i lose

Daniel Johnston

She invited me to a pity party
Every hour everyone was making fun of me
I told her it really didn?t matter
You can?t imagine what it?s done to my personality
I don?t know where she should go, but I lose
Though I tried, like a lullaby, I lose
Once I saw her in a crazy dream
She was laughing, I looked the other way
Then I find that she unwinds, she puts me down behind my back
Everyone seems to have a love but me, it?s what I lack
I?ve been denied the hurt inside, I lose
Though she was barely a friend of mine, I lose
I got left out of the ?in? crowd
They speak as if I was there
They say the cruelest things, I seen their type
A bunch of buttwipes that rule
Don?t make sense, it?s really strange, I lose
Though I try, there?s no sense giving up, I lose
I walk the second mile, there?s no one there, I lose
I pick up the pieces of my broken dream, I lose
Everyone had their fun, I lose
Yet she was a one of them from the beginning
How am I to carry on, there?s no help given
Then I realize it?s all reoccurrence
What they?re thinking, their mind is a blur
I seen the future, and I ain?t even there, I lose
I see it all, and it?s really, the same old thing, I lose
They think they?re smart, all huddled together, I lose
One more time, I try to make it, I lose
I lose, I lose
Tell me about it, darlin?, now