Playlist Silverstein

silverstein - my heroine

The drugs begin to peak
A smile of joy arrives in me
But sedation changes to panic and nausea
And breath starts to shorten
And heartbeats pass softer

You won't try to save me
You just want to hurt me, and leave me desperate

You taught my heart a sense I never knew I had
I can't forget the times that I was lost and depressed from the awful truth
How do you do it?
You're my heroine

You won't leave me alone
Chisel my heart out of stone
I give in everytime.

You taught my heart a sense I never knew I had
I can't forget the times that I was lost and depressed from the awful truth
How do you do it?
You're my heroine

I bet you laugh at the thought of me thinking for myself
I bet you believe that I'm better off with you than someone else

Your face arrives again, all hope I had becomes surreal
But under your cover's more torture than pleasure
And just past your lips, there's mores anger than laughter
Not now or forever will I ever change you
I know that to go on, I'll break you my habit

You taught my heart a sense I never knew I had
I can't forget the times that I was lost and depressed from the awful truth
How do you do it?
You're my heroine

I will save myself

silverstein - stand amid the roar

A side of temperance, an appetite for excess
I'm burning down like your cigarette.

(You had me cornered)
You had me at goodbye
(I lived to watch you)
I loved to see you slip away
(I enjoyed captivity)
Starring at a car crash

We kill at weddings and life for funerals.
We're taking steps on the water just to show.
We do whatever we want to.

How
Did I forget who I was
Did I forget just where I came from
Did I just lose who I am
This is the line I stand
A feast of apathy, a shot of angst.

(I brought you to safety)
I carried you away.
(Taking all your blame)
I dropped you in the gutter
(Hid you and protected)
Just to watch you scream.

We save with violence and lie with eloquence.
We're turning wine into water with abhorrence.
We'll save whoever we want to.

How
Did I forget who I was
Did I forget just where I came from
Did I just lose who I am
This is the fine line I stand

I'm not so confident
I'm gonna be the one
Who takes the next step.
I'm a cyclone, passion overblown,
Tied to the tides that pull me in the undertow.

Where the wind blows
Is where my body's thrown,
And I can't fight it

Maybe we should walk away from this.
Take our proverbial walk into the sunset.
Maybe we are destined to be different.
We were designed for more resilience than this...
But we don't know how and we live in the now.
If we were smarter maybe we would try to fake it.
Maybe we should walk away from this.
And stop being ourselves.
Just stop being yourself
If you want to be happy.

How
Did I forget who I was
Did I forget just where I came from
Did I just lose who I am
This is the fine line I stand
Amid the roar.
This is the fine line I stand
Amid the roar.
This is the fine line I...

silverstein - massachusetts

She's cutting out the bruises
Forgetting her excuses for being here again
With a suitcase packed and waiting by the door
In her head
Convinced herself she hasn't lost
Enough to quit

But tonight she lays here thinking
What if I just left
In the middle of the night
Back to California
And never look back

She'll fantasize about it
Every single day but she can't find it
In her heart to run away
And no one's listening
With Northern Massachusetts
On his knees to stay
He's begging
"Please, oh baby please, I can explain
It won't happen again"

He's putting out the fires
And he's making her believe
He's really changed
This time
But it's obvious it's just another line
Lapse and relapse

And again she lays behind him thinking:
I'll pretend in the middle of the night
My eyes are closed I'm sleeping
But I won't come back

She'll fantasize about it
Every single day but she can't find it
In her heart to run away
And no one's listening
With Northern Massachusetts
On his knees to stay
He's begging
"Please, oh baby please, I can explain
It won't happen again
It won't happen again"

How long can this last?
The final straw was the hospital
At least she told herself that
But she just can't find the strength to end it!

I just left
In the middle of the night
Back to California
I'll never look back

She'll fantasize about it
Every single day but she can't find it
In her heart to run away (To run away)
And no one's listening
With Northern Massachusetts
On his knees to stay
He's begging
"Please, oh baby please, I can explain
It won't happen again
It won't happen again!"

silverstein - smashed into pieces

Never again.
I'll slit my throat with the knife i pulled out of my spine.
Maybe when you find out that i'm dead,
You'll realize what you did to me.

[chorus]
And if my lungs still let me breathe,
Will you be there for me?
If i can make myself believe,
I'll give you back what you took away.

No, i won't let it go.
Douse myself in gasoline
So don't save me when you come into the fire.
I'd rather die than have to see your smile.

[chorus]
You made me swear [(x2)]
I, i can't sleep.
Realize all these things that you took from me.
Smash my heart (you made me swear)
Into dust.(you made me swear)
Suffocate my mind.(you made me swear)
Tear at me from inside.(you made me swear)
Smash apart what you've created.
How can i ever stop you from crushing my soul?
It was it was yours, yours to begin with.

And if my lungs still let me breathe,
Will you be there for me?
If i can make myself believe,
I'll give you back what you took away

silverstein - 236 e broadway

It seems so tough sometimes
When you face a day with back to back conflict
When you get pushed around you might stand your ground
Might end up on your back but...

When you fall do you benefit and talk about it?
When you fall do you get back up with your head above you?
When you fall...?

I choked back tears last night
Sitting alone in a restaurant thinking...
How did I get so low?
How did I manage to sink to the bottom?

When you fall do you benefit and talk about it?
When you fall do you get back up with your head above you?
When you fall, when you fall, when you fall...

silverstein - american dream

It was on a wedding day
When my heart began to stray
Never thought I'd make such a big mistake
Throw my life away

I've gone days without food
I've went weeks without sleep
I've got cuts I can't close
I've got wounds that won't heal
It's all your fault

My hand's covered in blood
Scars on my skin
I forgot how to feel
My skin is paper thin

We've been through this
Feeling it, keeping it, holdin' it and
We've gone through this
Over and over again

I go years without tears
In a life with no fear
A life without you
Now I'm breaking my back as
I cover my tracks
My skin is paper thin once again

We've been through this
Feeling it, keeping it, holdin' it and
We've gone through this
Over and over again

I've gone days without food
I've went weeks without sleep
I've got cuts I can't close
I've got wounds that won't heal
It's all your fault

My american dream
wasn't ever to rise to your (?)

We've been through this
Feeling it, keeping it, holdin' it and
We've gone through this
Over and over again

We've been through this
Feeling it, keeping it, holdin' it and
We go through this
Over and over again

This was not a test
This was all for real
This was not a test
This was all for real
This was not a test
This was all for real
This was not a test
This was all for real

silverstein - call it karma

blame it on the weather, but i'm a mess
and this february darkness. has me hating everyone
and i know i give you comfort, but this trouble makes me sick
and the longer i lay here, i know it's harder to get up
without you

[chorus]
lose another day here
lose another year here
i'm with you

find me something out there, that's making sense
and it's just another trend carefully hidden in your dress
and the cycles neverending, and the fashions overdone
and the further that i run away, the further i'll come back
to shelter...

[chorus]

you are the fire, on my apartment floor
sixteen stories, i'd rather burn then fall
it isn't fate, that took us all by storm
it's just the turn of a card

[chorus]

you are the fire, on my apartment floor
sixteen stories, i'd rather burn then fall
it isn't fate, that took us all by storm
it's just the turn of a card

goodbye old friend
goodbye goodnight
i'll move on
you'll call it fate, i'll call it karma
we had our time, it was fun
while it lasted

i'll look back, with honor
and no regrets
i won't be mad, won't feel bad
these memories will never leave me
don't be sad
cause life goes on, life goes on
it's getting too late
tomorrow is here.

silverstein - apologize

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothing new (yeah, yeah)
I loved you with a fire red
Now it's turning blue, and you say.
"Sorry" like an angel, heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say but I just can't make a sound
LET'S GO

YEAH, IT'S TOO LATE!

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
It's too late to apologize (yeah)
It's too late to apologize (yeah)

I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground...

silverstein - red light pledge

The endings the same,
Past mistakes that you made,
Come back to; haunt you.
I made a mistake;
I wish I could take back everything that I did.
I wanted to tell you, I really did.
But how do I explain this?

[Chorus]
Promise me you will be there until the red light will change,
I would wait forever.
Promise me you will stay here until the darkness will fade,
I'd wait for you,
You.

A mistake,
wish I could take,
Back everything,
That I did.
I wanted to tell you, I really did.
But how do I explain?

(I wanted to tell you, what really happened, how do I explain this? How do I explain everything?)

[Chrous]

All this time, and I'm all on my own,
Awake,
(Wait for you)
All this time, all on my own, by myself,
(Wait for you)
Myself
(For you, wait for you)

silverstein - giving up

I used to make the light shine for you. The sun has left my sky.
Velvet walls surround my sorrows. I've sacrificed my pride.
You're giving up on me.
I've laid myself to sleep tonight. I know you've played out everything in your mind.
And now you throw it all away. A shattered memory that you would stay, through thick and thin with me.
(You're giving up on me.)
And when you feel the pain, I'm wishing I could stay.
How can I say I love you back, you never made me happy.
You've laid yourself to sleep, I never said this wouldn't hurt.
You gave up everything; I never said I'd give it back.
I know you'll never change; I won't be good enough for you.
I know, you'll make it through, I'll never be around to see.

silverstein - true romance

I'm not here to judge you,
I'm just here to tell you what you have done wrong.
Beautiful girl looking her best, takes off a towel,
Puts on a dress.
Fixes her hair to look good for someone.
Waits in a car to go to a motel.
...to a motel.

I may not always be perfect.
But I'll always try.
Will you say your prayers, just to be honest with yourself?
Will you save your soul? Is this what you wanted all along?
Husband can't bear to just lie to himself.
Stock market falls and he loses it all,
He sleeps alone for the third time this week.
He's become numb, he just wants this to be.

I may not always be perfect.
But I'll always try.
Will you say your prayers, just to be honest with yourself?
Will you save your soul? Is this what you wanted all along?

Blood on the floor.
What have you done?
Heart in your hands.
What have you done?

I may not always be perfect.
But I'll always try.
Will you say your prayers, just to be honest with yourself?
Will you save your soul? Is this what you wanted all along?

Beautiful girl sleeps by herself.
Half the bed's cold, she knows it's her fault.
She's given in and admitted defeat.
She'll be fine.

silverstein - smile in your sleep

When i'm lying in your bed play the motions through my head
You know that i'm thinking, i'm thinking...
And i have reasons to believe that i'm not the only
One you spend this time with, but i'll stay...

[chorus]
You say you're weak,
You wont let me down [x2]
You lie through your teeth
You smile in your sleep [x2]

When we met you said we were the same, you know
That we're different, we're different,
And all the times you promised me that everything would
Work out in the end, you were gravely mistaken

[chorus]

You lie [x4], you lie through your teeth
You wont let me down, you lie
And i deserve better than this
I dream of steel maroon and warm
Your end[x3], you gasp for air
I'll see this through, i'll see through you,
Your pale [x4], your pale blue eyes

When you're lying in your bed, your eulogies been read
You know that it's fitting, you lied

[chorus]

You smile [x4] and i deserve better than this

silverstein - california

Feel it, the calm after the storm.
As still as I can be.
I'm finally all alone
until I fall asleep.

Did I escape or am I captured?
Trapped in a cage of rear view mirror eyes.
Triangles that look like faces.

This is what I get
For my revenge.
A hidden microphone,
An amber alert implanted
Under my skin.
It's just in my head but
It takes me over.
It makes me forget why I'm on my way.
These four years feel like a hundred.

West-bound,
Driving all alone to make sure that you know.
I've been running scared without you.
I drove all night to tell you.
In dreams I've seen your face with
Another in my place.
I know it was another life but I never could forget you.
I never could forget you.

We set it up (we set it up)
Like a house of cards in a hurricane.
We didn't think it would ever make sense.

He set us up (he set us up),
He knew just where to plant it.

It knocked me over,
It made me forget how I fell in love.
How much I really cared.

West-bound,
Driving all alone to make sure that you know.
I've been running scared without you.
I drove all night to tell you.
In dreams I've seen your face with
Another in my place.
I know it was another life but I never could forget you.
I never could forget you.

You'll see me there like a familiar stranger standing on the street.
I'll say a prayer, I'll introduce myself like it's the first time we'd ever meet.
In California, I'd learn that sometimes you have to run away.
In California, I'd find myself again.

West-bound,
Driving all alone to make sure that you know.
I've been running scared without you.
I drove all night to tell you.
In dreams I've seen your face with
Another in my place.
I know it was another life but I never could forget you.

silverstein - the end

First time we met
Face became etched
In my mind

You were the sun
I was the one
Who worshiped you
My hands were your guns
Your eyes were my nerve

And I knew you could never love me
I had so much sorrow inside
You could never reach
But can I still keep
A place in your heart

You broke my heart
You promised me the moon and stars
I fell for your dreams, I fell for your lies
There was no other way
You know I tried

And I knew you could never love me
I had so much sorrow inside
You could never reach
But can I still keep
A place in your heart

There is something
I want you to know
I think you know exactly what it is
I didn't want to save you [x2]
I set our house on fire
To watch it burn
But I couldn't just leave you

And I knew you could never love me
I had so much sorrow inside
You could never reach
But I'll ask you this

Will you still miss me?
(Yes I miss you)
Do you love me?
(Yes I love you)

Fate fills the sky
we'll both die tonight [x2]
Hands from the sky
Spot us a one lifeline
As we follow the light
[x2]

We'll both die tonight [x2]

Spot us a one lifeline
(We'll both die tonight)
As we follow the light
(As we follow the light)

This union, a battle fought and lost
This union was not about the cause
This union was never about love

silverstein