ruin it

Alkaline Trio

IÂ?ve waited a long time for this life
Just to ruin it, so please donÂ?t ruin this for me
Yes I understand this lie
Hell, I crossed those TÂ?s and scratched out all those eyes myself last night
When I promised not to fight
So this is what IÂ?m looking like these days
All grown up and so full of hate
But I donÂ?t want to let go of my rage
Â?Cause itÂ?s the salt that brings the tasteÂ?
So where am I if you decide that IÂ?m not right?
Â?Cause I might break and I might bend
Your heartstrings out of tune again
And I might try to apologize
On a good day
On my best day, if you stick around
Did I stay inside to sterilize this knife?
Am I being too careful? Does this feel right?
Did I open up the shades to expose the sun in rays?
To show whatÂ?s burned there inside.
Yeah, take a close look, hold me right up to the light
IÂ?ve waited for so long
IÂ?ve waited for so long
Spread me out, rake me in
This coarse and rocky field will camouflage my skin