starting to scare me

Katelyn Tarver

There s a girl on the internet and she drives me insane
I should probably look into it but I d rather complain
I throw gas on the fire cause I don t wanna change
I just keep choosing the pain

There s a crack in my windshield I probably won t ever fix
I ve been breaking my neck so I can see around it
And I know I know better but I m stubborn as shit
I m just a sucker for it

I keep digging myself deeper
I m not mad about it either

Maybe I should care
Maybe I should stop
But the more I wear it, the more I like
How it feels on me
Have I lost my mind?
I m still me but barely
I m starting to scare me

I live in a city where everybody s a critic
I guess that it s made me a little too analytical
I m picking apart things I actually like
Cause I wish they were mine

I keep digging myself deeper
I m not mad about it either

Maybe I should care
Maybe I should stop
But the more I wear it, the more I like
How it feels on me
Have I lost my mind?
I m still me but barely
I m starting to scare me

I m self destructive
I wish I wasn t
I d rip out my heart to feel it
Cause feeling something s (Feeling something s)
Better than nothing (Better than nothing)
Even if it kills me

Oh, maybe I should care
Maybe I should stop
But the more I wear it, the more I like
How it feels on me
Like I m tearing down walls I built carefully
I m starting to scare me

I m starting to scare me
I m still me but barely
I m starting to scare me
I m starting to scare me