lower

Olivia O Brien

And they say, they say that is only up from here
But I ve hit a new rock bottom every single year

I ve been trying to find a reason
Not to stop myself from leaving
But life feels like one big inconvenience
Then you die anyway (Ah-ah-ah)
And I ve tried every medication
I ve tried guided meditation
I ve tried going on vacation
And I m still sad, I m just on the beach

And they say, they say that is only up from here
But I ve hit a new rock bottom ev?ry single year

Little do th?y know
I can always go lower

I want to get that skin off my body
Cause I hate the way it feels on me
Going through emotions like a zombie
I can t wait for the apocalypse
I know all my friends are getting scared
Cause I can t seem to find a way
And my therapist is asking me to hang out
I just might take up on it

And they say, they say that is only up from here
But I ve hit a new rock bottom every single year

Little do they know
I can always go lower

I keep trying to kill myself
But I keep waking up
Hid my letters, take my pills
I guess I m never taking up
They say the only way is up
But the ground keeps getting closer
They say it will go back up
It keeps on getting slower
I can always go lower