Playlist Emilie Autumn

emilie autumn - 306

Three hundred and six
In only six years
If it was an accident
Where are the tears
I am still unidentified
Behind the cathedral
Is where my body hides
But I'm not inside
Just one of sixteen
In only one day
If it was a game
Then why couldn't I play
I am the abandoner
But still I remain
And my frozen pulse quickens
As the black plot thickens

Like this story I heard
A lifetime ago
Where a girl
(And this is funny)
Took her life
But what she doesn't know
Is how long it takes
For the water to rise
And the breath to stop fighting
And the cold to close her eyes

Morality plays
On stages of sin
The easy way out
Or the easy way in
I am still overglorified
My reasons to live
Were my reasons to die
But at least they were mine
Now I've freedom unbound
Cut the laces of life
The pistol
The poison
The noose
Or the knife
I have chosen my instrument
And said no goodbyes
And my frozen pulse quickens
As the black plot thickens

Like this story I heard
A lifetime ago
Where a girl
(And this is funny)
Took her life
But what she didn't know
Is how long it takes
For the water to rise
And the breath to stop fighting
And the cold to close her eyes

emilie autumn - 4 o clock

4 o'Clock
4 o'Clock
Never let me sleep
I close my eyes and pray
For the garish light of day
Like a frightened child I run
From the sleep that never comes

4 o'Clock
4 o'Clock
Out of bed I creep
To climb this tower of shame
But the hour's still the same
Only madness knows my name
At 4 o'Clock

4 o'Clock
4 o'Clock
Never let me sleep
I close my eyes and pray
For the garish light of day
Like a frightened child I run
From the sleep that never comes

4 o'Clock
4 o'Clock
Out of bed I creep
To climb this tower of shame
But the hour's still the same
Only madness knows my name
At 4 o'Clock

Why can we never go back to bed?
Whose is the voice ringing in my head?
Where is the sense in these desperate dreams?
Why should I wake when I'm half past dead?

Sure as the clock keeps its steady chime
Weak as I walk to its steady rhyme
Ticking away from the ones we love
So many girls, so little time

Why can we never go back to bed?
Whose is the voice ringing in my head?
Where is the sense in these desperate dreams?
Why should I wake when I'm half past dead?

4 o'Clock
4 o'Clock
Never let me sleep
I close my eyes and pray
For the garish light of day
Like a frightened child I run
From the sleep that never comes

4 o'Clock
4 o'Clock
Out of bed I creep
To climb this tower of shame
But the hour's still the same
Only slumber never came
Only madness knows my name
At 4 o'Clock

Why can we never go back to bed?
Whose is the voice ringing in my head?
Where is the sense in these desperate dreams?
Why should I wake when I'm half past dead?

Sure as the clock keeps its steady chime
Weak as I walk to its steady rhyme
Ticking away from the ones we love
So many girls, so little time

Why can we never go back to bed?

emilie autumn - a letter from a friend

Precious thing
I long for nothing more
Than to be your friend
But I am not good
As you areFor I think
Where I should feel
And I am not innocent
As you would think
For I try
To turn your head
And I never stop
And I see you happy
And I wish you well
But in my wish
Is my invitation
To a different dream
And I wonder
If I care for you at all
Not to leave you alone
Where you are
Content
And I long for nothing more
Than to be your friend
But if you accept my gift
You will ruin it
And I will not give you
What I promised
BecauseI can't
But I will always
OfferAnd I will always
Deny it
Because I have a most convenient
Guise
Of friendship
Should you slip
I should slay you
Like all the others
And still I rain
And say walk my way
Because I adore
Where I have no right
But I ask you to become
Worse than you are
And neglect to mention
That I adore the part of you
That does not love me
For I long for nothing more
Than to be your friend
Yet I long for everything
Friends will never be
I think I may be
Cruel
But if I harm none I am only
Evil
And it hurts not to know if I am
Terrible
Or only
In love

emilie autumn - absynthe

Absynthe and Marigold
Make a good spell I'm told
Takes one away from the everyday place
Wormwood and Licorice
Cater to every wish
Rest for a moment and hide from the chase

Run from the meadowland
Rise up from the depths
Of the shallow white river that weighs my dress down
Out of the chimney I'm on my best broomstick
As smoke fills the sky close your eyes
Sleep little town

For the Absynthe flows like wine where I'm going
They say there's a demon
There probably is
But I've met the best of them
Keep the fire burning if you want to
I'll tell you when I get home if I do
Now close your eyes
And fly away to where they are dancing

When the sun sets behind the hill
I'll journey on until
I reach a circle of stones standing tall
Lit by a full moon
As bright as the high noon
And now a transparent veil covers us all

Start up the chanting
We sing a little louder
And try to forget what just won't go away
As the shadows grow larger
I'll let all my hair down
And lift up my eyes to the heavens
How shall I pray

For the Absynthe flows like wine where I'm going
They say there's a demon
There probably is
But I've met the best of them
Married them, slept with them and
Damned if I'm frightened away by the rest of them
When I close my eyes
I'll fly away

Poor Jane Brooks
Keep your apples to yourself
They're not too familiar with fruit of your taste
When you untie the winds
Let them fight against churches
And palaces, pyramids
Acting in hast
The ceremony of my seduction
Is not my illusion
I'll show you a thousand graves
Covered in aspen
You paranoid people
I'll make you believe
I'll make you believe
I'll make you believe
What you want to

Rosemary, Maidenhair
Wolfbane and maidens fair
Whisper the secrets we hid in the night
Call Horse and Hattock
Grimalkin and Paddock
I'll leave you the Columbine
Now to the flight

Summon the Spirit
For the town below is stirring
And say the words this world has no right to know
In the Kingdom of Darkness
I'll bow to another lord
Hear now the word
But you'll never find where I go

For the Absynthe flows like wine where I'm going
They say there's a demon
There probably is
But I'll be the end of them
Go on and send for them
So burn me and break me
You know I'll pretend for them
When I close my eyes

I shall goe intill ane catt
With sorrow and sych and a blak shott
And I shall goe in the Devellis nam
Ay will I com hom againe

emilie autumn - across the sky

See beyond the moment
Think beyond the day
Hear the word
My voice will not be cast away
Fatalistic fortune
Ever near the end
Love goes on
But Time does not return again

CHORUS
Across the sky
I will come for you
If you ask me to
Demystify
Your uncommon dreams
Stranger things have come true

Fear no more the midnight
Fear no more the sea
Close your eyes, regret nothing
You're safe with me
Look into the shadows
Step into the mist
Search your land but doubt never
I still exist

CHORUS
Across the sky
I will come for you
If you ask me to
Demystify
Your uncommon dreams
Stranger things have come true

Ask yourself: is this all there is
Take no answer but the one you find
I have put my faith in aberrations of your kind
But even if you're in my mind

CHORUS
Across the sky
I will come for you
If you ask me to
Demystify
Your uncommon dreams
Stranger things have come true

Should we hear the silence
Should we hear the noise
I don't need this blind acceptance
I have made my choice
Light lives in the darkness
Beauty lives in pain
In destruction we may lose ourselves
But still I will remain
Across the sky
Across the sky

See beyond the moment
Think beyond the day
Hear the word
Hear the word

emilie autumn - alas

Alas, my love, if I could make you live
And from the page step forth and sit beside me
Or better still, bestride the steed I gave you
Wrapped close within the cloak I lent to hide thee
Perhaps I'd venture forth to ask thy name
Since while thou liest underneath my pen
That honour given which the poorest claim
Unjustly was withheld. But if again
I held thee captive as I did ere now
Stalling to pass my fingers through the last
Of midnight tendrils, or peruse thy brow
In fear of sending off what heaven cast
Too early for my insufficient mind
To grasp the fullest detail and retain
The presence that your image left behind
That thou in all thy glory should remain
I fear my oversight I would not mend
For now upon reflection I confess
That secretly I never did intend
With title long or surname rich to bless
But rather let in my imagination
Run wild the thoughts of who perhaps you were
Before your soul demanded your creation
And deigned my mind and willing heart to stir
For such a noble and impassioned face
Could well be but newborn unto this sphere
But sure among a distant beauteous race
Thou hast known more than all who dwelleth here
And could tell much of places thou hast seen
And battles fought for honours won and lost
And how each service done a faerie Queen
Becomes a brighter jewel than it cost
The ladies of your world, you may impart
Desire to be neither over-graced
Nor underrepresented in the art
Of living, where their lips were meant to taste
A sort of feline stealth they wear about them
And while a flame of innocence they hold
In forests dark you fear to be without them
For knights of maler kinds are ne'er so bold
Yes, in thy orb a maid may be a knight
(Thou knew'st a friend would make upon this news)
Without a whisper loud or censure slight
For lords are not afeared their stock to lose
Where no stock may be taken or be kept
No property be granted, nor no bride
No maiden may be stolen while she slept
Nor robbed of her freedom to decide
What suits her best. No county's law is needed
To cut the weed of violence from the stem
No danger for the law to go unheeded
For acts as these do not occur to them
The gentlemen you raise are rarer still
For in their eyes, as in the depths of thine,
Such soft and thrilling mysteries fulfill
The darkest corners of their heart's design
Their arrows, much like those I gave to thee
Could not but graze the flank of yonder cow
Without making him laugh. Â?Tis much to see
Them tickling their prey. I know not how
They ever do encapture what they eat
Save that perhaps their bright unfettered brains
Have learned that what grows underneath their feet
And in the trees above better sustains
A life intent on living well tomorrow.
But how, I ask thee, most endearing fiend
Do lords and ladies love where is no sorrow
No strife to overcome, no soul uncleaned
Of crushing ardor long worn out its stay,
Betrothal to a mortal less divine
Than that who stole thy blushing breath away,
No hot forbidden kisses for to pine,
No heart affixed to age where heart is young,
No ill intentioned suitors to evade?
Â?Still madam! Would'st thou kindly hold thy tongueÂ?
Thou sayest. Â?Your mistake has rash been made
In living long in combat with your kind
Thou see'st no other obstacle but these
Thy hands are careworn that have yet to find
The hands that first should hold them. Yet to please
The hierarchy which you serve unwitting
Thou dost believe that love in fighting grows
That happiness in love is not befitting
But in thy sadness thou mak'st light of woes
For even were there ne'er a cloudy day
No tempest to divide what love had bound
The galley which the moon holds in her sway
Could not but stir the peace it finally found
The wound is deeper than the sea about thee
The stars upon my doublet you have drawn
May light my homeward path, but how, without me
Wilt thou escape the fate thou tremblest on?Â?
And in this way and more my paper spoke
O, fierce, savage, gentle beauty bright
Thou who I've given breath my soul has broke
You had authority but not the right
Could I but see the lips that dare not breathe
They are so beautiful and pressing sweet
Could I but touch the wings that underneath
Are made so soft thy heart forgets to beat
Perhaps I should have more for which to strive
You came to my domain and brought despair
For though I be the chastest heart alive
The realm you speak of will not take me there
Have you no pity? Can'st thou not perceive
That I, a blinded beast, had but the eyes
To see where I would love? Dost thou believe
That ere you came I was but vain disguise?
I know the murmur of music reveals
The things no human heart could comprehend
I render'st thou for all that torment feels
And longed to be thy lordship's faithful friend
Yea, quiet as a mushroom did I wait
I willed to thee my form to overtake
I shivered at each passing horse's gait
And so I slept to suddenly awake
Alas, my love, wilt thou kiss me goodbye
The lingering night will aid thee on thy travels
I'll craft but one thing more, a crow to fly
Before to tell me how thy tale unravels
I say, thou art complete and free to go
What holds thee here save one who lives no longer
For I have given thee the life you know
The weaker I become thou art the stronger
And in your antique words your clear intent
Was that once thou art gone I should dismay.
Quothe thee, Â?Your thought mistook me for I meant
To leave thee not but offerest to stay
For true I never did in my own realm
Partake of that pure love of which I told thee
But be my guide and with me at the helm
And I shall in the cloak you wrought enfold thee
And journey to the ends of all the earth
For thou hast proved more generous and wise
Than all we faeries, moons and stars are worth
For live we not but living in your eyes.Â?
Dear nameless knight, if thou would'st be mine own
And leave thy dragons for a while thou may'st
Find in these arms within which thou hast grown
A better reason than the which thou say'st
But with your hand you pointeth; swear I so
And Â?tis not plain to me, though I did draw it
Which way thou dost intend for us to go
Sure in the mind it is of she who saw it
Yet still perhaps I made thee to discover
What one would do if one were asked to choose
Â?Tween back and forwards. Be thee friend or lover
Perhaps you were to be my favorite muse
Thou feel'st thy armor; fight but when you must
Thou see'st the blade of truth below thy knee
Use arrows against all whom you mistrust
But when thou ride'st my way aim one at me
Your world is yours as ere it was before
Your time beneath my busy hand well spent
I've made a thing I love; I ask no more
And never shall redeem the heart I lent
Me in my world and thyself in thine
Two petals on the same and silent flower
And evermore I'll welcome thee in mine
Your dear creation was my finest hour

emilie autumn - at what point does a shakespeare say

At what point does a Shakespeare say
I feel it's time I write a play
What subject shall it be today
A tragedy I've done

Lovers twain have been united
Audiences are delighted
No doubt I shall soon be knighted
Royal fame I've won

The Queen has come to every show
And, flattering, she feigns to know
A couplet from a verse, also
A refrain from a rhyme

But the ones I aim to pleaseth
Most of all upon my kneeseth
Are the folk who cough and sneezeth
Through my prose sublime

emilie autumn - be silent be still

Be silent, be still
Don't make me chase you
I'll warn you, I will
Just to embrace you
I'll get my fill
So be silent, be still

Be hopeful, be brave
I only want you more
When you misbehave
I know I've said that before
It's your touch I crave
So be silent, be still

You, I adore
Must you ignore
It doesn't matter what you say anymore
This is our night
Why must we fight?
Don't close the door

Be careful, my dear
If you're not nice
I'll give you reason to fear
But I'll think twice
Don't pretend you don't hear
Just be silent, be still

You, I adore
Must you ignore
It doesn't matter what you say anymore
This is our night
Why must we fight?
Don't close the door

Now listen to me
I'd rather tie you up
Than let you go free
You must be kind, my dear
I think you'll agree
These are the words you've sung to me
So there's no hope you see
For still inside I will never be

emilie autumn - best safety lies in fear

Best safety lies in fear
Best safety lies in fear

A violet in the youth of primy nature
Forward, not permanent, sweet, not lasting,
The perfume and suppliance of a minute; No more.
No more.
No more.

Best safety lies in fear
Best safety lies in fear

If he says he loves you
If he says he loves you
If he says he loves you
If he says he loves you
Perhaps he loves you now

emilie autumn - blackbird sonnets

Sonnet I
How shall I fly when feathers be not mine
Though all my wishes skyward do attend?
How tie my wounded heartstrings safe to thine
So thou to me, like sun to moon, descend?
Or if thou wilt not bend thy starry frame,
Wishing to keep thy brow o'ercrowned with mist,
I'll rise so that thy place shall stay the same
But will not then depart from heights unkiss'd.
For bargains may be struck and kept with pride
When lovers from their just demands ne'er hide.

Sonnet II
My lover's eyes are darker than the moon
Or are they brighter? I cannot decide.
His tender voice makes other's out of tune
And shows me how I cannot them abide
His movements are of more than feline grace
His hands are soft and pale as ivory
And though I've rarely seen a stranger face,
More perfect looks I should abhor to see
For others may be pleasanter in part
But all my love remains a work of art.

Sonnet III
How is it that I smile when I am sad?
From what resource do I derive this strength?
I've lost none but a thing I never had
To keep it would I go to any length
But distance is not measured in a heart
So I could weep and say that I've been wronged
And yet, as ever, be so far apart
From him to whom I swore that I belonged
Alas, I blame as though he were untrue
I loved him but, poor fool, he never knew.

Sonnet IV
If all you love I am, as I am quite,
Then why dost thou not love? Dost thou not see
A plainly perfect match? If thou art bright,
Then why, when thou dost love, love'st thou not me?
Instead preferring someone far removed
From all you claim to most admire? I would
Commit you as a lunatic if proved
Thus mad you were my ward for your own good.
And yet I'm making light of my own pain
Because I finally love, yet love in vain.

emilie autumn - by the sword

"Days of old," I tell my restless mind
Searching mountains, fields, and meadows green
What is it my heart can hope to find
All I long for I have never seen
Tales of glory written in the dust
Tapestries of deepest purple gold
Legends carved in stone tell me I must
Journey through the mist and bitter cold
Seeking in the corners of the earth
My companions I have never known
Blindly running forth, is honor worth
Endless hours of silence spent alone?

Chorus:
But in this brotherhood I still believe
And for the ones we've lost my soul will grieve
Yet through the world alone I wander for I know somewhere
I will find my brothers, by the sword I swear

In my memory awakening
Like a dream too sweet to cast away
Shadows of the past begin to sing
Calling out to me in their gallant way
Come away with us brother in arms
Through the seas of silver, fields of gold
Join us as we battle those who harm
And fight with valour as in days of old

Chorus

Seeking in the corners of the earth
My companions I have never known
Blindly running forth, is honor worth
Endless hours of silence spent alone?

Chorus

Rescue damsels fine and maidens fair
Free the noble who have done no wrong
Though it seems the world may little care
Some are left that to the Round belong

Chorus

But in this brotherhood we still believe
And for the ones we've lost our souls will grieve
Yet through the world alone we wander for we know somewhere
We will find our brothers, by the sword we swear

By the sword I swear
I will find my brothers
I will find my sisters
I will find my brothers
I will find my sisters
By the sword I swear

emilie autumn - castle down

You can see that I swim
Through the sea of painful
You have watched as I pull
Myself from the floor
And you were there when I
Built my tower like pebbles in the rain
Trying to balance all that I had left
With what I didn't have anymore

But would you tear my castle down
Stone by stone
And let the wind run through my windows
'Til there is nothing left but a battered rose
Would you tear my castle down
Stone by stone
And let the wind run through my windows
'Til there is nothing left but a battered rose

You seem so devoted
Your love is unconditional
You were self-promoted
I never asked you
You were my everything
My apparitional faith
Where are you when I am screaming to my God
What am I coming to

But would you tear my castle down
Stone by stone
And let the wind run through my windows
'Til there is nothing left but a battered rose
Would you tear my castle down
Stone by stone
And let the wind run through my windows
'Til there is nothing left but a battered rose

If I had another place to go
Would you break me, is it that you know
I have no choice but to rebuild again
I'm tied so hard I can't remember when
I last walked free upon these feet of mine
But I'll draw the line
There will come a Time
When I am stronger
Your words won't hurt any longer

But would you tear my castle down
Stone by stone
And let the wind run through my windows
'Til there is nothing left but a battered rose
Would you tear my castle down
Stone by stone
And let the wind run through my windows
'Til there is nothing left but a battered rose

'Til there is nothing nothing left
'Til there is nothing nothing left
'Til there is nothing left
Will you tear my castle down
Will you tear my castle down
Will you tear my castle down

emilie autumn - chambermaid

Show your face
Don't hide
Take off the mask now
Underneath is a deep dark secret
Take me for a ride
Upon your white horse
Take your love
'Cause I don't want to keep it

I am out of place
And honey you are out of Time
I'd tell your fortune
But the words don't rhyme

CHORUS
I'm not your chambermaid
You're not my lord
All the fine games we played
Have left me bored
I never want to see you come around my castle
'Cause I just can't afford to love you
I'm not your chambermaid
You're not my lord

Tell me what I have to do to make you
Understand it's a lost cause lover
Tell me while you're at it how it feels to
Hold me close when you've been thinking of her
I don't want to hear you say you love me
You've been gone such a long time
Won't you turn around
Before I have to see this
Face I once adored
Don't you see

I am out of place
And honey you are out of Time
I'd tell your fortune
But the words don't rhyme

CHORUS

You have no hold over me
What's in your cards now let me see
I hope you've got what you wanted
There's just one thing I know will never be

CHORUS

emilie autumn - close

I had you so close
And you didn't even know
I cherished every turn of your voice
And thrilled when you laughed
And died at each offered word
Which meant you didn't long to leave
And I tried not to seem
Too happy
You seem at home
In my darkness
And I love you
Because I know it isn't easy
And you are so kind
Because you make me feel
Worthy of pinching
Dreams
I saw you
No one else
When I closed my eyes
You saw me
Only me
In my dreams

emilie autumn - come away

Follow, follow me into the forest
Where I shall grant you your heart's desire
When night falls only darkness between us
'Til stars above set the woods afire

Chorus:
Come away, come away my love
The winds are calling and so I must go
Come away, our path shall be lit by the moonlight
There's nothing to hold you so why should you stay
Come away love, come away

Leave your memories, I'll make thee a new one
Your dreams as well for I've dreams to spare
Worry not for the things you've forgotten
Remember only the days that we share

Chorus
Come away, come away
Come away, come away
Come away, come away
Come away, come away

Follow, follow me into the forest
Where I shall grant you your heart's desire
When night falls only darkness between us
'Til stars above set the woods afire

Chorus

Come away, come away my love
The world is waiting and so I must go
Come away, our path shall be lit by the moonlight
There's nothing to hold you so why should you stay
Come away love, come away

emilie autumn