hunting season

Chelsea Cutler

Patience is a virtue
But heaven isn t for someone like me
And I would only hurt you
Standing on your shoulders in the deep

It s hunting season, always all or nothing
My legs are so tired, how is anybody running?
Why the hell am I so devoid of any meaning?
What is living for if you don t know what to believe in?

It s been so hard for so long
It s been so hard for so long
Where did I go so damn wrong?
It s been so hard

The forest has a fire
But all it ever seems to do is rain
(All it ever seems to do is rain)
And I wish I was lighter
So you would never have to hold my weight
(Would never have to hold my weight)

It s hunting season, heading into wint?r
Running from the gun, but it s my hand on the trigger
Why th? hell am I so afraid of going deeper?
I blame everybody, but the person in the mirror

It s been so hard for so long
It s been so hard for so long
Where did I go so damn wrong?
It s been so hard

I m scared I ll always be this way
That people will not wanna stay
That I ll wake up forever hoping
I just make it through the day
That I ll make myself smaller
To fit someone else s version that
I ll lay down on my deathbed an unhappy fucking person

It s hunting season, I don t have a weapon
I am at your mercy, I was just a freshman
Why the hell am I somewhere in between the crossfire?
I say that I m fine, I have become such a good liar