself
And I'm trying to cope with the world outside my phone

We can't get out
We can't get out of here
We can't get out
We can't get out of here
We can't get out
We can't get out of here
We can't get out
We can't get out of here

And on my dashboard I crush an Adderall
We smoke a blunt outside the strip mall

tor miller - the feeling

See I'd no love for the suburbs
Thought we were scum
Only concerned with getting drunk
And took all our privilege and all of the money
Drove it all down to the local dump
And pissed it all away
But we all laughed it off
Like she said something dumb
Way to serious for twenty-one
Got all the time in the world
Now it's time to have fun
Who's she to say when we're hiding from

But it haunts me everyday
For all the great nights
I can't remember one
It haunts me everyday
For all the great nights, all I remember

Is staring up at the ceiling
When my mind starts unreeling
Try to push past the feeling, again

And when it subsides
And the fear passes on
I go see my friends
Like nothing is wrong
I'd rather hurt myself
Than try and be strong
Fitting myself in somewhere
I dont belong

And it's just too hard to say
For all the great nights
Oh, it's just too hard to say
For all the great nights, I can't remember
It's just too hard to say
For all the great nights, all I remember

Is staring up at the ceiling
When my mind starts unreeling
Try to push past the feeling, again
The dark future revealing
Every breath that I'm stealing
Try to push past the feeling

Get her out of my head
Cause every word she said rang true
It killed my youth and changed my view
Now this bed ain't meant for sleeping
Cause it never helps me tell
(helps me tell)
Anymore, nothing's the same

Cause I'm staring up at the ceiling
When my mind starts unreeling
Try to push past the feeling, again
For all the great nights, I can't remember
The dark future revealing
Every breath that I'm stealing
Try to push past the feeling
For all the great nights
(for all the great nights)

Staring up at the ceiling
When my mind starts unreeling
Try to push past the feeling
For all the great nights, I can't remember
The dark future revealing
Every breath that I'm stealing
Try to push past the feeling (I can't remember)

I'm staring up at the ceiling
When my mind starts unreeling
Try to push past the feeling
For all the great nights
I can't remember one

tor miller