Playlist Maria Mena

maria mena - dear

I'll always treasure the naivety
Of the past we've shared
Our bodies grew much faster than our minds
But together we got good at stopping time

My teen angst drove me to hurt myself
And I made you watch all the pain I must have caused.
But by staying around you saved my life. (Saved my life)

We were never meant to be lovers
Just fellow laid bloomers
Who blossomed apart
Who blossomed apart

Watching my parents
Made look for something destructive
And there you were
With all the characteristics of my mum
Familiarity of home

The geographic gap
Let to force adulthood
And you rages exposed
I'm glad we left things when we did
I doubt I'd survive another bloody more

We were never meant to be lovers
We just mirrored each others
Self-destructiveness
Self-destructiveness

The spotlight burned in the room
When we were together
And we played our parts
And I worn an imaginary TV-screen
So you never got to touch my heart (touch my heart)

We were never meant to be lovers
Our ego's fell of each other
And died overweight
And died overweight

I thought I had seen it all
When you first walked in
But you shut me up
And challenged every wrong perception I've had of myself
And you haven't ever stopped.

maria mena - a few small bruises

Out here on the ledge
I'm not far away from stepping off
I've finally picked out my cloud
It's the one over there
Surrounded by all that air

You reached out your hand
And said I understand
So why not come down

Well except for a few small bruises, cuts,and scars well I'm fine
Except for a few small bruises,cuts,and scars well I'm fine

Thank you for asking
I'm so glad we had this moment here
I know they think I'm crazy
But everything I am is what I was taught to be

You reached out your hand
And said I understand
So why not come down

Well except for a few small bruises,cuts,and scars well I'm fine
Except for a few small bruises,cuts,and scars well I'm fine

And as you read my words out loud
Make me sound genius
Make me sound special
And maybe I'll come down

Well except for a few small bruises, cuts, and scars well I'm fine
Except for a few small bruises, cuts, and scars well I'm fine

And as you read my words out loud
Make me sound genuis
Make me sound special
And maybe I'll come down

maria mena - a stranger to me

I gave you all of seven years,
We entwined our teens
I shared my thoughts and bed with you,
Synchronizing our dreams
No one knew me better then,
I was sure no one ever could
But lust has made a joke of me,
Taking all that was good

You walked past me the other day,
You met my eyes and looked away
How can someone
I used to know so well now be
A stranger to me?

He seemed such an intriguing match,
Unaware and unattached,
Not distracted by my past,
Intoxicated shadows cast
Such a soft and smokey light,
I shouldâ??ve left with you that night
Though out of mind and out of sight,
The morning lit up too bright

You walked past me the other day,
You met my eyes and looked away
How can someone
I used to know so well now be
A stranger to me?

The blameâ??s rightfully put on me
And so it is my destiny
To carry guilt around with me
Being the one at fault

You walked past me the other day,
You met my eyes and looked away
How can someone
I used to know so well now be
A stranger to me?

You walked past me the other day
And met my eyes and looked away
How can someone
I used to know so well now be
A stranger to me?

maria mena - am i supossed to apologise

I wrote a song, a journal
Gave it to the world
Told the story
Of when I was just a girl

I sought understanding
Clarity in truth
By baring all the wounds
Inflicted on my youth

You critizied my voice
To stand up to my past
To give the pain a voice
So that it could pass

But I felt brave
And filled with pride as I let go
Of bitterness that wouldn?t leave or let me grow

And I will spend a lifetime
Trying to understand
Why someone sharing my bloodline
Would not lend me their hand

Am I supposed to apologize?
I?m supposed to apologize
I?m supposed to apologize
I?m supposed to apologize

I loved here more than myself
But she made me choose
Between her and my father
And so I refused

I fled her house and writh
Eleven years of age
Followed the crooked path
That led me to a stage

The curtains opened up
My heart followed the lead
The music wouldn?t stop
And I could finally breathe

But I will spend a lifetime
Trying to understand
Why someone sharing my bloodline
Would not lend me their hand

Would not lend me their hand

Am I supposed to apologize?
I?m supposed to apologize
I?m supposed to apologize
I?m supposed to apologize

maria mena - belly up

Our old world is hard to find
I doubt it was ever mine, to keep
Were you always this unkind

We lie belly up in the pool of us
We lie belly up in the pool of us

I don't recognize your doubt
Please say something darling shout, at me
How unfair to shut me out

We lie belly up in the pool of us
We lie belly up in the pool of us
We lie belly up in the pool of us
We lie belly up in the pool of us

I must say I'll always love you
Even if it hurts

Have I driven us to this
Our bickering has reached its limits
I can't remember our last kiss

We lie belly up in the pool of us
We lie belly up in the pool of us
We lie belly up in the pool of us
We lie belly up in the pool of us

I must say I'll always love you
Even if it hurts

I must say I'll always love you
Even if it hurts

Ah ah ah, belly up
Ah ah ah

I must say I'll always love you
Even if it hurts

I must say I'll always love you
Even if it hurts

maria mena - better than nothing

I don't want to have to build this
I don't want to have to fit in
I don't want to have to need someone
But I do..

I don't want to have to attract boys
I don't want to have to be here
I don't want to have to eat to fill the hole
But I do..

But it's better than nothing at all
But it's better than nothing at all

I don't want to have to be angry at you
I don't want to have to blame it on my father
I don't want to have feel sick around you
But I do..

I don't want to ever fall in love
I don't want to feel so insecure
I don't want to have to write this to explain
Still I do

This feels better than nothing at all...

maria mena - blame it on me

The rain falls on your days
Giving you a reason for mysterious ways
Behind doors the darkness falls
You pour a cup of coffee, and get talking walls

But you can blame it on me
And the person you thought I wanted you to be
But don't you blame it on love
'cause you will regret it then, and from now on

Besides from days gone by
Hours seem so slow you think you'll surely die
You decide to call up a friend
When she doesn't answer you are close to the end...

maria mena - boytoy baby

Tell me
am I your baby?
You misunderstood me
just want a piece of your ass, yeah

Impress me
After all, I'm a lady
and dude, if you bore me
I send you back to your wife

You're just a boytoy baby (lalalalalala)
you're just a boytoy baby

Boytoy baby
Boytoy baby

Romance,
I don't want no romance
You can grab me with your hands
and leave when I'm done

Honey,
you can keep all your money
I want you to owe me
It's just a game that I play

You're just a boytoy baby
you're just a boytoy baby

Boytoy baby
Boytoy baby
Boytoy baby
Boytoy baby

Tell me, am I your baby?
You misunderstood me
just want a piece of your ass

You're just a boytoy baby
you're just a boytoy baby
You're just a boytoy baby
you're just a boytoy baby

maria mena - bye bye

I couldn't change him if I tried
I couldn't be his doll even if I wanted to
'cause I'm me not you..

I couldn't be a little girl
I couldn't walk around like I had no clue
'cause I'm me not you..

Look where you've got me this time
I'm up against the wall like I commited a crime
Take care, I hope never to see you here,
bye, bye, I promise not to cry, bye, bye..

I couldn't lead them on like mice
i couldn't fool them all, that's not something I do
'cause I'm me not you..

I couldn't hide my purple eyes
I couldn't swallow them and not even chew
'cause I'm me not you..

Your disguise is not fooling me
your embrace is not comfoting
and I can't follow you around
'cause I see your evil ways
and it kills your innocence
But I still followed you around...

maria mena - calm under the waves

I walk barefoot where the water drowns the sand
With you no longer here to hold my hand
I let go
I let go

The ocean makes my swaling heart feel small
With the sounds that makes you won't hear it if I call
I let go
I let go

There's a breeze in the air
There's a boat ankered out here
There's a calm under the waves as I choose to sink

Your skin protected me from sunbeams
Your hands made sure I'd stay intact
I let go
I let go

You were always there to walk me home
With you not here the streets I rome
I let go
I let go

There's a breeze in the air
There's a boat passing over here
There's a calm under the waves as I choose to sink

With your voice in my head
I could fall here instead

There's a calm under tha waves so I choose to sink

I'm tired now, I'll see you when I wake up
I've heard it's pretty where you are
I let go
I let go

maria mena - cause and effect

I can't laugh to hard I'm on a diet
I'm trying to lose myself, you ought to try it
Just starve for six days straight
Oh, it's a riot
Every Sunday night

I binge and I barf 'cause I carry
the scars of an eight year old.
Whose mother applies the same
rules to her kid's body as her own

I think you'll leave me soon
though I have no proof of it
But I'll make it easier for you
by being a little bitch (fuck off)
And this is just a theory
But I think the reason
Why I'm scared you're croake is:

The only male influence I have
after daddy up and left,
were my mother's weekend lovers
and their alcoholic breaths

I'll tell you what cause it if you'll handle the effects
I'll tell you what cause it if you'll handle the effects
I'll tell you what cause it if you'll handle the effects
Yes, I'll tell you what cause it if you'll handle the effects

I can't laugh to hard I'm on a diet
I'm trying to lose myself you ought to try it
Just starve for 6 days straight
Oh, it's a riot
Every Sunday night
(cha-cha-cha)

maria mena - come in over me

You'll get the urge to push me down
Only to learn I resurface
I am the place where you feel safe and sound, oh
But I am gonna make you scream out, I am gonna crush your dreams, yeah
Maybe you're onto my conspiracy
But baby, you fail to learn the details
You like the fact that I am hard to read, oh
I am gonna hurt you bad and
Give you love you've never had

Baby, try to leave me, I will hunt you down and you know that
Baby, try to love me, I will make you hurt then love again
Come in over me, come in over me, yeah

maria mena - crowded train

I'm always on your side
Every time you dicide to hide
And I am careful with my steps
Never make a move i will regret

And I'm stuck on this crowded train
Carry the world... in pain
Yeah
And I'm stuck on this crowded train
Going down, going down... down

I'm boxing shadows again
And I'll always be somebodys's friend
Thats what scares me the most
Loving what will remain I suppose

And I'm stuck on this crowded train
Carry the world... in pain
Yeah
And I'm stuck on this crowded train
Going down, going down... down

ohh ohh ohh ohh ohh

If I forget your face
In between these busy days
What will become of me
What will become of me

(x3)

And I'm stuck on this crowded train
Carry the world... in pain
Yeah
And I'm stuck on this crowded train
Going down, going down... down

maria mena - everytime

Some people say the star is in them, on the other hand I'm just like you
I'm suffering from the peter parker syndrom, I can spit the
sharpers venom
But you will see, I just go with the flow never try to stop the rythm
I wanna make a great impact, but when I retire I wanna leave
with my brain intact
The pain athlet, with a S on my chest, that way I probably get stress of my chest
And I got plans for the reaper, you aint gonna find me, coz I've been in Japan or Korea.
Yeah, I've been around the world and I, I, I cant complain I
live a life I like
What's a boy to do, I try to stay on top of things, with the
ground level point of view
Some is like boys and blue, they eager to beat you, the more
they try the more I'm eager to leave you coz

[Chorus]
Every time I think I got it figured out, it fades away
Oh yeah

And every time I'm sure I'm swimming upstream, I see the day
Oh yeah

I need to meet my faith face to face, and ask him if I was put here to play station games
I dont wanna deal with real life, coz the thruth is harder to swallow, and I need my windpipe
The game gonna teach you things like, you'll be able to do good if you really think right
It's been a big dream, ever since them big jeans, and push it this, get the big cream
But see, that was then, when I played hide-n-seek, and had to be back by Ten
The times have changed now, coz I'm standing at the crossroads about to rewrite my game plan

[Chorus]
Every time I think I got it figured out, it fades away
Oh yeah

And every time I'm sure I'm swimming upstream, I see the day
Oh yeah

World is just a wild ride, I'm learning that lie
So I aint conserned with cred or earning my stripes
Dad tought me to cease the day, mom told me how to cope without getting on my knees to pray
And I still gotta call my mother, coz I gotta let my love show one way or another
You dont know the real me, you only know my CV, or seed, yo rome to speed see
You took one coin to please me, but I'm sick of myself now coz I'm more than greedy
Coz I depend on Yen, afterall I'm just a H-U-M-A-N

[Chorus]
And every time I think I got it figured out, it fades away Oh yeah
And every time I'm sure I'm swimming upstream, I see the day
Oh yeah

maria mena - eyesore

The ugly naked truth
She starves me of my youth
I stand alone until you catch on
I swear it's not by choice,
But Anna has this voice
It's calls me down, it gives me purpose
And it's alright, I'm alright, I want to be okay
I've seen it before, this eyesore, it's me. Aah, Me.

I won up from under by this confining skin
that I so reluctantly live in
My worth is measured sourly according to the scale
I am heavy, I feel frale
And it's alright, I'm alright, I want to be okay
I've seen it before, this eyesore, it's me. Aah.

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