life of the spider

Halsey

It s four in the morning
and I m layin with my head
against the toilet seat
For several days now I ve been living here
Too tired to sleep, too sick to eat
I feel like a monster and it doesn t help
that you will treat me like I ve got the venom in my teeth

Cause I m the spider in your bathroom
I m the shadow on the tile
I came for shelter from the cold
And I d thought I d stay a while
I m only small, I m only weak
And you jump at the sight of me
You ll kill me when I least expect it
God, how could I even think of daring to exist?
Looking just like this, I m hideous

I m nothing but legs, they used to say
I m nothing but skin and bones these days
You dangle me high over the drain
and tell me I m lucky you don t drop me there and
Let me wash away or put me on display
By trapping me forever between a glass and a dinner plate

Cause I m the spider in your kitchen
weaving webs through every year
And I worked real hard on the last one
but the last one got me here
I m minding my own business
but my presence makes you curse
I should be getting better but I m only getting worse
And, God, how dare I even think
of choosing here to die?
Cause then, I m just a problem
that you have to take outside

And I know you hate the sight of me
I haunt you when you re fast asleep
I ve got eight legs, a million eyes
if only I had eight more lives
Cause I m the spider on the ceiling
and you re nothing but a guy
You don t like it when I cry
you would break me if you tried
And you will because I dared to be alive