homesick

Grace Vanderwaal

I m homesick for a day that never happened
And I m going to a place that I imagined
I ll awaken in my bed, the sheets are sweated
I don t know when the best of my life happened

Cause I waste every moment on the chase
Oh, it s never over
For the day that can t get any better
If it s mine, it s gone forever
But then why do I remember?

I m craving arms that never held me like a mother
Who s love s so safe it s deadly
And I m small, and I m warm
and all that s real is the moment
And I m no longer a woman, I just melt into the floor

While I waste every moment on the chase
Oh, it s never over
For the day that can t get any better
If it s not mine, it s gone forever
But then why do I remember?

All I ever wanted never did exist at all
I feel like my whole life has been haunted
By a child who never was
And all I ever wanted never did exist at all
I feel like my whole life has been haunted
By a child who never was

All I ever wanted never did exist at all
By a child who never was