backwards

Jorja Smith

Once upon a time
There were scenes that we didn t mind, oh
I d hop in for a ride, movin fast
Never lookin backwards
Play our favorite songs
Do the words still make you feel the same? Oh
Once upon a time
Drivin fast, never lookin back

I know that I know how to find words
Say them out loud
I m done lettin myself down
My heart came from the right place
I don t want to cause heartache
But my mind just couldn t translate
How to deal with these emotions
Can start fire and still get burn
And I ll fuel it like I ain t learnt
Caus? it hurts me if I hurt you
So I hurt you, so you hate me
But you won t l?ave, I can t get out

How you held me, oh
I hope that you see
There s no way you d know
How, how you helped me

Now I m drivin fast
Like the way that you used to drive, oh
I d jump into your bed
Live your days, they were never mine
Tell me why the light stayed on red
That must have been a sign
All these little things that we missed
We ll get over in time

You taught me about patience
Raised all my expectations
You showed me what s my ground
I stand here and I look down
On myself and I m so proud
Thank you cause I ve figured out
What s best for me is on my own now
It s been a while and I m grown now
But I d never have grown if you weren t round
You ve shown me what s meant to be
What s meant for you is not meant for me
And we ll find out in this next life

How you held me, oh
I hope that you see
There s no way you d know
How, how you helped me