Secrets

myself, my mind, and i

So help me God to fall asleep at night
'Cause every night feels like I'm losing a fistfight
I'm gone, feels like there's something wrong
'Cause I can't escape from these prison walls
That I've built myself
If you can hear me, can you please come free me?
Time, feels like I have none left
Can you check my pulse, if it's beating?
Sometimes it feels like
I'm heading in the right direction, then I turn
I knew that it was too good to be true 'cause I've learned
This suffering lasts forever
It always takes me in, it pulls me under farther
Does everybody else just walk on water?
Breathing in and breathing out, I suffer
So help me God, can I recover?

It's so tough to get up these days
There's nowhere to go when your mind's a cage
I'm stuck treading water, slowly drowning in this pain
I can't seem to get much sleep
When I close my eyes, I just overthink
About everything I've done and will do
Am I born to lose?

Immobilized, I'm petrified
I can't run and I can't hide

Am I paralyzed? Is this my life?
Anxiety has got the best of me tonight
Feels like I can't unwind
My chest restricted and tight
It's like I've lost all sight
All darkness without a sign of light
I guess I'm stuck here waiting for anything

It's so tough to get up these days
There's nowhere to go when your mind's a cage
I'm stuck treading water, slowly drowning in this pain
I can't seem to get much sleep
When I close my eyes, I just overthink
About everything I've done and will do
Am I born to lose?

I can't run, I can't hide
I guess I gotta just stand and fight tonight

Ugh
I'm stuck in a cycle, it's repeating
Help me out of this hole, I can't keep bleeding