ego

Halsey

I m caught up in the everyday trend
Tied up by invisible thread
Walking down a razor-thin edge
And I wake up tired, think I m better off dead
Been a few months since I crossed over state lines
Talk to my mom, fake smiles over FaceTime
Drink all night
Till I can t walk in a straight line
Feel so low
But I m high at the same time

I can t keep my feet on the ground
And I m nervous what you ll think of me now
I m hoping that someone comes around
Helps me figure it out

I think that I should try to kill my ego
Cause if I don t, my ego might kill me
I m all grown up but somehow lately
I m acting like a fucking baby
I m really not as happy as I seem

Still a little kid that can t make friends
Wanna be invited, but I won t attend
I ve been having bad dreams my career could end
Cause I slip up when I should ve played pretend
Turned eighteen and I left the city
Said, I wanna be cool, I don t wanna be pretty
The voices all came crashing down
And said, You re too nice to run this town

I can t keep my feet on the ground
And I m nervous what you ll think of me now
I m hoping that someone comes around
Helps me figure it out

I think that I should try to kill my ego
Cause if I don t, my ego might kill me
I m all grown up but somehow lately
I m acting like a fucking baby
I m really not as happy as I seem
Nothing s as it seems
Nothing s as it seems
And I m all grown up but somehow lately
I m acting like a fucking baby
I m really not that happy being me

I don t like the lie I m living
I m way too nice and too forgiving
I wanna go back to the beginning
When it all felt right
A rooftop, Lower East Side, I m singing
Didn t give a fuck if I was winning
It s all done now, who am I kidding?
(Who am I kidding?)
I m doing way worse than I m admitting

I think that I should try to kill my ego
Cause if I don t, my ego might kill me
I m all grown up but somehow, lately
I m acting like a fucking baby
I m really not as happy as I seem
Nothing s as it seems
Nothing s as it seems
And I m all grown up but somehow lately
I m acting like a fucking baby
I m really not that happy being me