Playlist New Years Day

new years day - alone

I'm so bad
I've done worse than kill and steal
I'm so bad
It's getting harder to conceal
I've made these mistakes that I can't make up
So many cuts that I can't sew shut
(So lets tear them up)

I'm so bad
Self-destruct another night
I'm so bad
That even I can't make this right

Don't wanna be alone
I know I went too deep
But at lease I'm not alone
Try to understand

Breaking is the only way
When I'm out of tricks up my sleeve
I can't be honest, even with myself
(I've made a mess again)
Breaking is the only way that I don't fall apart

It's so wrong
How I've used you for a crutch
It's so wrong
I've fucked up and lost your trust

Too late for tourniquets and bandages
I'm damaged goods and that's the way it is

Don't wanna be alone
I know I went too deep
But at lease I'm not alone
Try to understand

Breaking is the only way
When I'm out of tricks up my sleeve
I can't be honest, even with myself
(I've made a mess again)
Breaking is the only way that I don't fall apart
(that I don't fall apart)

The bloods is off my hands and that's okay
It's what I thought I wanted but that's changed

Don't wanna be alone
I know I went too deep
But at lease I'm not alone
Try to understand that I hate the way I am

Breaking is the only way
When I'm out of tricks up my sleeve
I can't be honest, even with myself
(I've made a mess again)
Breaking is the only way that I don't fall apart

new years day - angel eyes

There's something about you
I cannot explain
I just wanna know you
I just wanna know your name
It's not what you said
Not the way you said it
I'm under your spell and I don't regret it

Take my breath
Baby, reach inside my chest
You can have whatever's left
'Cause baby I'm possessed

Don't you try to hide with those angel eyes
If you let me inside, I won't hold back this time
Such a deep disguise, the devil's right inside
More than paralyzed, oh, it's the chase you like

There's a darkness
I can feel it in your touch
I should get away, get away
I want you way too much

Take my breath
Baby, reach inside my chest
You can have whatever's left
'Cause baby I'm possessed

Don't you try to hide with those angel eyes
If you let me inside, I won't hold back this time
Such a deep disguise, the devil's right inside
More than paralyzed, oh it's the chase you like

I don't care how many times it takes to get through to you
This is a force that not even God can stop
You're fucking mine

You have this power over me
And there's no way to fight it
I can't help but gravitate towards you
This is a force I can't defeat

Take my breath
Baby, reach inside my chest

Don't you try to hide with those angel eyes
If you let me inside, I won't hold back this time
Such a deep disguise, the devil's right inside
More than paralyzed, watch out the devil's inside

new years day - anthem of the unwanted

This is for the ones who hurt us
This is for the hypocrites
This is for the shit we've taken
Get out our fucking way

We spit venom on your doors
We give them hell lets make them listen
Torture and absorb
It's the kind of pain that you've been missing

I'm the dealer
For your darkest secrets
Selling nightmares
To the ones in need

(Hey)
There's no way around it
Don't speak, don't make a sound
(Hey)
Now you're surrounded
It's our voices getting loud
(Hey)
There's no way around it
So don't try and drown us out
(Hey)
Now you're surrounded
It's our voices getting loud

Feeling so reborn
Toxic life from toxic waste
Beautifully deformed
You're one of us so sing with me

This is for the ones who hurt us
This is for the hypocrites
This is for the shit we've taken
Get out our fucking way

I'm the dealer
For your darkest secrets
Selling nightmares
To the ones in need

(Hey)
There's no way around it
Don't speak, don't make a sound
(Hey)
Now you're surrounded
It's our voices getting loud
(Hey)
There's no way around it
So don't try and drown us out
(Hey)
Now you're surrounded
It's our voices getting loud

Fighting for our lives
Won't be deceived
We won't go unseen
With our hearts so heavy
Tell me that you're ready

We're ready now
We're ready now
We're ready now

(Hey)
There's no way around it
Don't speak, don't make a sound
(Hey)
Now you're surrounded
It's our voices getting loud
(Hey)
There's no way around it
So don't try and drown us out
(Hey)
Now you're surrounded
It's our voices getting loud

We're getting loud
We're getting loud
We're getting loud
Don't speak don't make a sound

We're getting loud
We're getting loud
We're getting loud
It's our voices getting loud

new years day - away

All alone
in the darknesss of my room
the sunlight bleeding through my blinds
like an angel's open wound
on the outside (i seem fine)
but on the inside (i'm not alright)
every decision that i make
just seems to be my worst mistake

away, away from everything that hurts
away from this pain i feel inside
struggling to bend these lips
into a smile i'll soon dismiss
my heart is not a place that i call home
i just want to be alone

still alone
in the darkness of my room
staring out between my blinds
watching the daylight be consumed
like the joy that (i once felt)
dealing with these (cards i'm dealt)
when they said that life's not fair
they must have seen me sitting here

it's funny how one moment can change everything
and in a second shatter every hope and dream you have
and leave you with an empty feeling you can't seem to
fill
and empty space that only time might heal

chorus (refrão)

breath in deep and fill this chest with something
more, more than emptiness

chorus (refrão)

new years day - brilliant lies

Brilliant Lies

I'm trying to sleep,
But this pain in my chest,
It's keeping me awake,
And every breath I take,
Feels like it's my last,
I want to be fine,
I want to be sure,
I want to be a lot of things,
And none of them include you.

I keep telling myself I'm not miserable,
I keep telling myself I'm better off without you,
I believed that you meant everything you said,
Good bye and thanks for the memories,
For the pain and lies
Every time I had to cry,
Goodbye and thanks for the memories.

I don't understand,
Because it doesn't make sense,
The way you broke it off,
Took away my heart,
Took away all my friends,
I want to go out,
And get out of this house,
But to begin again is gonna take more than I think I'd ever have to give.

I believe that I was so cleverly deceived,
By good looks, some charm, and a brilliant lie,
All the time that was spent being used I should have said,
Goodbye and thanks for the memories.

I want to know why you're such an idiot,
I want to know how you can even live with it,
I want to know why I should even give a damn,
About you missing me so terribly,
I'm starting to sleep a little easier now,
Now that I'm over this,
And I've made up my mind to never fall in love again,
With someone like you, someone so confused,
I just wish I would have realized that a long time before I had

new years day - defame me

Whoa
I'm not afraid to cry through thick and thin
If only you noticed
If only you could see
The struggle, the solace
I'm not afraid to be
Just let the past go, it's ancient history

If you keep shutting me out, it's gonna haunt you
When you choke on your words
Don't you go and make a scene
I am the one you need
I am the part that boils when you feel me through your veins
Don't you go and make a scene
Nothing is what it seems
Are we gonna let this go to waist and let it all decay
Don't you go and make a scene
Whoa

With you or without you misfortune finds it's way
Your with me or against me I refuse to wait
I wound up giving everything and now I want nothing to do with you
Now your choking on your words

Don't you go and make a scene
I am the one the one you need
I am the part that boils when you feel me through your veins
Don't you go and make a scene
Nothing is what it seems
Are we gonna let this go to waist and let it all decay
Don't you go and make a scene

Go ahead blame me you can't defame me
Get it all out of your system
Go ahead hate me I don't care
If you keep shutting me out it's gonna haunt you
When you choke on your words

Don't you go and make a scene
I am the one you need
I am the part that boils when you feel me through your viens
Don't you go and make a scene
Nothing is what it seems
Are we gonna let this go to waist and let it all decay
Don't you go and make a scene
Whoa

new years day - epidemic

We are the new disease
Eating hearts like cancer
The sickness in our mind
Believes, everything
Plauged by fiction
Like a sick addiction
There`s a virus deep inside us
And it kills
Can you taste it in the blood
When you breathe it in your lungs
If you feel it coming on, it`s too late
We are infected, and no one is protected
We`re so, we`re so contagious
We`re apathetic
And no one`s sympathetic
We`re so contagious
You can`t contain it
You know you can`t escape it
We`re so, we`re so contagious
Our hearts betrayed us
And no one`s gonna save us
We`re so contagious
When will someone admit it
We`re a generation of cynics
Where everyone`s a critic
And no one really gives a shit
When our hate goes viral
If ignorance is bliss
How do we live like this?
There`s nothing we can do
To try and take control
When it spreads to your soul
Can you taste it in the blood?
When you breathe it in your lungs
If you feel it coming on, it`s too late
We are infected, and no one is protected
We`re so, we`re so contagious
We`re apathetic
And no one`s sympathetic
We`re so contagious
You can`t contain it
You know you can`t escape it
We`re so, we`re so contagious
Our hearts betrayed us
And no one`s gonna save us
We`re so contagious
There`s no cure for what`s in us
So pessimistic, quick to judge
Now there`s poison on our tongues
This epidemic`s gonna kill us all
We are all infected
We are infected, and no one is protected
We`re so, we`re so contagious
We`re apathetic
And no one`s sympathetic
We`re so contagious
You can`t contain it
You know you can`t escape it
We`re so, we`re so contagious
Our hearts betrayed us
And no one`s gonna save us
We`re so contagious
Its gonna kill us all
It`s so contagious

new years day - frequently baby

Frequently baby, I'm changing my mind, running around with you.
Searching your eyes for an answer or something true.
But when i turn back around to go get you, you've gone and run away.
I'd kiss you goodbye if i thought it would make you stay.

'Cause my white flag is waving in the air with the hopes that you will see.
What a fool i'd be to pass on what you're offering to me.

[chorus]
I need to find a way, I need to find a reason,
surrender in your arms, collapse as you take over me.
I need to find a way, I need to find a reason,
I need to find a place to rest my head and bring your heart back to my bed.
I'm all for you.

Yesterday's words fighting for a change and letting the memories look so sad.
If we try to hold on to days that we wish we had.
This was supposed to be my hit song but then i wasted it all on you.
Tomorrow is near and i'm not gonna waste it too.

'Cause my white flag is waving in the air with the hopes that you will see.
What a fool i'd be to pass on what you're offering to me.

I need to find a way, I need to find a reason,
surrender in your arms, collapse as you take over me.
I need to find a way, I need to find a reason,
I need to find a place to rest my head and bring your heart back to my bed.
I'm all for you.

I need to find a way, I need to find a reason,
surrender in your arms, collapse as you take over me.
I need to find a way, I need to find a reason,
surrender in your arms, collapse as i take over you.
I need to find a way, I need to find a reason,
I need to find a place to rest my head and bring your heart back to my bed.
find a place to rest my head and bring your heart back to my bed.
I'm all for you.

new years day - i was right

I never knew that I was dealing with a graduate
with a major in defensive and a minor in excuses
It's not that hard to say you're wrong, admit oh, go on, go on
You know I wouldn't want to make you feel worse than you should
but if you were me you'd do the same you know you would
it's not that hard to say you're wrong, admit oh, go on, go on

It'd mean everything just to hear you say to me
that I was right and you were wrong, it's not that hard, go on, go on
It'd mean everything just to hear you say to me
that I was right and you were wrong, it's not that hard, go on, go on

I know you know it's all your fault and I should let this go
but I need to hear you say it love
it's principle
it's not that hard to say you're wrong, admit it oh, go on, go on

It'd mean everything just to hear you say to me
that I was right and you were wrong, it's not that hard, go on, go on
It'd mean everything just to hear you say to me
I was right and you were wrong, it's not that hard, go on, go on
I was right and you were wrong, go on, go on
Go on, go on

It would mean everything
but you're so smart with those clever eyes
so I tell you that I love you, and blow you a kiss
but until you say you're sorry, well that's all you're gonna get
It'd mean everything just to hear you say to me
that I was right and you were wrong, it's not that hard, go on, go on
It'd mean everything just to hear you say to me
that I was right and you were wrong, it's not that hard, go on, go on

new years day - i 039 m about to break you

I can't be to blame
For the reasons you're in pain
If you push and pull away
In the moment when it's over
Don't hold on here's closure

I'll turn to something you won't like
Heartless tonight, you'll hate me in time
I'm warning you now this is it?

I try to stop you, you can't resist
I try to tell you but you insist
You bring out the devil inside of me
And I can't help that I made you weak
Just because I can, doesn't mean that I will
But I'm about to break you

I'm not the one you built up
I'm not the dreams in your head
I will take what I want
And leave you tortured instead

Caught inside another trapped I've set
I look distressed
But I'm pretending to care

I'll turn to something you won't like
Heartless tonight, you'll hate me in time
I'm warning you now this is it?

I try to stop you, you can't resist
I try to tell you, but you insist
You bring out the devil inside of me
And I can't help that I made you weak
Just because I can, doesn't mean that I will
But I'm about to break you

Hasn't always been this way
Been the prey but I escaped
Cross my heart and lick my scars
Play with me get ripped apart

I try to stop you, you can't resist
I try to tell you, but you insist
You bring out the devil inside of me
And I can't help that I made you weak
Just because I can doesn't mean that I will

I try to stop you, you can't resist
I try to tell you, but you insist
You bring out the devil inside of me
And I can't help that I made you weak
Just because I can doesn't mean that I will
But I'm about to break you
(I'll turn to something you won't like)
But I'm about to break you

new years day - kill or be killed

(Kill or be killed) [x4]

Your imagination gets so twisted when you
Think you've seen my worst but
I have an instinct that can never be reversed
My vengeance is a curse

I want to watch you bleed
You're the crime but I'm the scene

Back against the wall so
Its kill or be killed
No other choice then bloods gonna spill
Back against the wall so
Forget or forgive
But after all this I never will

Don't be ashamed of all the monsters in your head
All of us are;
Sick! Sick! All of us are sick!
Sick! Sick! All of us are sick!

I want to watch you bleed
You're the crime but I'm the scene

Back against the wall so
Its kill or be killed
No other choice then bloods gonna spill
Back against the wall so
Forget or forgive
But after all this I never will

Sick sick all of us are sick
Sick sick... All of us are;
Sick! Sick! All of us are sick!
Sick! Sick! All of us are sick!

My sanity slid far from me
Revoked by rage it's driven me insane

Back against the wall so
Its kill or be killed
No other choice then bloods gonna spill
Back against the wall so
Forget or forgive
But after all this I never will
[x2]

Sick! Sick! All of us are sick!
Sick! Sick! All of us are sick!

new years day - let me down

I'm sick of the way that you pushed me away
When the times got tough you jumped ship
A disease you couldn't come to grips with
A daughter with dreams bigger than this

You tried to bury me just like the past
But it won't stay dead for long
I wanna hear you finally admit you're wrong
But if I give you the chance
You'll let me down
You'll let me down
Your guilt won't save you now
From six feet underground
You'll let me down
You'll let me down
Maybe it's for the best you don't come around

I'm sick of the way
That I begged you to stay
All I wanted was a little closure
All I got was the coldest shoulder
Tell me
How do you sleep at night?
It must have been so hard
To turn your back when you've got no spine
For years I blamed myself
When all along you could have made this right

You had your chance to be man
Don't close your eyes and pretend I don't exist
Now it's my turn to walk out on you
It's your fucking loss

Now it's my turn to walk out on you
Finally now it's my turn
Maybe it's for the best you don't come around

new years day - let 039 s toast

Let's toast to misery
I'm drinking it down slowly

And lift way up
Above the air
I'd do it all over again

Let's make this a night to forget
Put aside all mistakes and regrets
Live our lives only for the moment
Oh-oh-oh-oh

Let's make a pact to not be sober
Not until the summer's over
All the friends and four leaf clovers
Oh-oh-oh-oh

Let's toast
to everything
And every moment
(In) between

And lift way up
Above the air
And watch the sunrise
Burn above the ocean

Let's make this a night to forget
Put aside all mistakes and regrets
Live our lives only for the moment

Let's make a pact to not be sober
Not until the summer's over
All the friends and four leaf clovers

I never felt so much
I'll run as I do now
As I lift my glass into the sky
Drink it down and say goodbye
Say goodbye (Say goodnight)

Let's make this a night to forget
Put aside all mistakes and regrets
Live our lives only for the moment
Oh-oh-oh-oh

Let's make this a night to forget
Put aside all mistakes and regrets
Live our lives only for the moment
Oh-oh-oh-oh

Let's make a pact to not be sober
Not until the summer's over
All the friends and four leaf clovers
Oh-oh-oh-oh

Let's make this a night to forget
Sing aloud 'till we've gone the inlet

Make the most of every moment
Let's make a promise never to look back

new years day - malevolence

So soft, so gentle this rose is kind and still
With change comes hatred now time to kill

I've heard it all, I know I cared too much
But It's cruel I'd let you die
I'll take the fall, I'll be the heartless one
My veins are made of ice

Well, I'm not afraid to take the world on myself
But if I can't have it all then no one will

Nothing's gonna save me
The evil that I see has taken over me
No ones gonna save me
The damage has been done I'm righting all the wrongs
I'm relentless like you made me

You fool!

Intentions once pure and simple, now sinister and sharp
I was weak I would fall for a promise I had no guard

Been through the worse, I've seeing the purest soul
Fill up with such disdain
Watching them fall trying to take me out
I see your foolish games

Well, I'm not afraid to take the world on myself
But if I can't have it all, then no one will

Nothing's gonna save me
The evil that I see has taken over me
No ones gonna save me
The damage has been done, I'm righting all the wrongs
I'm relentless like you made me

Rotten to the core sacred vows are torn
Can't expect a snake to be sheep
Can't expect a liar not to cheat

Rotten to the core sacred vows are torn
Can't expect a snake to be sheep
Can't expect a liar not to cheat

But I'm not afraid to take the world on myself
But if I can't have it all then no one will

Nothing's gonna save me
The evil that I see has taken over me
No ones gonna save me
The damage has been done, I'm righting all the wrongs
I'm relentless like you made me

new years day - my dear

My dear,
Take what you want from me
I'll give you anything
Just don't leave me on my own
Desperate and destitute
A shadow of the former self I knew.

Take what you want from me
I'll give you anything
It's so pathetic
I make myself sick
I can't get over you
I can't get over any of this.

My dear,
Is this really happening?
Do these tears mean anything?
How could you leave me on my own?
Desperate and destitute
These seconds feel like lifetimes without you.

Take what you want from me
I'll give you anything
It's so pathetic - I make myself sick
I can't get over you
I can't get over any of...

(Based on a very true story...)

new years day