Playlist Sixx: A.m.

sixx: a.m. - van nuys

I don?t want to die
Out here in the valley
Waiting for my luck to change
And I just want my dad to know
That I finally made it

Everybody gets high
Everybody gets low
Everybody gets bruised
Everybody gets slow

I don?t wanna die,
Out here in the valley
You don?t have to lie
I know that?s what I'll do

I don?t want my mom to know
That I never loved my life
And I sold my soul

Everybody gets high
Everybody gets low
Everybody gets bruised
Everybody gets sold

Everybody gets dark
Everybody unfolds
Everybody gets high
Everybody gets so low

And everyone?s eyes are blue
And everyone?s mouth is dry
And nobody wants to die in Van Nuys, Van Nuys

Everybody gets high
Everybody gets low
Everybody gets bruised
Everybody gets slow

Well you don?t know how to get back to your crawl space
Underneath the dirt and the rust and the waste
But the sun sets fast these days.

Everyone?s eyes are blue
And everyone?s mouth is dry
And nobody wants to die in Van Nuys, Van Nuys

Everyone?s eyes are blue
And everyone?s mouth is dry
And nobody wants to die in Van Nuys, Van Nuys

Everyone?s eyes are blue
And everyone?s mouth is dry
And nobody wants to die in Van Nuys,

ohhhh everyone's eyes are blue
and everyone?s mouth is dry
and nobody wants to die in Van Nuys

sixx: a.m. - help is on the way

Hey hey,
Well I'm a paralysed soul,
And I don't know where to go,
Well I should open my eyes,
Yeah I should open my eyes,
I'm a (restless) only child,
And the attention gets me high,
And I'm so unafraid,
I like fortune and fame,
And when I hear the sirens coming,
And my temperature begins to die,
Am I so unaware,
That my hearts about to stop.

Heeeey,
Everybody needs somebody,
Wants somebody,
Heeeey,
Everybody cracks and bleeds,
So it's your needs,
And pray that help is on the way,
Everybody pray that help is on the way.

Well I can sympathise now,
Cos I'm finally building up,
And this is not over yet,
No this is not over yet,
Even though we're damaged goods,
I would love you if I could,
But you are so unalarmed,
By my unfortunate charm,
And now I'm screaming bloody murder,
If my temperature begins to drop,
Uhh, uhh,
And my life is going numb,
As my hearts about to stop.

Heeeey,
Everybody needs somebody,
Wants somebody,
Heeeey,
Everybody cracks and bleeds,
So it's your needs,
And pray that help is on the way,
Everybody pray that help is on the way.

Sometimes I wish you were dead,
And I'm not even joking,
I'd put a gun to your head,
And when your world crashes down,
You'll see it's not so funny,
What will you say to the press.

Heeeey,
Everybody needs somebody,
Wants somebody,
Heeeey,
Everybody cracks and bleeds,
So it's your needs,
And pray that help is on the way,
Everybody pray that help is on the way.

sixx: a.m. - pray for me

[Verse 1]
She lights a candle, but she doesn't know why.
She wants to save me, but i'm barely alive.
My soul is thirsty. I just wanna get high.
Make her go away.

[Pre-Chorus]
Now i'm hitting the wall and she begs me to quit,
And she drags me to church but i'm scared to commit,
And i'm loosing my mind 'cause she hides all my shit.
She wont go away.

[Chorus]
And all I ask of her is
Pray for me,
'Cause I don't want to
Pray for me,
If you love me.
Cross your heart and hope that I wont die before the best day of my life.
Just pray for me tonight.

[Verse 2]
I dragged myself out of the bed that she made,
And I escape her in a black motercade
She's pushing bibles and a clear bill of health.
I can't make her go away.

[Pre-Chorus]
Now i'm hitting the wall and she begs me to quit,
And she drags me to church but i'm scared to commit,
And i'm loosing my mind 'cause she hides all my shit.
She wont go away.

[Chorus]
And all I ask of her is
Pray for me,
'Cause I don't want to
Pray for me,
If you love me.
Cross your heart and hope that I don't die before the best day of my life.
Just pray for me tonight.

[Electric Solo]

[Final Pre-Chorus and Chorus Combo]
Now i'm hitting the wall and she begs me to quit,
And she drags me to church but i'm scared to commit,
And i'm loosing my mind 'cause she hides all my shit.
And all I ask of her is
Pray for me,
I don't want to
Pray for me,
If you love me.
Cross your heart and hope that I don't die before the best day of my life.
(Pray for me tonight)
Pray for me
(Pray for me tonight)
Pray for me
(Pray for me tonight)
Pray for me
(Pray for me tonight)
Pray for me
(Pray for me to- )

sixx: a.m. - deadlihood

The sun is shining,
Though everything's dying,
Your stars burned out for good,
Somewhere in Hollywood.

What the hell,
This ain't no way to treat the living dead,
Is this something from a novel that you read,
It's time to cut the cord and say goodbye,
Cos I'm the only thing that hasn't happened yet,
And when it does I wished we'd never met,
I did the best I could.

The sun is shining,
But everything's dying,
Your stars burned out for good,
Somewhere in Hollywood,
I swear it's only,
Cos you'd be my lies
Guess I'm misunderstood,
You were my deadlihood.

Hey, your insanity that's driving me insane,
Well heaven knows that I'd erase you if I could,
Oh God I wish I could,
God I wish I could.

The sun is shining,
But everything's dying,
Your stars burned out for good,
Somewhere in Hollywood,
I swear it's only,
Cos you'd be my (....)
Guess I'm misunderstood,
You were my deadlihood.

The sun is shining,
But everything's dying,
Your stars burned out for good,
Somewhere in Hollywood,

The sun is shining,
But everything's dying,
Your stars burned out for good,
Somewhere in Hollywood,
I swear it's only,
Cos you'd be my (....)
Guess I'm misunderstood,
You were my deadlihood.

sixx: a.m. - x mas in hell

December 25th, 1986 - Van Nuys.

Merry Christmas.

Well, that's what people say at Christmas, right?
Except for normally they have somebody to say it to.
They have friends and family,
And they haven't been crouched naked under a Christmas tree
with a needle in their arm like an insane person in a mansion in Van Nuys.
They're not out of their minds, they're not writing in a diary,
And they're definitely not watching their holiday spirit coagulate in a spoon.
I didn't speak to a single person today.
I tought "Why should I ruin their fucking Christmas?"

I've started a new diary and this time I have a few new reasons.
One, I have no friends left.
Two, so I can read back and remember what I did the day before.
And three, so if I die, at least I leave a nice little suicide note of my life.

It's just me and you, diary. Welcome to my fucking life.

Nobody would believe the shit that happens inside my head, it's haunted.
Now that I've come down from the drugs
it seems like a sick play that I saw in a theater somewhere.
Thirty minutes ago, I could've killed somebody.
Or better yet, myself.

sixx: a.m. - sure feels right

The traffic's backed up on the 405,
And the smog's so thick you can cut it with a knife,
But it gives me time,
To think about my life,
I take the 10 to the 5 to the 101,
I got a song sitting here on the tip of my tongue,
And the more I drive,
The more I feel alive.

Well I don't know what you're doing to me,
But it sure feels right,
Well I don't know what you're doing to me,
But let's do it all night,
When the sunlight breaks through the LA sky,
For some damn reason it makes me smile,
And I don't know what you're doing to me,
But it sure feels right.

I'm driving down Sunset Boulevard,
Sex Pistols on the radio in my car,
And I must be high,
I just saw Jesus walk by.
I make a hard left as the sun comes up,
Over Hollywood vampires ditching their luck,
Baby lock your door,
Yeah we've seen this before.

And I don't know what you're doing to me,
But it sure feels right,
And I don't know what you're doing to me,
But let's do it all night,
When the sunlight breaks through the LA sky,
For some damn reason it makes me smile,
And I don't know what you're doing to me,
But it sure feels right. [x2]

But it sure feels right,
Soaking up the sunshine,
Sitting on the forward Five,
I can take my time just to do what I like,
Because it sure feels right,
Just singing to the radio,
I don't know what you're doing to me,
But let's do it all night.

Just singing to the radio,
Everybody's singing to the radio.

sixx: a.m. - life is beautiful

You can?t quit until you try
You can?t live until you die
You can?t learn to tell the truth
Until you learn to lie

You can?t breathe until you choke
You gotta laugh when you?re the joke
There?s nothing like a funeral to make you feel alive

Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?

I know some things that you don?t
I?ve done things that you won?t
There?s nothing like a trail of blood to find your way back home

I was waiting for my hearse
What came next was so much worse
It took a funeral to make me feel alive

Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?

Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?

Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?

Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?

sixx: a.m. - tomorrow

Tomorrow

Where ya gonna be tomorrow?
How ya gonna face the sorrow?
Where ya gonna be when you die?
'Cause nothing's gonna last forever
And things they change like the weather
They're gone in the blink of an eye

Just look at yourself, can you see where you are?
Look at yourself, now you can't hide the scars
Just look at yourself 'cause there's nowhere to go
And you know

Tomorrow
You're gonna have to live with the things you say
Tomorrow
You'll have to cross bridges that you burned today
Tomorrow...
And everything you do, it's coming back for you
You'll never outrun what waits for you
Tomorrow.

And are you terrified by sadness
And have you given into madness
You're running out of places to hide
'Cause everybody's got a reason
To justify how they're feelin'
Maybe you should open your eyes

Just look at yourself, do you like what you see?
Look at yourself, is this how it should be?
Just look at yourself, 'cause there's nowhere to go
And you'll know

Tomorrow
You're gonna have to live with the things you say
Tomorrow
You'll have to cross bridges that you burned today
Tomorrow...
And everything you do, it's coming back for you
You'll never outrun what waits for you
Tomorrow.

Are you waiting for the reason to change?
Are you waiting for the end, has it came?
Nothing's gonna stand in your way...

Just look at yourself, do you like what you see?
Look at yourself, is this how it should be?

Tomorrow
You're gonna have to live with the things you say
Tomorrow
You'll have to cross bridges that you burned today
Tomorrow...
And everything you do, it's coming back for you
You'll never outrun what waits for you
Tomorrow.

sixx: a.m. - oh my god

She was born at 6am on New Year's Day,
In an alley right at the heart of where the homeless children play,
And the truth is that we will never even know her name,
Cos as long as we can fill our glasses up, we will look the other way.

And it's not that far from here, to New Orleans,
Where the seemingly forgotten people are still foreclosen on their dreams,
And we'd just as soon keep on staring at the TV screen,
While this world just bleeds to death like some romantic end to a movie.

Oh my God, this is insane,
How'd it get like this, or has it allways been this way,
Oh my God, I'm so ashamed,
When we try to close our eyes and make this go away.

And we sit in our highrise appartments and complain about things that don't matter,
And we race through this life just to see who can die with as much as we can gather,
And a few blocks away a teenage mother plays Russian Roulette with her daughter,
Is this the best that we can do, is this the best that we can do.

Oh my God, this is insane,
How'd it get like this, or has it allways been this way,
Oh my God, I'm so ashamed,
When we close our eyes to make this go away.

sixx: a.m. - intermission

(Spoken Word)

When I first placed my hands on these diaries
Scraps of paper, there were notes and scribbles and all kinds of shit
A lot of feelings came bubbling up, but mostly this one--

How the hell am I still alive?
That's what I think every day.

But more on that later.
After all, this is just the intermission.

sixx: a.m. - heart failure

[Spoken]
When I think back on this life
I guess we were doing the best we could
And to look at us from the outside
I'm sure it seems somewhat romantic
but when you've tasted excess
Everything else tastes bland
Yeah, we had everything to lose
But we still lived like we were about to die
After all, we were the drug scouts of america

I've begun evaporating
Right before your eyes
I just keep regurgitating
My own demise

I miss today I miss the past
I miss my veins 'cause they've collapsed
A simple thought occurs to me

I'm face down on the tracks
The train is coming fast
And it's not derailing
It's not the first time
And this won't be the last
That my heart is failing

As the blood is rushing
to my head
And from my wrists
I'm in love with all the things I know I should resist

And all the times you said to me
Your falling down ones destiny
A simple thought occurs to me

I'm face down on the tracks
The train is coming fast
And you're right there waiting
It's not the first time
And this won't be the last
That my heart is failing

[Spoken]
Like I was saying
The look in the eyes of death
Was intoxicating
Taking it into our lungs
Laughing at ourselves
Where others would probably cry
And more importantly
I'm proud of this guy
Staring face to face with the demons
And not back down
Takes a constitution that most people just don't have
A life gets soiled with sex, drugs and rock and roll

I'm face down on the tracks
The train is coming fast
And it's not derailing
It's not the first time
And this won't be the last
That my heart is failing

I'm face down on the tracks
The train is coming fast
And you're right there waiting
It's not the first time
And this won't be the last
That my heart is failing

sixx: a.m. - this is gonna hurt

Feels like your life is over
Feels like all hope is gone
You can't see all the way
Maybe! Maybe!

This is a sickening calling
This is a call of arms
You'll find: this time you're
Wasted! Wasted!

Hey! Hey!
Hell is what you
Make! Make!
Rise against your
Fate! Fate!
Nothing's gonna keep you down, even if it's
Killing you?

Because you know the truth?
Listen up! Listen up!
There's a devil in the church!
Got a bullet in the chamber and
This is gonna hurt!

Let it out! Let it out!
You can scream it
You can shout
Keep your secrets in the shadows and
You'll be sorry

Everybody's getting up?
And everybody's on the run?
Listen up! Listen up!
There's a devil in the church!
Got a bullet in the chamber and
This is gonna hurt!

You got your hell together
You know it could be worse
Or some inflicted murder
Maybe! Maybe!

You say: ''It's all the crisis''
You say: ''It's all the blur''
There comes a time you gotta
Face It! Face It!

Hey! Hey!
Heaven's what you
Make! Make!
Rise against your
Fate! Fate!
Nothing's gonna keep you down, even if it's
Killing you?

Because you know the truth?
Listen up! Listen up!
There's a devil in the church!
Got a bullet in the chamber and
This Is Gonna Hurt!

Let it out! Let it out!
You can scream it
You can shout
Keep your secrets in the shadows and
You'll be sorry
Everybody's getting up?
And everybody's on the run?
Listen up! Listen up!
There's a devil in the church!
Got a bullet in the chamber and
This Is Gonna Hurt!

Listen up! Listen up!
There's a devil in the church!
Got a bullet in the chamber and
This Is Gonna Hurt!

Let it out! Let it out!
You can scream it
You can shout
Keep your secrets in the shadows and
You'll be sorry

Everybody's getting up?
And everybody's on the run?
And everybody's getting some?
Everybody's getting some
And This Is Gonna Hurt!

sixx: a.m. - girl with golden eyes

Girl With Golden Eyes

She speaks to me in Persian
Tells me that she loves me
The girl with golden eyes
And though I hardly know her
I let her in my veins
And trust her with my life

I wish I had never kissed her
'Cause I just can't resist her
The girl with golden eyes
Every time she whispers
'Take me in your arms
The way you did last night.'

Everything will be okay
Everything will be alright
If I can get away from her
And save my worthless life.

I wake up every morning
Jonesing for her love
The girl with golden eyes
I won't have to wait long
'Til she buries me with roses
'Cause she's always by my side

Everything will be okay
Everything will be alright
If I can get away from her
And save my worthless life.

(Spoken Word)
Day one. Dope free. I went to the clinic today and got the first dose of methadone.
I'm out of dope so I threw away all my rigs.
Day two. I can't believe it's been two days without junk.
Fucking smack, it just ruins peoples' lives.
At first it seems so sweet, then you wake up next to a monster.
Day three. I haven't had anything for three days now.
This withdrawal is killing me. It's like shock therapy to my guts.
Day four. Last visit to the clinic. My whole body feels like it's cracking into pieces.
Fragile doesn't even come close to describing how I feel.
Day five-- I'm sick as a dog, but this handful of painkillers
and a lotta whiskey's gonna get me through.
Day six-- When I'm left to my own devices I go fucking insane.
I'll never use heroin again.
Day seven-- I can't believe I'm clean!
Day eight-- Everyone says I look better--
Day nine-- The parasites are panicking--
Day ten-- They seem amazed that I'm alive!

Everything will be okay
Everything will be alright
If I can get away from her
And save my worthless life.
Everything will be okay
Everything will be alright
If I can get away from her
And save my worthless life.

sixx: a.m. - courtesy call

*Dialtone, knocking*
Female voice: Housekeeping...
*Knocking*
Female: Hello, housekeeping?
*Tries, door, knocking*
Female: Hello?

Well you found me, but I don't know
Why you wanna save me...
Well, God is great and God is good
But God didn't help me when he could
And life dances so lonely by.

This is just a courtesy call
This is just a matter of policy
This is just an act of kindness
To let you know that your time is up
This is just a courtesy call
This is just a matter of policy
This is just an act of kindness
To let you know that your time is up

I, I can't feel anything
My arms are numb and I'm hoping
You noticed the line I left off
All that you'll find inside
Are bells and butterflies
But I'll be smiling when I die

This is just a courtesy call
This is just a matter of policy
This is just an act of kindness
To let you know that your time is up
This is just a courtesy call
This is just a matter of policy
This is just an act of kindness
To let you know that your time is up

This is just a courtesy call
This is just a matter of policy
This is just an act of kindness
To let you know that your time is up

*Knocking*
Female: Sir, I know you're in there; are you okay?
Male voice: Excuse me, ma'am, what's the problem here?
Female: No one answering.
Male: Who's in here. Hello?
*Knocking*
Male: Hello? Stepping in the room now...
*Keys jingle, LOUD blunt thump, dialtone gets louder*
Male: Oh Jesus Christ!
Female: Oh! Ooh!

This is just a courtesy call
This is just a matter of policy
This is just an act of kindness
To let you know that your time is up
This is just a courtesy call
This is just a matter of policy
This is just an act of kindness
To let you know that your time is up

This is just a courtesy call
(Why'd you want to save me?)
This is just a matter of policy
(Why'd you want to save me now?)
This is just an act of kindness
(What'd you want to do it for?)
To let you know that your time is up
This is just a courtesy call
(Why would you wanna save my life?)
This is just a matter of policy
(I know you did or you could)
This is just an act of kindness
(It's been comin' for a long time, long time...)
To let you know that your time is up

sixx: a.m.