train song aka paler shade of grey

Jewel

I try to recall what it was you said to me just then
but this train keeps on rocking me back to sleep
and I fear come tomorrow I won t even remember your name

I d make myself remember
Make myself recall
but these promises and these vows I made you now
seem to have no voice at all
The color of the canyons
When first it was said I love you
But these colors and these canyons
now all seem silly and small
I don t understand at all
how these colors in my memory just fade
into such a pale shade of grey

and cold rails remind me of your cold feet
and my eyes expect to see you behind every door
but when I shut my eyes
I can t even recall what it is that you wore
My god was that only yesterday
I can t even remember your face
I feel so far away

I make myself remember
Make myself recall
but these promises and these vows I made you now
seem to have no voice at all
The color of the canyons
When first it was said I love you
But these colors and these canyons
now all seem silly and small
I don t understand at all
how these colors in my memory just fade away
into such a pale shade of grey

*I say to myself My god I used to love him
I wanted to share with him my womb and my world
But now I stare at him as though through a glass wall
I say I used to love him but now I feel nothing for him at all
My god how could this be
Won t you please explain this to me

Now sleep sings to me in a sweet and urgent voice
And I fear that I have no choice but to forget these flowers
these daisies you gave me, the offerings you made me
the vows that we swore by, swearing we d be together
always and forever, the children we named and now we ll never have
and I know I m supposed to meet you
I don t even think I ll remember your name tomorrow

I make myself remember
Make myself recall
but these promises and these vows I made you now
seem to have no voice at all
The color of the canyons
When first it was said I love you
But these colors and these canyons
now all seem silly and small
I don t understand at all
how these colors in my memory just fade away
into such a pale shade of grey