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August Burns Red

I could feel my heart sink
I had been pushed to the brink

Losing this conflict was all I could handle
I thought my world was ending
But it was only expanding
It wasn t the emotion I thought I d expect
?This won t happen? was engrained in my head

My absence was always my escape
I wasn t in the best place
You re owed memories I can t restore
Not stories of wayfare and folklore

My undivided attention was served in seconds
For you I had to mend them
The best parts of me were beckoning

I swallowed my fears
I m so grateful you re here
The last two years
Would have been unbearable without you there

I thought I bided my time too long
It turns out the timing was perfect
In the end the weight was all worth it
The brightness guided me through the fog
A constant beam of light that set my course right

I had taken on too much
It took over me
Longing for what I had when I was young
I had taken on too much
My responsibilities are choking me

Setting boundaries for myself
I m the one who keeps walking all over them
Creating limits for abuse
I m the one leaving myself battered and bruised

I let misery be my motivator
I could sense myself slip into this crater
I ll only be one thing forever
I ll slide the scales back to the center
The agony and anguish were just all part of the endeavor