Playlist Blue October

blue october - let the sandman descend

Reaching Out to Save You
Arms Across the Shore
Holding On to Something
With a Reason That's Long Gone Before

The Search Is Back On Again
I Offer My Call

Near Or Far
I Should Have Known
You'd Go
Right From the Start
Don't Know Where You Are
Don't Know Where You`ve Gone

Waking Up the Morning
Chasing You Away
The Sun Is Vapourising
Every Moment I'm Longing to Save

( For You ) the Search Is Back On Again
You Captured My Thought

Near Or Far
I Should Have Known
You'd Go
Right From the Start
Don't Know Where You Are
Don't Know Where You've Gone

blue october - tomorrow

Tomorrow
I?m Gonna Find a Way to Die
I?m Living Only For a Lover
And the Death of You and I
But If You Find a Way to Break My Back
With Needles, Thread, and Guilt
Will You Cover Me in Kerosene
And Burn My Strychnine Quilt
Yeah, Will You Spit Upon the Path I Took
Will You Cry From All the Drugs I Took
Will Be My Little Come Down Hook
And I?ll Never Ask Again
Will I Wake Up Feeling Half of You
Has Been Striped Or Torn in Two
To Kill a Young Man?s Point of View
Is to Kill His Only Friend
Oh, Oh

Tomorrow
We?re Gonna Find a Place to Live
I?m Packing Only Means For Red Wood Dreams
It?s a Place That You?ll Be Excepted
Oh Fuck the World
Just a Boy and a Girl
But It?s That Leach You?ll Have to Shake
Through the Love We?ll Need to Make
Call Me Sure
Yeah I?m Sure I Said
I Said I?m Open Wide
But You Really Have to Understand
We?ll Build a Water Slide
If You?re Brave Enough to Hold My Hand
Oh, Oh

blue october - amnesia

Trampoline
I'm your
Trampoline
Oh you jump so hard but I always catch your fall
So now I'll just
Hide away (you know I think I will)
Hide away
Oh, I run so fast but I always lose them all

I wish I could go to sleep and wake up with amnesia
And try to forget the things I've done
I wish I knew how to keep the promises I made you
But life i guess it goes on
Yeah I know it goes on
You see I've learned it goes on

But then I'll hang us on the wall
And I'll crawl in the open side
And I'm blind to it all
So why don't you
Crawl in my open side and become blind to it all

You know I think it's time to pray
For the contortion, my abortion
That I somehow shoved away
I think it's right for me (yeah I think it's right for me)
When I was young I was stung
And somehow lost God's faith

I wish I could go to sleep and wake up with amnesia
And try to forget the things I've done
I wish I knew how to keep these promises I made
But I guess life goes on
Yeah I know it goes on
You see I've learned it goes on

Way back when I must have sinned
I break down profound, beginning, end
Head trip re-grip what doesn't mend
But I'm wishing this amnesia would kick in [repeat 2x]

blue october - come in closer

The first born, my heart will call Truly
A God-like boy of the sky
The fog hissed away like a movie
And serpents go home for the night
The thundercloud rain hits the freeway
The clowns put on makeup for show
The nightfall, my skin crawl kind of evening
And how the wind she blows
How the wind she blows

[Chorus]
I want you to come closer
Come in closer. Come in closer.
I want you to come in closer
Come in closer. Come in closer.
I want you to come in closer, in closer

Come dancing with devils
Need not to know their names
We'll waltz like an army
For the fear of our pain
Our souls become useless
As the day they were born
In a rusted arm rocking chair
Away from your storm

But still, the truth remains lethal
A lie made by man
Where my shoes become hammers
And my words become sand
Like a sour patch, a wedding batch
Of roses you threw across my floor
In the rusted arm rocking chair
Away from your storm

[Chorus]
I really do

blue october - you make me smile

Some kind of light
at the end
I'm touching
the edge of her skin

Once so hard to speak
Now so easy to play around
Catching your eye you know
That eye that slapped you in your face
and called you a puppy
Well how do you say
I was hypnotized
Hypnotized

My words, they pour
Like children to the playground
Children to the playground
You make me smile

There's some kind of light at the end
Stoned, forgetful, and then
I'm drinking what used to be sin
And touching the edge of her skin

And could you be the one that's not afraid
To look me in the eyes
I swear I would collapse
If I would tell how I think you fell
From the sky

Yeah my words, they pour
Like children to the playground
Children to the playground
You make me smile

There's some kind of light at the end
Stoned, forgetful, and then
I'm drinking what used to be sin
And touching the edge of her skin

There's some kind of light at the end
Stoned, forgetful, and then
I'm drinking what used to be sin
And touching the edge of her skin

It's the feeling I get
My palms with sweat
Like some kind of daydream
I'll never forget
I'm stuck in this spin
Why does it begin
By touching the edge of her skin

There's some kind of light at the end
Stoned, forgetful, and then
I'm drinking what used to be sin
And touching the edge of her skin

There's some kind of light at the end
Stoned, forgetful, and then
I'm drinking what used to be sin
And touching the edge of her skin

blue october - the chills

Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,

Take my hand
Maybe we should run away
Maybe we should disappear
Leave everything behind
Like the useless things
Boxes labeled memories
The sudden health emergencies
Yeah we could leave those things behind

Show me, show me arms that reach for all we can be
Through understanding, I tried forgiveness,
I faced the past, it's what I witnessed

Why do I only feel the chills when I'm with you?
I only hear your words that you say are true
But you keep thinking it over, thinking it over,
You can catch me if you wanted to, oh

Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,

Now, why you gotta say goodbye
When you know you're gonna come with me
No, can't afford to leave and stay
You're gonna have to just build one way

So tell me, tell me all the things you told me we could be
Through understanding, I tried forgiveness,
I faced the facts, it's what I witnessed

Why do I only feel the chills when I'm with you
I only hear your words that you say are true
But you keep thinking it over, thinking it over,
You can catch me if you wanted to
I only feel the chills when I'm with you
I feel like I'm so high, I'm feeling so high
C-catch me, c-c-catch me

Why does a heart always have to break
(When you're trying way too hard), have to break
(Yes she'll see right though you), have to break
Oh communication, yeah conversation,
It breaks down
Now there will be nothing to talk about,
(Absolutely nothing, just blah blah blah)

Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,

Why do I only feel the chills when I'm with you
I only hear your words that you say are true
But you keep thinking it over, thinking it over,
You can catch me if you wanted to
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Can catch me, c-c-catch me
Ohhh

blue october - dirt room

I'm like a ghost
I'll be living in a dirt room
Waiting for the day to be close
To the window when you're home
I'll be standing by your back door
Reaching for the knife in my coat
I'm going to put it to your throat
Sweaty piggy, you're a bad man
What a fucking sad way to go
Your mother raised you as a joke
I should have wiped away a burden
Use the curtain in the kitchen to choke
You

You think you own me
You should have known me
You took the future and the food off my family's plate
You think you'll use me
I'm stronger than you
You take my money, but it's useless
We'll see what I do to you
Look what I do to you

Oh god then you awoke
You started screaming through the duct tape
Don't ever think I'm letting you go
I'm busy digging you a hole
Now you'll be living in a dirt room
Breathing through the straw of your own
Come on
I really think that this is fun for the money
I'll make it comfy for the time wasted making you rich
I want to cover you in ants, bees and honey
Then take a picture for the cover of our album!

You think you own me
You should have known me
You took the future and the food off my family's plate
You think you'll use me
I'm stronger than you
You take my money, but it's useless
We see what I do to you

You think you own me
You should have known me
You took the future and the food off my family's plate
You think you'll use me
But I'm stronger than you
You take my money, but it's useless
We see what I do to you

And now I see you, oh
'Cause your back's against the wall
And finally you're mine
You're mine

You think you own me
You should have known me
You took the future and the food off my family's plate
You think you'll use me
I'm stronger than you
You take my money, but it's useless
We see what I do to you

I really think that this is fun for the money
We'll make you comfy for the time wasted making you rich
I want to cover you in ants, bees and honey
Then take a picture for the cover of our album!

blue october - calling you

Theres something that i cant quite explain
i'm so in love with you
you'll never take that away

and if i said a hundred times before
expect a thousand more
you never take that away

well expect me to be
calling you to see
if you're ok when i'm not around
asking if you love me
i love the way you make it sound
calling you to see
do i try too hard to make you smile
to make a smile

well i will keep calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin and
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me

i thought that the world had lost its sway
(its so hard sometimes)
then i fell in love with you
(then came you)
and you took that way
(its not so difficult, the world is not so difficult)
you take away the old
show me the new
and i feel like i can fly
when i stand next to you
so what if I'm on this phone
a hundred miles from home
i take the words you gave
and send them back to you

i only want to see
if you're ok when i'm not around
asking if you love me
i love the way you make it sound
calling you to see
do i try too hard to make you smile
to make a smile

i will keep calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin and
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me

well i will keep calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin and
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me

i will keep calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin and
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me

blue october - hate me

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

I'm sober now for 3 whole months it's one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes crying and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling "make it go away!"
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How can you do this to me?"

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you, for you, for you, for you.

blue october - into the ocean

I'm just a normal boy
That sank when I fell overboard
My ship would leave the country
But I'd rather swim ashore

Without a life that's sadly stuck again
Wish I was much more masculine
Maybe then I could learn to swim
Like 'fourteen miles away'

You're floating up and down
I spin, colliding into sound
Like whales beneath me diving down
I'm sinking to the bottom of my
Everything that freaks me out
The lighthouse beam has just run out
I'm cold as cold as cold can be
be

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down

Where is the coastguard
I keep looking each direction
For a spotlight, give me something
I need something for protection
Maybe flotsam junk will do just fine
The jets, I'm sunk, I'm left behind
I'm treading for my life believe me
(How can I keep up this breathing)

Not knowing how to think
I scream aloud, begin to sink
My legs and arms are broken down
With envy for the solid ground
I'm reaching for the life within me
How can one man stop his ending
I thought of just your face
Relaxed, and floated into space

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down

Now waking to the sun
I calculate what I had done
Like jumping from the bow (yeah)
Just to prove I knew how (yeah)
It's midnight's late reminder of
The loss of her, the one I love
My will to quickly end it all
So thought no end my need to fall

Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
into the ocean...end it all

[Zayra]
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion (yeah)
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down

Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
(In to space)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
(I thought of just your face)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)

blue october - the money tree

I'm standin' on an open world
I've gotta try so hard for myself
Not including the ones that I love
I call my family

It's not hard when your focus is a beautiful girl
A brand new baby, she's a baby girl
And yes she is a cutie like her mommy
She looks like her mommy

We both know who we are
And I'm not changing a thing,
I've never changed before
If lovin' me is workin' or a job to take
I think we're headin' for the crazy-making heartbreak

I'm wonderin' why I'm sittin' here, alone again
Why you always crush me,
Why it's never easy
Easy, easy, easy, it's not easy

This is you, this is me,
You will be a part of what we need to be
Not for me, for the future of us three
For our daughter college, family, sudden-health emergencies
You think it's easy pickin' money off my Money Tree?

With two houses, both cars,
I paid off your fucking credit card debt,
Did you already forget? Huh?
You threaten, threaten, threaten, threaten, threaten, huh
Just fucking leave,
Find a man who will put up with this

We both know who we are
And I'm not changing a thing,
I've never changed before
If lovin' me is workin' or a job to take
I think we're headin' for the crazy-making heartbreak

I can't help but think
Of how good you are with our baby daughter
Half the time a single mother, when I'm gone away
I so wish you could always stay home
And watch your baby grow, bring her up the right way

You never take it that way

We both know who we are
And I'm not changing -

I need support, not a slap in the face
You have to trust me or I'm sure I will blow up in your face
Our love was such an angel, she doesn't even know
We've torn each other down and why we don't even know

We both know who we are
And I'm not changing a thing,
I've never changed before
If lovin' me is workin' or a job to take
I think we're headin' for the crazy-making heartbreak

I can't help but think
Of how good you are with our baby daughter
Half the time a single mother, when I'm gone away
I so wish you could always stay home
And watch your baby grow, bring her up the right way

It's me the one who has his family's future at heart
It's you the one who never wants a family apart
We both know that together we can only believe
That if we cut the shit there'd be no reason to leave

blue october - answer

If i can't crawl inside of you,
I'm laughing with a broken face
I stumble across my self esteem.
But to picture the pleasure is making me want my space.

Understand...
That god wrapped you like a bow.
But in my head...
There's some shelves that need cleaning,
From basement to ceiling, control.

If what you're seeing is an open book,
Thats great 'cuz i'm an open book.
But i'm real shy.

There's a part of me seeking and desperatly needing
To open up.
That's strange 'cuz i'm an open book,
A confused boy.

I'm an automatic steeple for depressed and lonely people.
My heart while in its cage, is used to give and not
Receive a thing,
But the only funny thing is that i dont know how to give myself advice.

I've got this post dramatic thing
I've got this tattoo of a ring that lies
Around my wedding finger and thats where i want to state this claim.
That i've got to learn to live and dream
Before i go and get myself in love.

In love.

Theres zoloft, welbutrin, theres paxil thats proven,
No side effects.
But the rest left unnamed 'cuz they worked like a charm on me.

But when your savings is drying,
You can't stop from crying
You've got to suck it up.
You're not her buttercup,
You're not her favorite book.

blue october - razorblade

In the day by day collision
Called the art of growing up
There's an innocence we look for in the stars
To be taken back to younger days
When there was no giving up
On the people we held closest to our hearts

Yeah it is you that I remember in that glowing
It is you that took my first away from me
It is you I set my standards to... to every walk of life
I haven't met another you since you were with me.

[Chorus]
A brief bout with a razorblade cut me
I freaked out, thinking people didn't love me
I watched closely as the you I knew forgot me
In letting go, I am so proud of what I've done

In a way, I failed religion
I spit the wine from mouth to cup
And I reached for something more than just your God
Uncle, you spared not your children
And while your praying hands are up
There's no forgiveness for you! You sick fuck!

It is you that I remember in their bedroom
It is you that took their first away from them
It is you they set their standards to
You wounded them for life
You were a preacher and suppose to be above men

Sing with me

[Chorus]
A brief bout with a razorblade cut me
I freaked out, thinking people didn't love me
I watched closely as the you I knew forgot me
In letting go, I am so proud of what I've done

blue october - colorado 5591

A Simple Love Song
A Simple Love Gone Wrong
A Simple Way to Cope
With Six Years of Lovestrong
Then Gone

I Speak of Colorado 5591
Where There's a Paxil-plated Morning Sun
A Hug Every Now and Then From Everyone
Colorado 5591

But Would You Take It Away, Boys?
Take It Away
Would You Take This Pain Away?
Take It Away
Would You Take It Away, Boys?
Take It Away

And Through This Mad Parade I Walked Alone
And Tried to Find Music to My Own Song
But the Music Too Loud Or the Crowd Too Strong
I Kept to Myself, I Kept Alone

And Many Friends That I Have Lost
And Many Friends That I've Found
We All Wanna Stay On Common Ground
We've Got to Find This Common Ground

But Would You Take It Away, Boys?
Take It Away
Would You Take My Pain Away?
Take It Away
Would You Take It Away, Boys?
Take It Away

blue october - italian radio

I ended the book im writing
the part about you im tearing it out
a simple goodnight stop fighting
theres nothing left to fuckin fight about
im leaving you here my little darling
to search for a better and easy way out
through all of the pain that ive been causing
theres nothing left to scream about
recorded italian radio
i changed up the words to make you happy though
if run of the midnight music show
i beat the shit out of the the boy that made you happy
im not just the things that you want me to be
they out-weigh the ones that make me happy
so pull out your hands and meet my fine new lady
shes rock and roll and she'll save me

blue october