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flatsound - don 039 t call me at all

It's not that I don't have words to say
I just don't want to be the one that speaks them
I'd rather keep it secret until we reach it
So I'll rest my head on the glory of this sorrow
I know its hard to swallow, but tomorrow
We'll start new

And I remember the lines I thought that I'd forgotten
"Your only flaw is that you're flawless"
I'm so full of shit, I'm surprised you bought it
But to say that I don't care is more or less astounding
Because I wrote an entire album about us drowning
Wasn't that enough?

Now I'm haunted by all these holes found in my armor
And if my heart beats any harder I will lose it
Well congratulations, I didn't know
You two had made things so official
Just don't call me when it fizzles
In fact, don't call me at all

flatsound - i exist i exist i exist

Baby please, it's the way you speak
Forming words so easily
And I think of the way you think
It keeps me from falling asleep
In that grave I call a bed
Until you called me up and said

"I haven't stopped crying
My father's been drinking
I need a place to stay
I don't want to be here
He's saying the words that
He promised he would never say

That liquid he consumes
Makes him speak the truth"
And I said no, its not that at all
Its that bottles of lies for a troubled heart
Its standing on the edge of a mountain top
Screaming anything he wants
Like, "look at me, because I exist"

I remember the way you shook
Its a shame that we're not soul mates
Because if I didn't know better
I'd say this feels pretty good
How could I be scared?
When I stretch and feel that you're there
So shut your mouth

Because these words will speak themselves
I can feel them in these blankets
And they're surrounding your figure
Embraced in the quilts
And I cant help but think
You're my missing puzzle piece

I wake up in the hallway, I'm looking for sunlight
With rays that will cure me of the
Pain that keeps my lungs tight
Ignoring the voices and feelings that tell me
To get out of this house
I cant make them stop
I'm just like my mom

And you said no, these demons will fall
You're so precious to us all
And I said I cant do this alone
I still need you to hold
So don't let go, because I'm afraid"

flatsound - i hope you 039 re okay

I fell asleep with the television on
I missed all of your phone calls
And slept through the alarm
Am I late? Am I too late to see you?
Are you mad I didn't get to meet you?

With a phone in your pocket and holes in your shoes
You went to monterey without a boy to sing to you
You always said, this is where I want to
Live my life, with or without you

I'm not gone
You just make it hard to talk

I had a dream that I rose from the dead
And all my fears were flower pedals on my bed
And the wind lifted them off me
As a man spoke to me sofly

He said he lived in a town who washed all their clothes
In a public river with blood drippin' from there toes
Are you strong? Have you come here to save me?
I said are you real? He said, I'm as real as you make me

Bum bum badum bum
Clap your heels when you can
Bum bum badum bum
Just don't thrive on being sad

Bum bum badum bum
Admit when you've done your wrongs
Bum bum badum bum
And you know I've done a lot

Bum bum badum bum
I'm so sorry that I left
Bum bum badum bum
Before I told you what you meant

Bum bum badum bum
Tell your family I said hi
Bum bum badum bum
I hope they're doing fine

I just wanted to say I hope you're okay
And I hope everything worked itself out along the way
You are strong, because you were there to save me
You are real, yeah you're as real as you made me

flatsound - if we could just pretend

Where did you go
And what did you do
With all that time
You were too scared to move
What is it like to be by yourself
For three and half years
For roughly three and a half years

If we could just pretend that I went to college
And that is why you haven't seen me
I wanted to go, but not for this long
I overdid it
I overdid it
Why did you say that I was one in a million?
Because I believed it
I thought I had something that you were too scared to lose

So if we could just pretend that I went to college
And traveled abroad
And did something different
Anything but just sitting at home
For three and a half years
Writing song after song after song

So what is it like to be by yourself
And feel like you'll die around everyone else
I thought I was one in a million
Well thanks for nothing

Thank you
Thank you

flatsound - if you love me come clean

I can always pick up books
In the search of what I need
But that doesn't help me any
If you're impossible to read
So if you love me, if you love me
Come clean

These monsters in my closet
Are watching over me
The days are getting shorter
And at night it's hard to sleep
The combination of all of this
Is the death of everything
So if you love me, if you love me
Hurry

Because I don't think that wasting
A second of this time
Would benefit the outcome
Of the life I had in mind
I'll refer to you as my special love
The one that set me free
So if you love me, if you love me
Come clean

Waiting around until things grow old
I'm feeling lost in towns that were my home
And if everything was easier before
Then we'll go back to who we were

So I'm picking up a book
In the search of what I need
From religion, to fiction
Being lost about at sea
And all I can imagine
Is being brushed against your cheek
So if you love me, if you love me
Come clean

flatsound - learning to hate you as a self defense mechanism

You're on the phone
With someone who doesn't know
About your soul and how it
Can't be held by flesh and bone
And I guess that's fine
I would never want you to
Stop your life
But when I saw you both
With your shoulders touching
Sitting so close

I knew I'd hold on to this feeling
I'd hold on to anything at all
Was it my fault?
Because I easily confused you
For someone who would hold my hand
When things got hard
When things got dark
Because, oh my god
When they get dark
They get so dark

You were always a shitty friend
And you would leave when I got sick
You never called me on my birthday
I want to call you on your birthday
So I'll hold on to this feeling
I'll hold on to this hate
For as long as I need
For it to help me

flatsound - my heart goes

You said: "Take the violin that you hang on your wall
Stick it under your bed before it crumbles and falls"
"Just dont open your eyes before counting to ten"
I can hardly remember, just the smell of your hands
As they danced on my body
running over my pores
With the force of steering wheel crushing my bones
I said: "You smell like the devil
but you feel like the lord"
And when I think of perfection
you know I'm thinking of your Voice
when you tell me you dont call him your baby
Because that was the name that you rightfully gave me
And its foolish to share with someone else
And my heart goes (bum bum bum bum bum)

But you admit that you're lonely
you're as cold as a statue
Pleading "fuck me" on the marble
that was used to create you
I cant stand that you're talking
when you shouldn't be living
I didn't dodge all your bullets
I just denied that they hit me
So when my body is bleeding
I won't admit that this hurts
Because admitting isn't fixing so then what is it worth?
So to say you're unhappy
is like saying you're sorry
Its nothing that I care to hear

So now the tears in your jeans
are the holes in your armor
You're the thoughts that I feared
you're the mountain I've conquered
If I told you I loved
you would you reach out and touch me?
You taste like the ocean and your body's disgusting
The only reason you breathe
is to sleep through the night
The only reason you speak
is to tell me I'm fine
The only reason you breathe
is to sleep through the night
The only reason you speak
is to state that you're mine
And my heart goes bum bum bum bum bum

flatsound - sleep

I lose control of my heart
I can't keep up without losing my breath
It's been this way from the start, I need rest
I'll go to sleep at a decent time
When I find something worth waking up for

The days are long when I keep checking my phone
To see you haven't called at all
And this is where I die
Oh I thought I was the best part of your life
Oh I thought I was the only one inside
Now I'm pretty sure that I
I was wrong

flatsound - summer or spring

Ever since you were born you were
Cold as the snow you were
So scared to melt you avoided the warmth
That your family had gave in the
Same flowing breath that they
Said I love you to death

Do you live for the summer or spring?
Because you don't feel like winter to me
You came through this town like a breeze
Do you live for the summer or spring?

Well the fear in my eyes made me
Terribly blind made me
So scared to live made me stay inside
While the rest of the world
Had continued to spin
I had no reason to live when I was sick

Do you live for the summer or spring?
Because you don't feel like winter to me
You came through this town like a breeze
Do you live for the summer or spring?

Mamma, mamma I'll make you proud
Take these words, sing them out loud
And I won't stop until there's middle ground
And you said I know

Since the day I arrived
This had already died
This is it, you were right
And you said I know

flatsound - to see you alive

You can't be by yourself
You can't be by yourself
They kept you in the dark
In a room with nothing sharp
Until you were well
You told me that you were so
Scared of what they know
But love isn't afraid
Love is using your first name
In the poems that I wrote

Follow me to a home
Abandoned at the shore
There's a story on the walls
Written in marker across the halls
That you'll adore
And no one can see us now
Like the sun behind the clouds
Lets grab a drink for lunch
And wash out the taste of blood
From our guilty mouths
When you stepped into the light
I saw it running down your thighs
And thought what a beautiful sight
To see you alive

flatsound - you are the coffin

I am doing just fine, thank you
I know how much you like to keep in touch
So you can talk about it
And you said, who was that, who were you talking to?
Is that the reason you're too scared to go downtown?
And talk about it

She said it's my own body, I did what I wanted
Ever since God made me bleed
He is a pedophile, you are the coffin
And you're the reason that I can't breathe

I'll sleep inside of your chest
And fight those thoughts in your head
Some say we should take a rest
I think I'd rather be dead

Her own body, she did what she wanted
Ever since God made her bleed
If he's a pedophile you are a monster
And you're the reason that I can't sleep

flatsound - you said okay

It all started with closed eyes
And a feeling in my gut telling me
I need to keep them shut the whole time
Because they opened even for a second and I saw your lips
They'd suck me in like black holes when they bend light
And it was then I realized you were not my world
You were my universe

Sometimes when I look up I see stars
That cut through the sky and fade quickly into nothingness
And I pray that you aren't as fleeting
Because when we're lying in roads I get the same feeling
That gravity will just turn off and I'll fall endlessly
Into something much larger than I am
And I wonder if that's what it feels like to die and
If I'll ever understand God in my lifespan
Because I want to see God
I want to know what God feels like

But with the weight of the bible I will break adams ribs
And repeat, my dear eve, you do not take after this
You were not made in a mans image
But if that's the case why do you feel so lost
In the empty space that his hand isn't
Why do I wait wondering how long it'll take you to admit it
I'd rather keep my mouth shut then start to say what I can't finish
Baby I have limits

So I'm singing 'la la la' in empty rooms that carry sounds like hollow caves
'La la la' just to prove you're not the only one that can occupy a borrowed space
'La la la' for every ship that was set to sail but got washed away
I'm singing 'la la la' in desperate hopes
That when it bounces back I hear the octave change
So if we could just pretend that your voice
Exists inside this empty void within

Then holy shit, holy shit, holy shit if you spoke
Insomnia might loosen its wholesome grip on my throat
And I can begin to forgive you for admitting the hoax
Instead of learning to hate you for very minute you don't
Because I sit here wondering if anything you said was true
And who it was that taught you to speak bullets
Without considering the exit wound
Tell me who

Because I still think back to the first time
You called me with nothing to say
That morning you were more than just my friend
And we both noticed something had changed
You drove to your parents house and we talked about everything
We talked about how much it sucked
But no matter what, we had to remain
Nothing
And in that deafening silence
I asked if I could still call you my snowflake
And you said okay

flatsound - you wanted to look for help i wanted to sit and w

There are reasons that I can't stay
I counted them all myself
but I will always keep awake
searching for how it felt
because all I want is to find myself in anyone
and I wonder if it'll ever come
as easy as us giving up

if this could stop
I don't think I'd want it to
I built my life
around watching everything you do
it still feels like you can hear me
when I talk to you
you just don't respond

and all I want is to find myself in anyone
and I wonder if you're having fun
I wonder if you're having fun

all I want is to find myself in anyone
and I wonder if you're having fun
in that empty space where we used to talk

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