carry on - a life less plagued
When will i rise from this toss turn sleep
With nothing holding me down into this bed
Bring the dirt and make it my grave
Won't you do it please?
Everything is shit, i owe, i lag, i try, i fail, i hate
The pseudo love the world brings on pretty wings
(it sunk my dreams at sixteen)
I can't laugh, love, breath, feel, or fuck
Without knowing my life is sinking fast
And i don't swim
I dream under a sky that i can see crashing down
While i wish on a star that lies
I'm transfixed on a better time
Drawing out the end
I'm crying for a life less plagued
Pure and defined, why can't you give it to me?
I want to hold your head close to mine
And whisper words so far from true
"...everything will be fine"
(mixing your tears with mine)
We can shake it off kid, "i'll try harder
And i'll make sure we still see europe
By the summer time."
Damn you look so sad when i lie
Take my hand, we'll walk this romance
Until it's bitter end
Humming songs in the key of faith in me
Just leave me, because the word on the street
Is that i'm fucked, i'm losing my mind
It's just a matter of time
Just give me a sign
And i'll make it out of here alive
I'll keep feeding ink to paper
And i still won't find a answer
I'm asking, i'm trying, i'm needing...
...but still no answer
We must be speaking a different language
"hey, who's team are you sleeping for?"
Somewhere in hell there's a person like me
With stitch filled skin, and chipped teeth
Here's to eyes that are brighter than mine
And here's to regrets and wasted time
"i need a flashlight..." because i'm obviously blind
Kiss me good-bye, i'm signing off
carry on - broken strings
did you used to believe?
well i was feeling the same way...
squeezing dreams out of a sound
they stick around, they go away
but none of you know a thing about me...
...just go away
"she's fucking dead, oh my god, she's fucking dead!!!"
my love stopped her breathing
now i'm chucking rocks at the glass
because my love stopped breathing life into me
and the songs that she sings
are as dead as nails on the shelf
what happened to the times
where we'd stay up all night and fight
(life there was something worth fighting for)
those were the days dear, forgive me for holding on
i was thinking about the times when no one cared
and how you hated everything i loved
well i don't give a fuck about any of you
you'll come and go
but you'll never mean a thing to her...
i loved the way she sang in my headphones
xsapox
carry on - is this all there is
break me down, fuck me over
it's just a matter of time
"used and abused" says the look in my eyes
the world is full of shitty people, it can't be denied
laughing hard, crying harder, these are the days
i'm through trying to hide..."fuck these days"
it's the anthem of our youth...
the pretty need not apply
i'm through with the pain,
so where do we go from here?
carry on - killing a sound
it's been so long since i've felt hope
i've got to tell myself
there is more to these hollow shells
the consequence is too far fetched
but i've seen it through my crying eyes
there's no sadder noise than that of nothing
we keep on trying to pull it through
there blackened days...when there's nothing left
wasting time and i can't decide...
things are fucked up in my mind
pushing back the way it used to be
my mind is shut, i want to push it away
it's just another wasted day, i'm giving up
i just don't give a fuck, because nothing's the same
carry on - off my chest
so many times i stood around
and never spoke my mind, as it boiled inside
so many words and questions
left to work out on my own
looked down upon for seeing different sides
i've got nothing to hide
you never listened to what i had on my mind
you just pushed me aside
you'll never know all the things i've seen
so don't tell me how to think
all your reasons make me sick
when communication is where it begins
so what's left to say when you won't change?
we'll stand on different ground until the end
and that's the way it will always be
it's going to eat me alive until i get it off my chest
carry on - rethinking
i'd like to think that i don't care
just push away my problems like there's no one there
these days are long, to long to spend waiting
for storms over a tragic end
and this is how we'll meet embraced in misery
searching for love in all this hurt
it's the cold, cold world versus you and me
i write just to forget nothing's the same
you drink just to forget
because you can't deal with the pain
but you're not to blame, i know we're the same
i used to think solutions were clear
guided by a crowd that came and went with the years
those days are gone but i'm still holding on
trying to fight the world through a pen and a song
there was a time (and it's coming back)
where i'd look at someone like you
and know we're the same (because we are the same)
i'm through with the games...
this world is fucked, but i'm still looking up
i broke the rules and now i'm making amends
with what they said and what it meant...
what did it have to do with me anyway?
i'm through with your lies
i closed the door to another end...
xsapox
carry on - roll with the punches
sometimes i wonder if i'm the only one
who even gives a fuck
i watch it fall apart and i want to build it up
but you just turn away
i can't do this by myself so look for other ways
i'm trying to get it out of this rut
the dust has built for too long
if this means so much more than words
than show me sign and quit dropping the lines
stying positive was just a setup
so you could take the punch when they let you down
(it's where we're heading)
so x your fist, show me what's left inside
i'm so sick of everyone's excuses
i want to tear them down
let down before but never again
i wont buy into your shit
i'll just believe in my friends
if that's something that you don't understand
than just sit back and watch it fall apart again
carry on - so much of you
i'm barely alive, my heart just sunk at the thought
of where you're at...you're not with me
and i'm losing hold on the center of my life
it's turning black...
"i feel so alone in this fucking city"
miles of separation
with only a phone to let you know
it's killing me to stay so far away
but i can't go back to that place
where i gave up my dreams
and i broke myself for acceptance
but it never embraced me
and it crushes me to know
every word i wrote to you
never saw the light of day
would it have changed a thing?
could it have taken away our pain?
it was a lesson learned...
...one i could have done without
i can't live with a broken heart
when it's the one thing we share
a million miles away
so i'll keep waiting...
...i'll be waiting right here
carry on - the view
don't look at me...don't call me
with your worthless words
my voice is lost from all the screaming before
circuits and pens...they couldn't change a thing
your apology is so long overdue
i crumble eighteen years
like a sheet of paper, and i set it ablaze
carry on - x s always win
i believed in zines and sounds from the stereo
they spit lies but for years it's all i knew
fast forward the years these people don't mean shit
they stole my heart jumped in the car and split
we're fucked up kids with broken hearts
put in your faith and we'll tear it apart
but the hardest kids still put an "x" by their name
xsapox
carry on - mirrors and needles
headfirst into a wall, you chained yourself to the fall
i want to believe there's a chance it's hold will break...
break away(nothing left for you to save)
a slave to chemicals
a victim of this fucked up world
trying to escape your pain
but now it's all you'll ever know
don't try to forget, you had it all before addiction
carry on - waiting on forever
inside you're dying
you can't face the short comings in your life
looking for something to redirect the pain
i'm not sorry that you can't relate
but it's killing me to watch you act this way
and it's hard to see the way it used to be
when i'm wiping the spit off my face
we'll be here through the years
while you're so convinced we'll fall like the season
but give me one good reason...
well it's nothing that i haven't heard before
but it's like comparing still water to rain
when it's your voice that carries the same old shit
i never thought we would end this way
what can i say