Playlist The Amity Affliction

the amity affliction - 15 pieces of flare

I saw the bridge today, I thought I had it burned
Made a stop to memories, I drowned out and had covered
Falling down into the river, where we? re broken and destroyed
And understand I saw the coming of a past I? d left destroyed

I saw the ghost of everyday, of every year I have forgotten
And the grief and the confusion
Of a world I? d soon discover
The ghost of myself, is still mourning all the lives I won? t discover
Because I buried myself forever

I buried myself, and carved out new existence
Where the memories were burned, and break all of my wishes
And now I still pull down myself, and I? m trying to find the bridge
And build the life
And build the life, the life I always wanted
Be no room, with much to give, open my eyes, and take the world
And take a breath
In turgid water, where I? ve hidden away
And I set my heart to slaughter
And the past I? ve left destroyed

I saw the ghost of everyday, of every year I have forgotten
And the grief and the confusion
The ghost of myself, is still mourning all the lives I won? t discover
Because I buried myself forever

Yeah!

My future, will not, be defined, by my past
My future, our future

the amity affliction - all fucked up

When I wake up I'm thankful
I slept through the night
Cause that is the only time I feel alright
Keep my eyes closed
So I sleep the sadness away
When I wake up I'm sure
That it won't be the same
All the panic, depression, the hurt and regret
Lying to myself -
"I don't think of death..."
All the ups all the downs
All the petty concerns
My whole world's imploding
I can't find the words
Cause the truth is... I'm fucked up
The truth is that I'm all fucked up - like you
Yeah we're all fucked up it's true
And the truth is, they don't hear the words we say
Yeah they all just turn away
If I wake up tomorrow
Just know that I tried
To find a way out
Without saying goodbye
All the panic, depression, the hurt and regret
Lying to myself -
"I don't think of death..."
All the ups all the downs
All the petty concerns
My whole world's imploding
I can't find the words
Cause the truth is... I'm fucked up
The truth is that I'm all fucked up - like you
Yeah we're all fucked up it's true
And the truth is, they don't hear the words we say
Yeah they all just turn away
Will you save my life... Or just say goodbye?

the amity affliction - anchors

I have so many anchors
so many, so many
(so many anchors)
far too many to be sailing on these seas
(they're pulling me under
and i just want to be freed
but i'm just drowning and clasping)
to the tinder and twine
not the firm planks and rope
that i know to be mine
that i know to be mine

i have so many anchors
bound to my feet
it feels like i'll forever be bound
to the bottom of these seas

(will you hear nothing i say
as the tide just sweeps and sways
as the anchors that bind me)
just rust and decay
(as i tear my flesh from bone
as i scream out to the sky
when will i find my way home?)

there are sirens watching me
(and they whisper and smile to me
and i'm screaming out to them)
please take these anchors from my feet
OH
i see the moon up above
i've failed my hope
i've thrown out my love
but i still want to live
i still want to hope
i still want to give
i still want to grow
(i was dead and gone)
i was cold and alone
(i was weighed down and buried)
when will i find my way home

(will you hear nothing i say
as the tide just sweeps and sways
as the anchors that bind me)
just rust and decay
(as i tear my flesh from bone
as i scream out to the sky
when will i find my way home?)

oh oh oh

let's get it
when will i find my way home?
lets get it
when will i find my way home?

(will you hear nothing i say
as the tide just sweeps and sways
as the anchors that bind me)
just rust and decay
(as i tear my flesh from bone
as i scream out to the sky
when will i find my way home?)

as i tear my flesh from bone
as i scream out to the sky
(when will i find my way home?)

paliteen. ",

the amity affliction - atlantic

This is not who i am
I'm still hiding, i'm waiting in my own reflection, hands shaking with anxiety
Heart beating out of time
Waitng for someone to give me answers
This is not what i was hoping to become, this shell of a man
This dark exterior given to the stormy moods and quiet, lonely tears
Only i can hear my breath at night...
Calm, broken, alone
Steal this night from me, take it and make it your own
These nights bring knives so as they can carve themselves into my memory
Leave me here alone
Kill the breeze on your way out and let me ferment in my own self pity

the amity affliction - black and collapsed

Not a word. Not hello, nor how are you
Nothing. No response
I've been eradicated, erased... I'm nothing

Whispers would sound like screams at this point in time
Words that made no sense at all would be ample and comforting

I've been here before and tried to drown it
This time I will try to cut out the heart, tear off the limbs

How this place became so barren and frozen in such a small period is beyond me

I thought there was warmth
I thought stupidly that this was going to be the best year of my life
Farewell to this year, everything it's done to me
Farewell to you for not replying, for not caring enough to take the time to respond to my calls for help

Farewell to everything. This world is dead to me, turns out I'm going to fit in just fine
I'm going to cut my arms open and pull at the heart strings attached to my hands until they snap and die, that must be the way...
everything I touch falls to pieces
Everything I love turns a blind eye

Cut the throat and see what colour it bleeds
cut the ties and see how abruptly it comes to an end

This heart is black and collapsed
I wish my lungs would give in, because I don't have the courage to do it myself
I hate this place I'm in
I only wanted to love
It's not enough

the amity affliction - bondi st blues

I spent my time back then thinking of nothing but them,
the dead ends of my thoughts the last friends in my head:
and you heard me you heard me you heard me my friend,
sent the ship over seas to save me from death.
Through the storms I have weathered through the dark and the rain,
you sent me the ship that i sail on today.
And the boat sails on like you sang in your song,
and my mind feels clearer several years on.

And the ship that was sailing on,
those storm ridden seas
was my heart and your words gave me heart back to me.

My mind was a turbine that fueled all the storms,
and those words were the courage in which calmness took form.
Through the storms I have weathered
through the dark and the rain,
you sent me the ship that I sail on today.

And the boat sails on like you sang in your song,
and my mind feels clearer several years on.
And the ship that was sailing on,
those storm ridden seas
was my heart and your words gave me heart back to me.

I've found life, found the strength in myself to grow up
I've found friends, and the strength and the want to live
And the ship that was sailing on,
those storm ridden seas
was my heart and your words gave me heart back to me.
Through the storms I have weathered
through the dark and the rain,

And the boat sails on like you sang in your song,
and my mind feels clearer several years on. [x3]

And the ship that was sailing on,
those storm ridden seas
was my heart and your words gave me heart back to me.

the amity affliction - cave in

Don't let your life cave in
No brother, don't let your life cave in

I keep sinking; you know that feeling
When you're just struggling to find some meaning
Look inside and you crumble at the undead weight
While everyone around you gets so sick of waiting

I've struggled and I'm falling
And I'll be God damned if I don't lose it

So hold on tight, there's more to life
Cause when you're lost and dreaming about the end
And want to end your life: Hold on, hold on
I thought you were meaning
Hold on, hold on
Don't say that it's over

Don't let your life cave in
No brother, don't let your life cave in

And you know and I know and we both know
That it could end. But brother, don't let your life cave in

I've struggled and I'm falling
And I'll be God damned if I don't lose it

So hold on tight, there's more to life
Cause when you're lost and dreaming about the end
And want to end your life: Hold on, hold on
I thought you were meaning
Hold on, hold on
Don't say that it's over now

But the world is waiting while your heart is changing
And your hands are shaking and you sit there screaming
But the world is waiting while your heart is changing
And your hands are shaking while you sit there screaming

Why can't I cave in

And you know and I know and we both know
That it could end. But brother, don't let your life cave in

We're all facing demons in life
And we're all finding ourselves amidst the struggles of our life
You're not alone!

the amity affliction - chasing ghosts

Will they remember my name when I'm gone,
(When they know what I did was so fucking wrong)
Put the steel to my wrist, lost the breath in my chest,
(Just to forget all the wrongs I had left)
I took the exit, left my friends in the gutter,
(Left my life right behind me, left myself, left it all)
Left myself, left it all, not a falter not a stutter
Not a note, and now?,
(There?s nothing at all)

(Are you at all haunted by memories past?
Are you ready to make this one breath your last?
Is your chest so heavy you're ready to leave,
Or are you hoping that some one will grieve?)

And now we roll on...
I'm gone now,I don't remember much,
I just know that I would have been better off if I had stayed,
spoken to a friend,
(let my heart keep on beating and not given it all up)
for the grave, for the grave
There's no one on the other side there's nothing more than what I had.
There's no ghost left to haunt you so you know I'm still here,
just the end of my life nothing left here at all.
(There's no memories here, just regrets of the dead),
please don't follow my footsteps - cherish all you have left.

(Are you at all haunted by memories past?
Are you ready to make this one breath your last?
Is your chest so heavy you?re ready to leave?
Or are you just hoping that someone will grieve?)

There's no one there on the other side,
(there's no one there on the other side)
There's nothing more than what I had.
(There's no ghost left to haunt you)

There's no memories here (memories here)
just the regrets of the dead (regrets of the dead)
please don't follow in my footsteps (my footsteps)
cherish all you have left.

(Are you at all haunted by memories past?
Are you ready to make this one breath your last?
Is your chest so heavy you?re ready to leave?
Or are you just hoping that someone will grieve?)

(Are you at all haunted by memories past?
Are you ready to make this one breath your last?
Is your chest so heavy you?re ready to leave?
Or are you just hoping that someone will grieve?)

the amity affliction - cornerstone of misery

Well once again, we set sail towards the sky
From frozen cliffs with wings of lead and we find ourselves
We find ourselves once more, back where we began
The cornerstone of misery...

I am ready to breathe again
If I had a million last words to tell you how you've made me feel they could never be adequate
They could never hold true

I'm left dreaming of angels weaving a symphony in blue skies, wings unfurled and glowing with the warmth of sunlight
These are the dreams you inspire, these are the fires you ignite
These words are the of the solitude which held fast for so long inside this cold shell of a human being
Hands torn free from iron lungs to let me breathe...
Claws ripped from clenched fists help me caress the softest skin

Well once again we set sail towards the sky
From frozen cliffs and wings of lead and we find ourselves
We find oursleves once more, back where we began
The cornerstone of misery

the amity affliction - cut it out

You think we're fucking blind, you think we're so blind
But we see every cut and every scar
So cut it out

So drag the knife across
And break our hearts again

So drag the knife, across your skin
And break our hearts
So drag the knife, across your skin and cut it out
Cut out our hearts

We're here for you, we're here to share your hurt
So cut it out, just cut it out
Cut it out

Please stop cutting yourself
Please stop cutting yourself
Please stop cutting yourself and cut it out

You think we're fucking blind, you think we're so blind but we see every cut and every scar
So cut it out

So drag the knife across your skin and break our hearts again

I will be here for you, I will be here for you
Will be here for you, just stop cutting yourself and please cut it out
Just stop cutting yourselves and please cut it out

the amity affliction - death 039 s hand

I held death's hand this evening

can't keep my heart from beating
can't keep my throat from screaming
there has to be another way for me to keep on living

I held death's hand this evening
closed my eyes now I'm dreaming
I promise I won't leave here
don't let me die I'm fucking screaming

'cause I've got more life left to live (got some promises to keep)
to all the hearts that carried me (up from the ocean deep)
I've had to do some searching to understand our reasons
for every selfish feeling (I held death's hand this evening)

now my lungs are failing
and my heart is fading
my mind is taking me
so far away I'm dreaming
for every selfish reason
I kept the bottles rolling
I poured my heart out
to stop you from leaving

I held death's hand this evening
closed my eyes now I'm dreaming
I promise I won't leave here
don't let me die I'm fucking screaming

'cause I've got more life left to live (got some promises to keep)
to all the hearts that carried me (up from the ocean deep)
I've had to do some searching to understand our reasons
for every selfish feeling (I held death's hand this evening)

you're the ones that kept me going
I owe you this much
you gave me the strength to say
"hey, death, get fucked! "

now my lungs are failing
and my heart is fading
my mind is taking me
so far away I'm dreaming
now my lungs are failing
and my heart is fading
my mind is taking me

the amity affliction - do you party

Party! All night! Party!

Why the fuck should be change how we behave, because you thought it would work better that way?
And who the fuck told you that you should speak up about how it is we act, about who the fuck we are when we don't cast our eyes your own way?

And who the fuck are you anyway? We're no one and we still feel right at home, we're no one and we're still just passing time; to kill the time, to kill the boredom.
Who the fuck can say what we should do? We drink Â?til we drop and we'll drink Â?til we die! We're not here for a long time

We're not here to help your night, we're not here to set shit right; we're just here for a good time, and friends are our own friends and our own, are our only; and tonight is the last night
And fuck you for thinking you could ever set us right
Who are you anyway to think you could change us? Tonight is our own night, tonight is our only, we're lonely, we're wasted

And who the fuck are you anyway?
We're no one and we still feel right at home, we're no one and we're still just passing time; to kill the time, to kill the boredom.
Who the fuck can say what we should do? We drink Â?til we drop and we'll drink Â?til we die!
We're not here for a long time

the amity affliction - don 039 t lean on me

Let the ocean take me...
You've gotta know kid that it ain't easy.
To take on all of your grieving, yeah you gotta believe me.
Well don't lean on me 'cause I am falling, please don't fall with me.
I really need you here, yeah I need you so don't leave.
And don't count on me 'cause I am drowning, please don't drown with me.
Just hold me in your heart, let the ocean take me.
And you think I don't read every message that you send?
You think I turn a blind eye, you think I'm just like them?
It breaks my heart, all these stories, brings me to tears all this grief;
and I feel so fucking helpless when I can't be your relief.
Well don't lean on me 'cause I am falling, please don't fall with me.
I really need you here, yeah I need you so don't leave.
And don't count on me 'cause I am drowning, please don't drown with me.
Just hold me in your heart, let the ocean take me.
There is hope in my eyes, there is hope in these words.
And there are far too many reasons for you to stay here on this earth. Stay with me.
Well don't lean on me 'cause I am falling, please don't fall with me.
I really need you here, yeah I need you so don't leave.
And don't count on me 'cause I am drowning,
please don't drown with me.
Just hold me in your heart, let the ocean take me.
Let the ocean take me.

the amity affliction - dong wayne

Don't you, think it's strange
How we speak to ourselves when everything is falling to pieces?
Like molten lead to water
We fall apart and fragment
Always tearing ourselves in two
And hiding from regret

Always tonight and never last night, baby
You know it's all we have to get us through
So fucking sure that this will never end
New friends, new days, new nights
We'll make it through

On my own I learnt to feel it, and together
We learnt to kill it

It's strange, how these thoughts and how they come together
And I want to kill it
And let it forever die
These things I need to grieve and then I grieve
And then start learning as tomorrow slips on by

Always tonight and never last night, baby
You know it's all we have to get us through
So fucking sure that this will never end
New friends, new days, new nights
We'll make it through

On my own I learnt to feel it, and together we learnt to kill it...

the amity affliction - dr thunder

i know that you've been searching
for me elsewhere
in the cracks beneath your feet
and in the spaces between walls
in the dark wells of the mirror
(in the space i used to stand)
i know that you've been searching
for me elsewhere
in the black pits of my mind
where the tar of my emotions
swirls black and ever thicker
where i retreat to hide from life
(i have the reaper in my heart)
and black tar pits for eyes
i have the cold heart of the lost ones
(and no love to tear us apart)
i know that you've been searching
in the spaces between words
but let me tell you
theres nothing there to read.
there to read.

(well i know that you've been searching
and you've looked inside your heart
but under oceans and in coffins
is a better place to start
better place to start.)

you can't begin to know the depths
of the abyss
until you've lost it all
until you've seen yourself
'cause that reflection
just ain't what it used to be
it sure as hell ain't what i want to see

(well i know that you've been searching
and you've looked inside your heart
but under oceans and in coffins
is a better place to start)

heart break is the burden i bear
and the bottle's is the blood i smear
oh
just burdens
just guilt
just loss
and just fear

(well i know that you've been searching
and you've looked inside your heart
but under oceans and in coffins
is a better place to start
well i know that you've been searching
and you've looked inside your heart
but under oceans and in coffins
is a better place to start)

paliteen. ",

the amity affliction