Playlist This Wild Life

this wild life - break down

I just can't keep this running
It's been seven years still nothing changes
I'm always waiting on you to break down
One record in my car, a quarter tank won't get me far
I'm stuck in the third, stuck in the dirt
A warm forty to quench my thirst

Nowhere to go, all alone
Singing your song, you're not in shotgun

Forget my pain, forget my name
I've told you time and time again
That when you break down, I break down
Forget directions or bad intentions
I'm lost without your headlights
And when you break down, I break down

I guess I'm always running
Twenty seven years still I can't change it
I'm always waiting on you to break down
We made love in your car
The backseat so uncomfortable
I went right in and cried again
That smell still lingers on my skin

this wild life - break me

We all lie just to get by
It feels fine for a little while
I can't keep it up for long
Cause I'm spinning a web and I'm stuck and it's fucked
But I know this will hurt
Cause when I'm hurt, I treat you worse

I miss your skin, I miss your touch
I never thought it'd hurt this much
I hate this feeling in my gut
I wish you would quit me, I wish you would just leave
Cause I can never walk away
And so it's up to you to break me

And I'll try to say goodbye
I'll be fast to save you time
I can't help but stay the night
You're alarmed and you're hurt and I just make it worse
When I run through your veins
Cause when I'm hurt, I treat you worse

I miss your skin, I miss your touch
I never thought it'd hurt this much
I hate this feeling in my gut
I wish you would quit me, I wish you would just leave
Cause I can never walk away
And so it's up to you to break me

You can have my body, just not my soul
Can't give what's not mine anymore
Have my body, just not my soul
You can have my body, I've lost control
Can't live on my own anymore
Have my body, just not my soul
Have my body, but not my soul
Have my body, but not my soul

I miss your skin, I miss your touch
I never thought it'd hurt this much
I hate this feeling in my gut
I wish you would quit me, I wish you would just leave
Cause I can never walk away
And so it's up to you to break me

this wild life - brick wall

I've got a feeling that we're closer to the end
Than where we began
So just let me go, send me home, give me away
And throw me away

I think we're better off just being friends
Than to sleep in one bed
Without facing you, tasting you
What's with you these days?
Did our love go away?

Cause I'm a brick wall bound to fall
My head into the pavement
You don't want me at all
So leave with what you came with
I know I can't go on, with this feeling in my blood
You've fallen out of love
And I think I've lost my touch

Yeah yeah, I'll come back if you ask
Because this bath is getting colder
And its water is black with my stains
When you threw me away

Cause I'm a brick wall bound to fall
My head into the pavement
You don't want me at all
So leave with what you came with
I know I can't go on, with this feeling in my blood
You've fallen out of love
And I think I've lost my touch

Who will want me now, now
That I've fallen from your clouds?
Who will want me now, now
That I've fallen from your clouds?
Who will want me now, now
That I've fallen from your clouds?
Who will want me now, now
That I've fallen from your clouds?
Who will want me now, now
That I've fallen from your clouds?

this wild life - change my sheets

Change my sheets, a brand new me
I'll start again, I'll keep it cleaned
Cause I've been circling the drain
It seems for days, but maybe it's just me
And I've been calling out your name

But where did you go?

Bleach my stains, forget my pains
Let's talk it all out now
Cut my knees begging you please

But where did you go?

I guess it's true
That I don't know what to do
That I don't know what to do
Without you
I guess it's true
That I don't know what to do
I still don't know what to do
Without you

Slowly I'm falling through each of your stories
The bottom seems near now remember you told me
I'll never feel that way again, I'll never feel that pain again
I'm spread thin like water on cement
I can't seem to get to where you went
Come back to me

But where did you go?

Change my sheets, a brand new me
I'll start again, I'll keep it cleaned

But where did you go?

this wild life - don 039 t say

You left me here and I didn't care
I'd follow you almost anywhere
I didn't mind that you left
Just don't say it's over
Was life so bad on the West Coast?
Is desert air what you needed most?
You're on my mind even though
I know that it's over

I can't wait forever, for you to grow up
I swore I'd never, have to give you up at all

But won't you get away
And just give me space

I'm much too young to be in love
A year behind never catching up
I'm scared to death when we share blood
You're never sober
You fight and shove when you're angry
Were you stable before you met me?
You kick and scream when we're ending
There's no way it's over

Did you forget the way you felt in my bed?
The way it felt when I said that you're all I have
Did you forget to pack your heart when you left?
When we're apart I'm a mess
but you're all I have

this wild life - fade

Swear I could leave you if I tried
I said I'm leaving and I might, but you stay as I fade
I only want you late at night
To lose my mind between your thighs
It's okay if I fade

But don't mistake physical affection for emotional connection
God you know I miss it, but girl you know I'm distant
Never meant to fuck with your head

And I fade, and I fade away, away
Try to change, but I stay the same, the same

If I'm a mess when you get back
It's cause I drank all that I had
Would you stay as I fade?
I needed someone here to hold
To save me from a night so cold
It's okay if I fade

But don't mistake physical affection for emotional connection
God you know I miss it, but girl you know I'm distant
Never meant to fuck with your head

And I fade, and I fade away, away
Try to change, but I stay the same, the same

I'm trying to let you go
I'm trying to let you go
I'm trying to let you go

And I fade, and I fade away, away
Try to change, but I stay the same, the same

But don't mistake physical affection for emotional connection
God you know I miss it, but girl you know I'm distant
Never meant to fuck with your head

this wild life - falling down

When I'm falling down, back to the ground
I know that you'll be there for me
When I'm not around, up in the clouds
I know that you'll be there for me

Nobody else can have me the way that you do
Nobody else is holding me down besides you
It's too bad I had to scream and yell
But what you can't tell
Is what you came for is gone for now
Keep holding me down, when you hear this sound

Been down before, broken asleep on the floor
I need you more, but something has fallen apart

this wild life - hit the reset

Hit the reset, I'm starting again
I'm in the thick of it
Does it hurt a little bit?
Eyes are still red, I can't see the end
I'm in the thick of it
Does it hurt a little bit, to watch me go?

Don't cover me up, california
I hardly know you
I've waited enough, arizona
The summer's over
So come back home

Hit the reset, I'm starting again
The hardest part of this
Is knowing what I've missed
He loves you better than I ever did
The hardest part is still
Just knowing that you will
Still let me go

Hit the reset, we're starting again
I'll always love you, I always did

this wild life - it 039 s alright

I'm losing trust in you
These things I never ever do to you
I'll find a back door
I'll run for it
A back door
I'll run for it
I'm losing faith in you

It's alright, it's alright
I was second best
but you're still stuck in my head
It's alright, it's alright
Taking slower breathes
but I'm still the same mess
All my days are coloured grey
I'll find a way to make you say

It's alright, it's alright
I'll be second best
But you're still fucked in the head

You know I'd wait for you
And so you use it when you need to prove
That I can't find a back door
Or run for it
A back door
Or run for it
I've lost my faith in you

It's alright, it's alright
I was second best
but you're still stuck in my head
It's alright, it's alright
Taking slower breathes
but I'm still the same mess
All my days are coloured grey
I'll find a way to make you say

It's alright, it's alright
I'll be second best
But you're still fucked in the head

You don't know what you're missing
I can't get it through your thick fucking head
You heard what I said

I couldn't change your decision
I fought day in day out
Until my knuckles bled
You loved him instead

I don't know what else to do
'Cause I've got nothing left to lose but you

It's alright, it's alright
I was second best
but you're still stuck in my head
It's alright, it's alright
Taking slower breathes
but I'm still the same mess
All my days are coloured grey
I'll find a way to make you say

It's alright, it's alright
I'll be second best
But you're still fucked in the head

It's alright, it's alright
I'll be second best
But you're still fucked in the head

this wild life - just yesterday

Don't say you want it, it's clear that you're haunted
There's a ghost in you, that you can't lose
You say you don't need it, you're clearly defeated
What's left to do, but break in two?

It's not like it was just yesterday
Remember the days we chose to waste?
Still trying to fill your place
It's not like it was just yesterday

Feeling exhausted, I know that you want this
I'm the ghost in you, that you can't lose
He's stripping your armor, abandoning father
He'll leave you soon, it's what we do

It's not like it was just yesterday
Remember the days we chose to waste?
Still trying to fill your place
It's not like it was just yesterday

Is it a waste of time trying to make this right?
I've got no peace of mind if you're not in my life
Should I let you go, and be with someone new?
Should I say I'm happy for you, for you?
And pretend I'm happy for you, for you?

It's not like it was just yesterday
Remember the days we chose to waste?
Still trying to fill your place
It's not like it was just yesterday

this wild life - over it

I've been dealing with pain
With nothing to my name
It's been eleven hundred days
Since we've gone our separate ways
And I don't want to blame
And do you feel the same?
Does it have to be this way?

Chorus
I've got to get over it, over it, over it
And over you!
I'm starting to feel, starting to heal
And you should too!
We were kids, made mistakes
Couldn't stay in one place, so we ran away
I've gotta get over it, over it, over it
And over you!

La, la, la, la, la
La, la, la, la, la
Forget everything I said, and I will do my best
To get your voice out of my head
You're just a shoe box under my bed
The stream is binding my heart
The soul is raveling apart
You took me for granted
I caught you red handed

Refrão
I'm over it, over it, over it
And over you!
I'm starting to feel, starting to heal
And you should too!
We were kids, made mistakes
Couldn't stay in one place, so we ran away
I've gotta get over it, over it, over it
And over you!

I know I dragged us both through hell
But I wish you'd forgive yourself
I think I learned a lesson too
Feel I'm at my worst when I'm with you
I'm at my worst when I'm with you

Refrão
I've gotta get over it, over it, over it
And over you!
I'm starting to feel, starting to heal
And you should too!
We were kids, made mistakes
Couldn't stay in one place, so we ran away
I've got to get over it, over it, over it
And over you!

this wild life - pink tie

Got up and left without a warning
A pregnant woman, on easter morning
You were never anything to miss
Cause to me you did not exist
But for that woman and that boy you left
I'm saying this
But for that woman and that boy you left
I'm saying this

I'll wear the bright pink tie
you wore that day
I'll make the promises you failed to make
I'll be the man you'll never be
And you won't be around to see
The man my mother made of me
With love my brother set me free
I'll be the man you'll never be
And you'll have no part of this family

Your body is failing, heart is breaking
But you're too far gone now
you're not worth saving
You never put yourself aside
you just keep bringing seed to life
So I won't be at your bedside
to watch you close your eyes and die
So I won't be at your bedside
to hold your hand and say goodbye

I'll wear the bright pink tie
you wore that day
I'll make the promises
you failed to make
I'll be the man you'll never be
And you won't be around to see
The man my mother made of me
With love my brother set me free
I'll be the man you'll never be
And you'll have no part

No, I thought I'd make you proud
But no, you're nowhere to be found
And no, maybe you'll live it down
And no, the day that you skipped town

I'll wear the bright pink tie
you wore that day
I'll make the promises
you failed to make
I'll be the man you'll never be
And you won't be around to see
The man my mother made of me
With love my brother set me free
I'll be the man you'll never be
And you'll have no part of this family

this wild life - pull me out

Your pinky made a promise
That you couldn't keep
You said you'd never leave
You said you'd never leave
I was up with you the nights
You couldn't sleep
You said you'd never leave
You said you needed me
Chasing something that you know I'd never be
You said you'd never leave
I'm tired of watching you go

Your love is like a riptide
You pull me out into the cold
Your love is like a riptide
I think I'm finally letting go
You're pulling me out, you're pulling me down
You pull me til I drown
Your love is like a riptide
I think I'm finally letting go

I try to drown you out and bury you down deep
But you're still here with me
Don't think you'll ever leave
I'm sick of living in your bed
But not your head
You said you'd never leave
I'm kind of wishing you'd go

this wild life - red room

Let me know when you've had enough
I'm six drinks deep and I'm feeling rough
Let you know that I'm headed home
But you don't even care at all

I've got to go before I get worse
I'm eight drinks deep when it starts to hurt
I miss you so but we both know
That you don't even miss me at all

I sent a one eyed text a little too honest
Between the ninth and tenth I think I lost my head
Make my way to bed with someone else instead

But I'm missing (you)
If I could take it back
Give everything I have
So we could start again
But I'm missing (you)
If I could take it back
Give everything I have
So we could start again

The morning hurts when I wake alone
The scent of clothes from the night before
Holding tight to my broken phone
But you don't even miss me at all

I sent a one eyed text a little too honest
Between the ninth and tenth I think I lost my head
Make my way to bed with someone else instead

But I'm missing (you)
If I could take it back
Give everything I have
So we could start again
But I'm missing (you)
If I could take it back
Give everything I have
So we could start again

But I'm missing (you)
If I could take it back
Give everything I have
So we could start again
But I'm missing (you)
If I could take it back
Give everything I have
So we could start again

this wild life - ripped away

Was I lying right through my teeth
when I said I was trustworthy
I said I'd never ever live this way
I'm turning into everything I hate

Well I was reckless with your love
I know I never gave you enough

Well is it all slipping away from me
I can't be anything you want me to be
All, ripped away from me
I can't be anything you want me to be
My heart is heavy and it keeps me to the ground
My eyes are swollen cause I can't have you around
All ripped away from me, I can't be anything you want me to be

I didn't have the strength to just come clean
Feeling weak and hurt it seems
That I can never look you in the face
Don't have the spine to go to your place

What can I do? What can I say?
After all I pushed you away
If you ever forgive me now it would be too soon

this wild life