Playlist Emily Kinney

emily kinney - back on love

I am so confused
I don't know what's up or down
Should I leave or stick around?
Am I lost or am I found?

He's throwin' wisdom like a poet
Throwin' tantrums like a child
But when he holds my hand
My pulse runs red and wild
I was a fighter for my freedom
Now a fool for his touch
He is a nightcap, a brunch buzz, and I'm a lush

Next to the nightstand I'm taking every pill he's got
My head, my heart, my throat, my lungs
My stomach all in a knot
I swore off suitors and the never-ending
needless drugs
I learned my lesson and I thought
"Yeah, I've had enough"
But I'm back on love
Back on love

And I'm losing time, losing weight
I'm a loser for this man
I've been lost since our first date

He is a tight-rope talker, I can't balance at all
He says it's fascinating watching me tip-toe and crawl
He says my ex-boyfriend's boring
he says the moon is the sun
He says anxiety can be the source of lots of fun
My best friend made a list of ways his love is off-track
But I don't give a shit, and I refuse to call that bitch back

He might be messin' in New York
He might be messin' with my head
But I'll do anything to keep him messin' in my bed

Next to the nightstand I'm taking every pill he's got
My head, my heart, my throat, my lungs
My stomach all in a knot
I swore off suitors and the never-ending, needless drugs
I learned my lesson and I thought
"Yeah, I've had enough"
But I'm back on love
Back on love

I've got witches wavin' in my windows
Sky high, I cry, and swear to quit
I've got witches wavin' in my windows
Sky high, I cry, and swear to quit
I've got witches wavin' in my windows
Sky high, I cry, and swear to quit
He calls me up
He calls me "moonlight"
I'm pulling up to Pacsam for one more hit

emily kinney - be good

It's unclear now what we intend
We're alone in our own world
You don't wanna be my boyfriend
And I don't wanna be your girl
And that, that's a relief
We'll drink up our grief
And pine for summer
And we'll buy beer to shotgun
And we'll lay in the lawn
And we'll be good

Now I'm laughing at my boredom
At my string of failed attempts
Because you think that it's important
And I welcome the sentiment
And we talk on the phone at night
Until it's daylight
And I feel clever
And I hear the slow in your speech
Yeah, you're half asleep
Say goodnight

Now I've got friendships to mend
I'm selfishly dispossessed
You don't wanna be my boyfriend
And that's probably for the best
Because that, that gets messy
And you will hurt me
Or I'll disappear
So we will drink beer all day
And our guards will give way
And we'll be good

emily kinney - berkeley 039 s breathing

You know that I haven't gone to bed yet
Just call me up on a sure bet
Berkeley's been breathing
since first time we've met
I'm wide awake on a sure bet

Back seats and salt stings the air crisp and breezy
Car key hotel room
Boy I'm just that easy
Oh you know that I haven't gone to bed yet
Just call me up on a sure bet

If you want in there's no need for a knock
I keep my door at night unlocked
Tip tap the glass cigarette and small talk
I'm wide awake my doors unlocked
Rain poured my heart torn
But you didn't mind much
Red face from hot days and built up lost blood rush
Oh if you want in there's no need for a knock
We keep our doors at night unlocked

Lesson, lesson learned
You'll just sit, my fingertips get burned
Open flame, window sill all night long
Take whats left of my best unfinished song
My unfinished song, song, my song

You know that I haven't gone to bed yet
Just call me up on a sure bet
Berkeley's been breathing
since first time we've met
I'm wide awake on your best bet

emily kinney - birthday cake

I wanna be a famous singer
Would you be my band
Travel the world together
You can hold my hand
Crossin' paths from the airplane
To the terminal gate
Hope we're meant for each other
Hope that love is our fate
Life feels like a world when
You've been watching paint dry
Can't steady the current
No matter how hard I try
We could all use an anchor
You're not afraid of the sea
Let's go dive in together
Put your hooks in me

And boy you really got me after birthday cake
Makin' out on my friend's new couch
So call me any night, any day of the week
I wanna learn what you're all about
And I know I'm far away but this is just the start
And if we make it past
The first little part
We can fly around the world in the very same plane
We could share a life
Share a name
Mm-mm-mm-mm-mm
Mm-mm-mm-mm-mm

I wanna live in New York City
When I'm old and grey
You say you're gonna come visit me
See a Broadway play
Snow has just started fallin'
I hope you'll come around soon
My apartment is tiny
But I think there's enough room for you

Yeah boy you really got me after birthday cake
Makin' love on my friend's spare bed
And I can't seem to face
Walkin' out the park gates
Get your face outta my head
And I know I'm far away but this is just the start
And if we make it past
The first little part
We could fly around the world in the very same plane
We could share a life
Share a name
Mm-mm-mm-mm-mm
Mm-mm-mm-mm-mm

And you're sayin too much
Way too soon
Well my only confidant is this empty room
And my only response is the echo on my voice
When I'm fallin' in love
It's like I have no choice
From my heart, to my throat, to my lips, to the air
I don't wish for much
But I wish you were here
We need to check this out
Oh check me in
I'm not Into playing games
But I do fight to win

And boy you really got me after birthday cake
Makin' love on my friend's spare bed
And I can't seem to face walking out the park gates
Get your face outta my head
And I know I'm far away but this is just the start
And if we make it past
The first little part
We could fly around the world in the very same plane
We could share a life
Share a name
Mm-mm-mm-mm-mm
Mm-mm-mm-mm-mm
MM

emily kinney - blue toothbrush

Do you have my blue toothbrush?
I left it near the bathroom sink
It's been a couple months, I think

You tossed it, if I had to guess
I hope it never caused you stress
I know how you don't like a mess

You rarely have the time each day
To deal with tooth or hard tk*
Of someone who's a million miles away

But still I thought that I could stay

I've been thinking about
Winter mornings, talking in your bed
Sleepy eyes, head raised
Blue head dreams, wating in my head
I take a shower and brush my teeth
Put my toothbrush down, where is easy to reach

I've been thinking about
Harlem sidewalks, New York morning winds
Capel talk, lips locked*
Now a shore, wasn't sure if I had to loose*
Coffee, a kiss, and rains and brand
Prue half hour and sure be again

Have you seen my blue toothbrush?
I left it near the bathroom sink
It's been a couple months, I think

Yeah, if you kept my blue toothbrush
I don't mean to push or rush
You should have a real nice place
A toothbrush doesn't take much space

Maybe you could keep it there
I should be back in May of next year
Can't tell if it's wrong or right
But you should know, that toothbrush keeps me up at night

If you don't want my blue toothbrush
I'll take it back on we next me*
Just trying to help you keep things neat

emily kinney - crash and burn

I've got lots of questions but you've got me
And we've got lots of reasons to never ever leave
Oh, come and visit me where the trees grow tall
I want you to be kissing me when we both fall

So, we're gonna crash and burn
We're gonna live and learn this weekend
And I was the girl of your dreams
Now I'm the girl I'm crying when you're sleeping

Oh, I've got lots of questions when I stay up real late
I don't believe in magic, ghosts, a god, an angel
or that you're my soul mate
A chicken scratch of time
and tasks to map our fate
You never have the answers
for this life that we face

So, we're gonna crash and burn
We're gonna live and learn this weekend
And I was the girl of your dreams
But I'm always on my knees when you are sleeping

And the ground feels so hard when the fall was easy
Baby, nothing you say will ever please me
Baby, nothing you ever do will ever reach me
Baby, nothing you say will ever keep me

emily kinney - dad says

I am giving up one of my dreams today
I found out I can't always get my way
And sometimes a dream isn't worth what you pay
So I'm giving up one of my dreams today
When we are children we look to the sky
We want everything, I'm afraid to ask why

And I saw the sparkling fish in the sea
I dreamed I would find one who'd swim next to me
And this called love and it's worth every reason
Love is the cool and the warmth in each season
But how does one love and what does one do
When the the dream that you have doesn't want to pick you
But oh oh don't cry for me

It's just one dream less on my shoulder
And oh oh dad says giving up dreams
Is just a sign I'm getting older
He was a stoner and I'm like a light
And when he would blaze id sing songs by his side
But my dream takes two strong hearts that will fight
And he doesn't dream, he just sleeps at night
And oh oh don't cry for me

It's just one dream less on my shoulder
And oh oh dad says giving up dreams,
Is just a sign I'm getting older
Oh they say to much smoking will change your taste
Maybe that's why he's kissing some other girls face
But I never dreamed of second place
So id rather just quit than continue to race
And oh oh don't cry for me

It's just one dream less on my shoulder
And oh oh dad says giving up dreams
Is just a sign I'm getting older
And oh oh oh I am singing on stage
But it doesn't mean I know much better

Oh oh oh oh
Your probably like me

Some days dreaming and some days a quitter
I am giving up one of my dreams today
After I held him and begged him to stay
And after my dream will drown out to a whisper
After I've burnt all the photo booth pictures

And after I erased our names from the sky
Stopped wondering how and asking why
Oh I wish I had words to encourage inspire
But the truth is I'm ripped and I'm sad and I'm tired
I'm a loser in love and an abandoner of dreams
And today I have up the one for him, and me

emily kinney - doctor

Uh, uh, uh, uh, Huh, huh, huh, Uh, uh, uh, uh, Huh, huh, huh

Oh I wish I was a doctor who could heal your broken heart
Analyze each bruise and hear your story from the start
And stitch up every tie nigh tear

With a ribbon and a bow
Just grab you some new medicine
That makes you feel less alone

No I am not a doctor
Just an ordinary girl
An all the way you chest aches
The way your head swirls

And a bonded beat and broken down
By the one who knew you best
I was sleeping when he cut my veins
The knew only life away

No I am not a doctor
But I've got some extra time
I've got some drugs
I keep in the stock called vodka and red wine

We both know that your not gonna sleep tonight

I am not a doctor
But maybe you could let me try
So I put my hand against your head
I recommend that you stay in bed

Your temperature is getting pretty high
Well I hope your ready to pit your drink on ice
No I'll never be a doctor

I hated science class
My parents liked to say how I picked up new skills fast
Yet we both got kicked out but we have talents to discover
So lets buckle down get to work
Help you recover

So I put my hand against your head
I recommend that you stay in bed
Your temperature is getting pretty high
Help them get dressed
To put your drink on ice

I could be the doctor you could be the patient
Instead of operation
Built to any temptation
There were things she wouldn't do

Baby boy this night
Its all about you

Uh, uh, uh, uh, Huh, huh, huh, Uh, uh, uh, uh, Huh, huh, huh

Get better soon

emily kinney - drunken heart

Instrumental

emily kinney - expired lover

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

I don't want you anymore, summers gone
And now i'm sure
The box behind my bed i'd saved
I took out with the trash today

Oh, the truth is i've met someone new
the truth is you probably have too

The truth is I can't stand your face
When I think of all the love we made
Oh, we took a walk, we took a walk out by the Hudson River
the humid breeze, you "I need You" pleads
It made my shoulders shiver

You asked me "baby girl, how long until my heart recovers? "
I'm sure the answers never
You're a top back shelf, out of date, too
late expired lover

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

No I'm not the only girl to save items
past their expiration date
I sucked you up till my stomach churned
My throat blows, my eyes would burn
Someone tole me love was suppose
to hurt but now I've learned an

I don't want this anymore. (I don't want this anymore)
Like the hand me downs waiting by my door
(I don't want this anymore)
I kept you around but I don't know what for
So I took a walk all by myself from riverside to south street

It's 2am I've let you in, and whenever
you're here I can't sleep
Is there anyway to save you and me?
Baby, not that I've discovered and you're taking
all my covers, this is your last sleepover

You're top back shelf, out of date, too late, expired lover
You're top back shelf, out of date, too late, expired lover

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

Oh no

emily kinney - hold on

They hung a sign up in out town
"if you live it up, you won't
live it down"
So, she left Monte Rio, son
Just like a bullet leaves a gun
With charcoal eyes and Monroe hips
She went and took that California trip
Well, the moon was gold, her
Hair like wind
She said don't look back just
Come on Jim

(Chorus)
Oh you got to
Hold on, Hold on
You got to hold on
Take my hand, I'm standing right here
You gotta hold on

Well, he gave her a dimestore watch
And a ring made from a spoon
Everyone is looking for someone to blame
But you share my bed, you share my name
Well, go ahead and call the cops
You don't meet nice girls in coffee shops
She said baby, I still love you
Sometimes there's nothin left to do

Oh you got to
Hold on, hold on
You got to hold on
Take my hand, I'm standing right here, you got to
Just hold on.

Well, God bless your crooked little heart
St. Louis got the best of me
I miss your broken-china voice
How I wish you were still here with me

Well, you build it up, you wreck it down
You burn your mansion to the ground
When there's nothing left to keep you here, when
You're falling behind in this
Big blue world

Oh you go to
Hold on, hold on
You got to hold on
Take my hand, I'm standing right here
You got to hold on

Down by the Riverside motel,
It's 10 below and falling
By a 99 cent store she closed her eyes
And started swaying
But it's so hard to dance that way
When it's cold and there's no music
Well your old hometown is so far away
But, inside your head there's a record
That's playing, a song called

Hold on, hold on
You really got to hold on
Take my hand, I'm standing right here
And just hold on.

emily kinney - in

You called out my name at the opening party
We met the next weekend and you bought me coffee
Then Brooklyn, and Sweet Ups and four sips of gin
You threw me your keys and I let you in
To my first New York City apartment
You helped paint the walls, but got dirt on the carpet

But I didn't mind 'cause you're all that I wanted
Ignored broken glass, forgave each small sin
Each time you knocked, I let you in - to my heart
And then into my head

You bruised up my legs in my one person bed
Your actions felt bedsides, sweet nothings you said
With every fight, I let you in
No matter how late, I buzzed you in

In, in, inside
I find you waiting where I used to hide
In, in, in, inside
I can't chase you out, though I've tried and I've tried
In-side

I step on the stage, my head finally clear
Familiar laugh from house left rings in my ear
I'm scanning the audience thinking you might be here
Haven't talked in sometime
Don't know where you've been
Security's gone, you let yourself in

In, in, inside
I find you waiting where I used to hide
In, in, in, inside
I can't chase you out, though I've tried and I've tried
Inside

I find you waiting where I used to hide
In, in, inside
I can't chase you out, though I've tried and I've tried
Inside

What could this broken love be all about?
I've let you in, now I can't get you out

emily kinney - jar of hearts

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

I've learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are?
Running around leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are?
Running around leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

emily kinney - julie

Let go of Julie and take my hand
Let go, it?s time to be my man
Let go of Julie and kiss my face
She is standing, she is standing in my place

And I?m not normally the jealous, jealous type
But I imagined it?d be you and me tonight
And I bet Julie?s really smart
Oh you keep saying she?s so cool
But if you pick her over me you?re just a fool

So take home Julie, we?ll be drinking at two
Take home Julie, we got catching up to do
Take home Julie, take up my heart
I am ready, I?m ready to start

I said I was alone and you just laughed out loud
How do broken hearts make you so proud
Left a comfy bed, I left my lover over here
To be with you, be with you here

And I?m not normally the jealous, jealous type
But you deserve a girl with matching sparkly eyes
A girl who makes you dance till dawn
And makes you want to write a song
And if you think that that is Julie, you?re wrong

So take home Julie, we?ll be drinking at two
Take home Julie, we got catching up to do
Take home Julie, take up my heart
I am ready, I?m ready to start

I?m staring at the ground as she walks right by
You?re staring at me now cause I refuse to say hi
I?m just staring into space cause all I got on my mind
Elevator kisses summer, summer time
Elevator kisses, you and I

And I?m not usually the jealous, jealous sort
But if we?re picking favorites, I am yours
And I know Julie doesn?t drink
And I?m just hanging at the bar
So go ahead and call up Julie a car
Yeah go ahead and call up Julie a car

So take home Julie, we?ll be drinking at two
Take home Julie, we got catching up to do
Take home Julie, take up my heart
I am ready, I?m ready to start

No I?m not normally the jealous, jealous type
But I imagined it?d be you and me this time
And I bet Julie?s really smart
Oh you keep saying she?s so cool
But if you pick her over me you?re just a fool

emily kinney - just pretend

In midnight, I wake at wired
What's a girl to do if she's not tired
feeling ache, hunger, low in tummy

Mouth full of frackles, sure sounds yummy
Getting hot and I'm feeling a little bit
What I would give for your salty inviting scent
I admit I'm scared to be on my own

Though parents bragged I'm a kid who plays good alone
Crunch up my blankie, put it between my knees
I throw my towels and give it a good hard squeeze
I just pretend, just pretend, just pretend you're there

I just pretend, just pretend, just pretend you care
To do my tummy, moving my head, it's around
I want to scream but seem silly to make such sound
I just pretend, just pretend, I can taste your sweat
I just pretend, just pretend, you can hear my breath
Aha, aha, aha...

Boy, you're real smart that you didn't call or write
My baby boy is a-a-a-alright
I miss kisses in the morning light
But haven't seen sun, learning to love myself tonight
Aha, aha, aha...

I hope you don't think its dirty
To be so selfishly flirty
My body and brain have been appealing
From the sun its attempt feeling
You never thought this girl could make such noise
I never thought I'd have such fun, no help from boys

You got me pinned up against these mirrored walls
It's in my head, I don't worry about trips or falls
I just pretend, just pretend, just pretend feel me shake
I just pretend, just pretend, just pretend that this next parts not fake

Aha, aha, aha...

emily kinney