can t stand the mourning

American Authors

I know death and taxes, they can t be out run
I thought I d have more time before the race begun
Lost my father at twenty and I lost you last week
How can I cope, I still haven t found me
I ve tried different religions and psychic hotlines
Must be someway to hear your laugh one more time
So I self-medicate to stay comfortably numb
Knowing sooner or later ya my day will come

I need chemicals to sleep
To see you in my dreams
If I take enough maybe one day we ll sp?ak
Oh, when I wake back up
You won t be th?re to talk
These photos and voicemails of you aren t enough
Let me close my eyes
Cause I can t stand the mourning
Let me close my eyes
Cause I can t stand the mourning

All my friends
and my therapist tell me stay strong
But I haven t hit the gym in well
God knows how long
All my smiles and tattoos are doing their part
They re all putting in overtime to cover my scars
Can t pretend that it s still the best day of my life
When I tell you the truth, you say, it s all a lie
So I ll pour one out and pour my heart into a drink
Cause I d rather pay for whiskey
than a mid-level shrink

I need chemicals to sleep
So I ll see you in my dreams
If I take enough maybe one day we ll speak
Oh, when I wake back up
You won t be there to talk
These photos and voicemails of you aren t enough
Let me close my eyes
Cause I can t stand the mourning
Let me close my eyes
Cause I can t stand the mourning