dear insecurity (ft. ben abraham)

Gnash

i hate the way u make me feel
i hate the things u make me think
u make me sick to my stomach
i wish that i wasn't me

some days, when i wake up i see myself in the mirror
i feel like what shouldn't be couldn't be clearer
my nose to my clothes, from my chin to my skin
i'll never be good enough ever again

for u
so i changed for u
then i dyed for u
then u made me blue
if i were u i'd hate me too
but i already feel like u do

because
u tell me i'm not worth shit
& the bad luck's on purpose
& if i'm sad then i deserve it

but underneath the surface
i'm hurting, searching, & learning
my imperfections make me perfect

dear insecurity
when ya gonna take ur hands off me?
when u ever gonna let me be
proud of who i am?

oh insecurity
when ya gonna take ur hands off me?
when u ever gonna let me be
just the way i am?
dear insecurity

i
feel like i'm dying on the inside
but i smile it off
i'm a mess, i'm depressed
i'm alone & it's all my fault

did i do something wrong?
this feeling's unfair
ur making me anxious
but why the fuck do i care?

i overthink everything
til my thoughts are impaired
i hate everything about me
i think i need some air

drink some water, take a breath
take a moment to be thankful
for the reasons that ur blessed
it's not about mistakes u made or failures that u had
it's all about the memories & little things u have

ur freckles
& flaws
to ur body
& bruises
ur scars
to ur beautiful
birth marks
the truth is

we're one & the same
so play the cards that ur dealt
nobody likes u more than when ur being urself

dear insecurity
when ya gonna take ur hands off me?
when u ever gonna let me be
proud of who i am?

oh insecurity
when ya gonna take ur hands off me?
when ya ever gonna let me be
just the way i am?

i am
proud of the person who
i am
nobody's gon' tell me who
i am
or who i can be

i am
taking my life into
my hands
are tired of hiding who
i am
i am me
so

dear insecurity
when ya gonna take ur hands off me?
when u ever gonna let me be
proud of who i am?

oh insecurity
it's time i make u take ur hands off me
set me free, i'm gonna let u see
i'm proud of who i am
just the way i am
i'm proud of who i am